Why I Broke Up with the Anarchist Community

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About five years ago, I stopped hanging out and doing work in the anarchist community because it wasn't meeting my needs. The community wasn't doing the kind of work I'm most interested in, it was completely white-centric, and it tended to silence me when I got the most passionate. In short, the anarchist community in the city I was living in failed me.

But I never stopped considering myself an anarchist.

During my hardcore anarchist years, the same tiresome things kept happening. I'd attend meetings or events and realize folks were glaring at my child. There was often a palpable feeling in the air "Who is this breeder? Doesn't she know her kid isn't welcome?" This always made me feel like saying, "Listen, you stinky motherfucker, your impressively righteous punk patches and by-the-book taste in music notwithstanding,  you don't get to decide whose party this is, and just because you're uncomfortable with your own parents and class privilege doesn't mean all parents, or all kids suck. It might mean that you suck, though. Now go throw a rock at a window and call it revolution." But I never did, probably because I didn't feel like inviting the backlash such a comment would bring.

As time went on and I became more vocal in the community, even more tiresome things kept happening: people continued to insinuate that my mama comrades and I were expecting a handout when we suggested they offer free childcare at events, somehow white men always dominated the discussion and organizing efforts and succeeded in drowning out the voices of those they did not agree with, and in one surreal instance, I was publicly compared to Andrea Dworkin, of all people, for standing up in defense of a fellow woman organizer. Too often I felt misunderstood and marginalized. All the evidence started to add up that, as much as I loved my community, it was not the right spot for me to do my work.

Realizing that I was perpetually on the verge of a giant rant, I decided that if my anarchist community refused to grow up, it didn't mean that I had to do the same. So I dropped out, and started many humbling years as a just-scraping-by community organizer, trying to create human-scale neighborhood solutions aimed at solving some of the problems in places I lived.

But I never stopped considering myself an anarchist, even though that affiliation would make as much sense to many of my current friends and neighbors as "card-carrying Martian."

In fact, I am a die-hard anarchist. (This, even, from a person who refuses even to describe herself as "feminist" because she has too many disagreements with what most people consider feminism.) The one label, other than mother, that I use with comfort is "anarchist." I fucking love the ideology of anarchism. Even if I find it hard to connect with the theory of crusty old Russians -- possibly more relevant to male industrial revolution-era workers than to poor mothers of the 21st century -- I will always be passionately convinced that each person deserves access to all the necessary tools to make her life what she wants it to be; that we don't have to go knocking on some rich, educated person's door, or tug on our congressman's coat to ask politely for some solutions; that everyone on earth deserves justice, and to experience the richness of human life, now, not later; and that people should be held accountable for the messes we've created. That is my anarchism.

I just didn't want to spend my life arguing with the people I thought should have my back.

Let me ask a question. What percentage of anarchist events, without being asked, provide childcare? Are there any anarchist communities in the US that provide elder care? There are uncountable ways we could address these simple issues, but for some reason we'd rather read about how they did things in 1930's Spain than develop a nuanced and sustainable plan for a truly new society in the shell of the old. Hey, I love reading about the Spanish Civil War, too, but something is off when we'd rather talk at each other about times long past until we're blue in the face because it is so much less risky to talk than to do the hard work of making things better.

Often, we ghettoize ourselves in our comfort zones, to a point that anyone who doesn't fit the anarchist "description" feels as out of place as a fat woman in a fashion magazine. Hell, at almost every anarchist meeting or event I went to with my kid, I was given the side eye. It gets old. One guy at the infoshop refused to pass off the keys to me because he didn't "trust" me. Well, I guess he was right, I didn't fit into his version of anarchism: a white boys club that holds endless geekout sessions about whether the police qualify as "workers." Count me and my kid out, thanks.

Often, our concept of what is revolutionary is not really a mature concept of true revolution. If  you've ever thrown a rock through a window, you know what I'm talking about. It feels good, but ultimately, someone just comes and fixes that window. It would be nice to really dismantle something, or really create something lasting. We need comprehensive solutions-based thinking, because these are some big-ass problems we're dealing with, and when the going gets tough, daddy is not going to drive up in his SUV and solve them by throwing some money around. Neither is the government, which is being eaten alive by a corporate cancer and outsourcing more and more of its most basic functions, going to be able to deal with the reality of the situation in a few years. Will we be ready the day that no water comes out of the tap, that the light switch does not make the electricity come on? Katrina was just a dry run for some of the awfulness that could happen. And not enough people see it coming.

It's time to walk the walk, not just talk the talk.

Another question: how much does an white-centric infoshop in a poor neighborhood of color really accomplish? What is the average lifespan of an anarchist infoshop anyway? I apologize for my bluntness, but please, don't have the self-important illusion that you are really fomenting the revolution or helping anyone. Get your ass to community meetings, town hall meetings, listen, talk to people outside your comfort zone. Organize. Get yourself out of the anarchist ghetto.

Only the hard work of making things better will dismantle the current society by making it outdated and obsolete. Current "solutions" have already been obsolete for many of us: I haven't had health insurance for 13 years. My food stamps were canceled this month. Folks, we need whole systems thinking and entire structures of mutual aid that are accessible to people who may not have social networks or anarchist caché. Where is the anarchist federation of time banks that organize community health care? Where are our anarchist restaurants with free food for poor single parents, disabled veterans and the homeless, locatable to all in the yellow pages? When the landlord raises the rent again, where are our anarchist sanctuaries with safe, clean and cheap roomshares that are child-friendly?

We're not doing good enough. We are too complacent.

But I never stopped considering myself an anarchist (and I can't deny that I will always have a huge soft spot for even the most closed-minded black-flag scenesters who may not grow out of calling me a breeder). I believe, now more than ever, that anarchist principles are the answer. Every single anarchist needs to be a kick-ass community organizer -- we need to spread decentralized solutions-based thinking before it's too late and fascist corporate capitalist "restructuring" solutions take over when disaster hits (like in New Orleans, where I hear all of the public schools have been privatized, housing projects shuttered, and neighborhoods left to rot). We need to proactively empower our communities and brace for the coming disasters. The tidal wave will come, and we can carry on with our infoshops and punk shows, which are really comfortable, after all, or we can create accessible solutions that provide resilience for our families and our communities.

We can grow up and do more of the work that makes things better: creating community-based health care, organizing child and elder care systems of mutual support, opening intergenerational democratic free schools, turning unused properties into peoples' art museums, implementing permaculture gardens and food forests, organizing free transportation, sustainable community housing, public safety programs, anarchist conflict resolution and mediation centers, and taking part in rituals that bind our community together. The possibilities are endless, and we've all imagined them.

Perhaps the best first step is to look for folks who have been doing this work in our communities for ages. Maybe that's the person standing next to you at the punk show. And maybe it's not.

Amy Hamilton is a mother, community organizer, writer, dancer, choreographer and anarchist. A founder of Mothers Alliance for Mutual Aid, she has also worked on various other projects focused on grassroots economics, youth empowerment, children's education, sustainability, and green jobs. She is the creator of the Pipsissewa Movement Project.

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Comments

Thanks

for putting that out there, Amy. I've never really identified as an anarchist but I've had some good talks with the dorky white guys who run the local bike coop about how to create and sustain meaningful social projects that serve more than just other dorky white guys.  I'm starting to feel like all meaningful action starts in the heart as compassion and spreads outward from there as other people start resonating in sympathy. It bothers me that so much activist rhetoric is oppositional, "fight the power" "smash the corporate state" "fight racism sexism etc" rather than expressing the fundamental unity that for me is the whole point. What do you think needs to be done to address the issues you bring up? How can we let go of the anger and see past whatever scene we're a part of?

I like the points you bring

I like the points you bring up. Oppositional rhetoric can only get a movement so far. When you are constantly, vehemently against something, you are in the end, giving it more power by continuing to focus on it to the exclusion of other things. At the same time, I don't think it's necessary to suppress the very real feelings of anger that, to me, constitute a healthy human reaction to the state of the world at this point.

It seems to me that when a community has ways to funnel anger into productive action that builds power, it's much more satisfying than constantly focusing on what's wrong 'over there'. When people don't hold any answers themselves, but insist on being against everything (including those around them in their own circle), you begin to see a dead end there. It's too easy.

Shouting "smash the state" year after year, and maybe getting into a skirmish with cops here and there can only hold you for so long. Eventually I think most people want to see results, or they feel disempowered and jaded. This is part of the reason that anarchism is often a youth movement--people want to move on to something different, something that brings different results. It doesn't have to be that way. 

Thank you

Thank you for representing a viewpoint of anarchy that is rarely considered in mainstream society. The word "anarchist" means different things to all people, and I have found that many people lily-pad to the white adolescent male representation. This always gets my ire up. If the meetings and groups themselves cannot evolve towards ideals and thoughts and philosophies of this day and age, then how can we expect others to view the community as anything other than the 1930's historical ideals and happenings that you wrote of? The issues are what matter. We need to work towards positively re-building views and opinions on a grand scale and that takes work, work in which every positive contribution is a worthwhile one. Any two or three people can get together to rant and vent about what they dislike, but we can do better than that, any in many cases we already do. Let that be where our evolution lies. Society may need an overhaul in actions and ideals, but so does the anarchist community. Let's break the stereotype. I got on a rant there, but thank you Amy for clearly and succinctly writing your experience and thoughts. It was refreshing to read

Thanks for reading.

Thanks for reading.

thanks

I really appreciate your ideas about getting out of the comfort zone. Being pretty involved in this website, for a time, and Evolver.net spores, more recently, I have noticed that everything has this New Age gloss to it. Everything is Reiki this, DJ that, Ayahuasca, Ayahuasca, Ayahuasca. Not like that's bad, no offense to people that really dig that stuff. I just agree that things could be taken much deeper. There are families that are affected and like you've mentioned there has to be some way of hearing that side to the story. Its kind of synchronistic because one organizer I am working with mentioned going to a meetup today. We'll be hearing advice on grassroots organization. I'd like to learn a lot more on how to take this energy and focus it in a mature and responsible way.

When scenes become insular

When scenes become insular and self-referential, I think it's a sign of atrophy. Keeping things moving and constantly asking questions is really helpful. Hope your meetup goes well. Feel free to keep in touch at http://elevenoclockalchemy.wordpress.com/

wow. very well said. i am a

wow. very well said. i am a community organizer who works primarily on indigenous land issues in northern arizona (www.savethepeaks.org) and have associated my values with anarchism. however, nothing has been more of a struggle than trying to work with other anarchists, and patriarchy is the biggest issue. i don't go to meetings anymore or do conference calls because i am tired of getting rebutted for input. all that said, i have found that indigenous rights movements are highly consciousness about providing for community members for such things as child care, elder care, food share, etc. they are also aiming for the highest anarchist ideal, sovereignty. so to readers, do you know about your local indigenous peoples and issues? can you offer support?

"Nothing has been more of a

"Nothing has been more of a struggle than trying to work with other anarchists."

So true, unfortunately. Anarchism can attract people who learn how to say the right things but sometimes don't take the time and effort to really decolonize their minds (which, really, is not so easy). One of the biggest red flags, for me, is when someone can not step back and listen, or be wrong, or humble. And then when you have a roomful of people operating this way...

I agree that indigenous rights struggles are a whole different story when it comes to providing for community, and unfortunately, are often not on the radar of radical activists. Thank you for your comments, and for reading the piece! Please keep in touch at http://elevenoclockalchemy.wordpress.com/

agreed

I fully agree with Amy. I was involved in the socialist and anarchist circles in the 'liberal' town of Madison,WI and it was the same in both groups. It got even worse when all the 'conscious' groups (i.e. socialists, anarchists, greens, feminist, progressive democrats, etc.) got together to try to focus on a common action. Anyway, I have always aligned myself more with the anarchists and consider myself an anarchist in the sense of pure anti-authoritarianism and that anarchy is true democracy.  Finally, the main reason I am posting to 'grasygrass' is becasue I teach social studies in the Dine' (Navajo) Nation, am very aware of www.savethepeaks.org , www.blackmesawatercoalition.org , and www.indigenousaction.org, and would like to connect with other activist minded people here in northern arizona.

Georgesome great sources

George

some great sources are

 http://www.taalahooghan.org/ northern arizona's infoshop, located in downtown flagstaff

 

 http://www.desert-rock-blog.com/  information on the ongoing resistance to the coal-fired power plant in the eastern regency of the Navajo Nation

 

 http://blackmesais.org/  current support for the peoples resisting coal mining on black mesa

and i recommend networking sites (i.e. myspace, facebook) as a way to stay informed on all these issues, they are all very actively updated.

 

The infoshop would most likely ( I am a former collective member, so i say this confidently) be pleased to mail you educational zines or other items  for yourself or your students if you can send a donation for  the postage

beautiful perspective

It was pleasure to read your perspective on anarchy. Anarchism, like anything else, is an -ism. It soon becomes about conforming to specific ideas of culture. I love what you say that the best first step is to look for people who're actually helping. Thanks, very refreshing. http://www.beyond-karma.com

Thanks for reading!

Thanks for reading!

We should always be aware

We should always be aware when our radical communities become too insular, like some sort of exaggerated, but very serious pretending. I think the young-punk anarchist scene, and the whole-lets-pretend-to-be-poor thing is a sort of rejection of privileged identity, but it gets executed in a way that doesn't convey what it's really like to lose privilege. Talk is cheap.

"Talk is cheap." It

"Talk is cheap."

It really is. Words are great but if they're not backed up with action it just gets demoralizing after a while. 

AnarKey

Yeah, good stuff thanks... Shouting slogans and smashing things up is part of the same counter-productive impulse as the boy's clubs you describe. When I began to discover what anarchism really was I was amazed at how closely it aligned with my ideals, and how far it was from popular conceptions of it - chaos & destruction? Just the opposite! A faith in the ultimate nobility of humankind, a way to allow mutually beneficial order to arise from the ground up - no out-of-touch, self-interested jerk sat at the top leading things astray... it's gonna hafta go that way by whatever name, eventually - good on anyone who's preparing the ground.

Yep. The word 'anarchism' is

Yep. The word 'anarchism' is just a newer word for a very old concept that has been around as long as there have been human communities, in my opinion.

further research.

thanks for sharing your perspective and dialoging in this comments area.  

what do you suggest studying to gain an understanding of this way before it came to be known as what it is today? 

Great article

Thanks for this, I really enjoyed reading. I too consider myself an anarchist of sorts, and have since the rise of the now-dead anti-globalization movement. During that time I was coming of age and felt such a gargantuan feeling of momentum that true fundamental change was just beyond the horizon. This of course ended on the treacherous day of 9/11. Ever since that tragic event, the anarchist movement has crumbled, all the while, never admitting so. Infoshop has turned to mush. The numbers attending street demonstrations have dwindled to the point of hilarity. The issue of white-centrism within the anarchist community has been a hot topic for a number of years now. I'm disappointed yet unsurprised that it has yet to be resolved. One thing that was not mentioned in your article is the fact that the anarchist movement has been successfully infiltrated by a variety of government agencies. There is reason to suspect that the rock throwers and window smashers are in reality undercover agents designed to further marginalize the anarchist "movement", something that genuine anarchists themselves seem to refuse to comprehend or acknowledge. So while I still consider myself to be an anarchist in the real sense of the term, I...like yourself, no longer attend their events due to the fact that they, like the systems they purport to oppose, utterly refuse to evolve.

Thanks. I'm interested in

Thanks. I'm interested in building on the many positive aspects of the anarchist movement and minimizing the self-destructive tendencies. I have a lot of care and love for the community, even though I now prefer to interact with it from the sidelines. 

There are so many community projects started by anarchists that are really under the radar, (as anarchist-inspired, anyway). There is a continual flow of ideas and energy to mainstream culture out of anarchist organizing. For me, the question is, how do we keep that going and build on that influence? There is so much of value created by anarchists that is really an overlooked part of people's history in the US.

Although this piece is titled "Why I Broke Up With the Anarchist Community", I obviously still interact with the community and have a major interest in seeing it be as successful as possible, otherwise I wouldn't have bothered writing this at all. 

As far as provocateurs, I agree that many--not all--rock throwers may not have the best interests of the community in mind and may be professionals working for other entities. However, there are many people that are drawn to anarchism because they want to fuck shit up with a group of folks. I'm not saying that's totally invalid; I just think if, theoretically, people really want to fuck shit up, they might think about tactics other than throwing rocks through windows, and might try to move beyond acting out of a simplistic destructive urge. 

A very interesting article...

One question. Do you have any recommendations in regards to issues where there aren't any people working on it and/or getting people up to speed is really difficult? One of the things I've been working on is how pharmaceuticals are made and how they can be made by village or town sized collectives(so that things like antibiotics and antidepressents can be provided without having to work with a large corporation). The thing is most people who would otherwise want to decentralize pharma manufacturing invariably believe that we don't need anything pharma produces at all ever.

Would he were fatter! But I fear him not:
Yet if my name were liable to fear, 
 I do not know the man I should avoid
So soon as that spare Cassius. He reads much;
He is a great observer

Something I think about is

Something I think about is condoms. An industrial product that I hate to think about my daughter's generation being without.

It's a great question you've asked. I think there will still be a need for chemically-produced pharmaceuticals , even if we are able to minimize their current overuse.  I'm far from an expert, but doesn't effective treatment for diabetes depend solely on pharmaceutical companies? We do not want to be caught without access to antibiotics, either. Just to give two examples. 

As far as production of pharmaceuticals, this is a question I have asked myself and done some rudimentary research on, and it really does not seem like there are many people doing more than asking the question. 

 One good model for community health care is barefoot doctors,http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Barefoot_doctor It is a treatment model but something similar might be good for spreading information about production as well (how to organize manufacturing on a community scale, as you say).

 Alternative and complementary treatments will certainly become more widespread, and as this happens, we have to keep an eye on the overharvestng of medicinal plants (which is currently happening with ginseng and goldenseal, for example). 

Preventative care and grassroots community health care are great solutions to help mitigate lack of access to current methods of treatment. 

Thanks for the question. Please keep in touch at http://elevenoclockalchemy.wordpress.com/

 

 

my 2 cents

Growing up on an organic dairy farm and now teaching in a native reservation, my suggestions from my experiences are:

1. Try to keep everything as local and untainted as possible. Educate yourself on all the plants and herbs that are native to where you live. Grow or scavenge any of these foods or herbs for the benefit of a healthier mind and body. (if there is a native tribe in your state or which was originally in your area before the european colonization, they still might retain that anciant knowledge of the plants. if not, you could also consult homeopathic literature, herbologists, and botanical field guides)

2. Try to avoid antibiotics unless it's absolutely necessary. Our current society overuses antibiotics (whether in food production or direct human useage) and over sterilizes everything which kills many beneficial bacterias that keep us healthy and boosts our immune systems.

3. Growing and caring for your own garden, surrounding yourself with good people and participating in community projects can greatly alleviate much of our societal depression. (just as "hyperactive" children are overmedicated, i believe depression is also overmedicated) People just need more caring, human interaction such as community share plans, potlucks, etc.

 

a few more cents

Condoms:

1.) I've heard that some culture, at some time used the intestines of the animals they ate as all natural condoms. Only hearsay though. Sounds kind of funny and haven't researched the accuracy of it yet.

2.) There are certain herbal mixtures that can be taken to prevent pregnancies.

Diabetes: 

Unless it's the genetic type, the majority of diabetes can be cured by eating healthy, homegrown, organic, or local foods. The overly processed, overly sweetened and shitty fast foods are the problem to the current diabetic epidemic. I've become more aware of this on the Dine' (Navajo) Nation as native american populations have the highest rate of diabetes amongst any other group in america. (check out how the Tohono O'odham, on the Arizona/Mexico are fighting diabetes: www.rlnn.com/ArtNov06/TohonoOodhamFightDiabetesCropsGParentsGrew.html

 

 

 

Diabetes

Very right, though more specifically it is a vegan organic diet that prevents and can usually cure diabetes.  See the books "There is a Cure for Diabetes" by Dr. Gabriel Cousens and "Dr. Neal Barnard's Program for Reversing Diabetes: The Scientifically Proven System for Reversing Diabetes Without Drugs" for starter resources on that.

Nice article; the world needs more passionate people like yourse

That said, have you considered the Zeitgeist Movement?

 It is a budding social movement that recognizes the earth's resources are our common heritage (not owned by anyone), and is dedicated to creating practical measurable solutions to humanity's needs through the generation of abundance via the the focused application of the scientific method; i.e. society by non-government.

More info here:http://www.thezeitgeistmovement.com

Thanks for reading. I'm

Thanks for reading. I'm aware of the Zeitgeist Movement, and even share some common views with it, but I see more answers in decentralized, grassroots, land-based movements for resilience and social justice. I believe the Zeitgeist movement prioritizes technology and scientific inquiry over what they call "traditional values", and I'm more inclined to prioritize indigenous and land-based traditions over scientific inquiry (and all of the above have technologies). More to the point, anyone who says you have to choose one or the other is promoting what I'd see as a false dichotomy. I think we should search for systems of value anywhere we can find them; different solutions will work for different communities. The answers can be found in both traditional knowledge and modern research, and the two are not incompatable or even always separate (for example, permaculture applies ideas from both).

Why I brok up with the anarchist community

Wow. I thought that I was the only one. After years in the anarchist and other "activist" communitites I found myself having to do the break-up thing, too. For one-- after awhile, it felt like just another "clique" or "scene"--and not that different from Junior High in that regard. Same kind of importance on what you wear, what music you listen to, blah, blah, blah. I have found REAL affinity groups among country-music listening, coal mining "rednecks", and other people that no self-respecting "anarchist" would be seen hanging out with--unless they were patronizing them in an attempt to proseletyze them into the fold of anarchist punk righteousness. The (r)Evolution must be big enough for EVERYONE!  Of course lifestyle choices, and cultural values that hurt others, and hurt the Earth, need to be enlightened...but there is so much that is not really harmful or divisive--just different from what the majority of  this particular subculture would consider "acceptable". I am tired of dealing with false ego personas. I am trying to step away from mine, and I don't want to be part of anything that reinforces such identification. Two--I am also a mother, and share the same concerns that you have voiced regarding the unfriendliness of the anarchist/activist communities toward children and those who create them. Frankly--I do not want to hang out with people that resent my child for existing, and judge me for "breeding". I don't care to expose either of us to that kind of (what I consider) arrogance, and small-mindedness, and lack of respect for the beauty and magic of the creation of LIFE. Three--In coming to terms with serious illness, a near-death experience, and other transformative events, I have come to the feeling that the fundamental shift that must occur (and IS occuring!) is a shift in consciousness. A spiritual shift. I still consider myself a communo-anarcho-syndicalist--and I still believe that the "perfect" society will reflect that. However--I believe that when we have blossomed into a consciousness based on Love and Light, and returned to the awareness of who and what we REALLY are, we will naturally create social structures based on freedom, justice, and equality, because these sorts of social arrangements reflect LOVE and the highest consciousness. I am afraid that we could have revolution after revolution (and believe me--The Revolution was THE sacred ideal that I lived for--and would gladly have died for--for many years)--and, while we remain in limited consciousness, each revolution--although entered into with the best and highest ideals would be subverted/stolen/corrupted/manipulated/etc. by someone(s) with Darknesss in their hearts who would use it to control, dominate, and exploit others. I guess that my focus has changed from dialectical materialism to spirituality, because that is where I believe the fundamental problem lies, and the fundamental shift must be/can/IS BEING made. However--experience leads me to believe that talking like this in my former anarchist/activist circles would get me snickered/cold shouldered/vibed right out of the room. In so many ways me and the anarchist/activist scenes are just not on the same page anymore. I feel a little bit tribeless sometimes. The activist tribe doesn't grokk where I am coming from, and the spiritual tribe doesn't necessarily see the need for the kind of right action that I do. Thanks for speaking to something that I can relate to. Reading your article made me feel camraderie. I miss having COMRADES! Brightest Blessings! Yours for the Evolution, BlissKisser-----sweeter appears Be melting snow. wash yourself of yourself.

Thanks for your thoughts.

Thanks for your thoughts. The spiritual element does sometimes seem incompatible with the political/revoltionary world. I know my life has really changed since moving from a large city to a place where it's much more possible to have an actual connection with plants, and with the land. It's easy to have a life of activism that is really empty, on a certain level--spending hours working on urgent matters beyond yourself, while never concentrating on your own self and body. Many politically minded folks don't see a value in spirituality, ritual, or connection beyond the material (and I have no interest in passing judgement on that either way). I personally find a lot of peace in just being grounded and having a practical connection with the earth. It's something you can always come back to, as working with people can--let's be real--sometimes be tiresome! 

I sometimes wish I could believe in a massive shift in consciousness, but that idea doesn't resonate with me so much. My own belief is that as we become less dependant on industrial systems, we'll become more connected with the land, by necessity, for survival, really, and that our cultures will evolve in a much healthier and sustainable way as this connection is strengthened. That's my hope, in any case. I really have no idea what is going to happen in the next 15 years, or beyond, though.

Yours in camaraderie~

 

 

Your wishes will come true

      “The spiritual element does sometimes seem incompatible with the political/revoltionary world. …I sometimes wish I could believe in a massive shift in consciousness…”

      It’s always fascinating to me; to see someone evolving right before my eyes. Those two sentences are so pregnant with change that I can almost hear the heartbeat. Let’s come back to this moment a year or two from now to see if I was right. I’m curious to see if what you are wishing for comes true.

 

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OOOPS! I don't know where that "sweeter appears" came from, randomly inserted at the end of my post! I confess to being something of a neo-Luddite. Technology mystifies me at times. This is one of them! ---Be melting snow. wash yourself of yourself.

sweeter appears

...probably came from the Captcha security element at the bottom of the edit window you were typing in; perhaps you typed the two Captcha words in the edit window by mistake?

Thank you for your comment (above) and welcome to RS. I look forward to your comments, and to the little children they might spawn. You are definitely not alone! I have found many like us, thankfully. Contact me if you'd like to know who.

I have to ask the

I have to ask the question... When I was involved in Fort Worth, TX, which is definitely NOT a liberal town, women were abound in the anarchist cells I worked with. They more often than not took on leadership roles with the full respect and admiration of the entire community. Without appearing as a racist, I must ask: where are the people of color ? Again, the cells I worked in celebrated diversity, and in fact had discussions about how to reach out to people of color. When attempting to work with the Panthers and BLA, a few of us were attacked (physically) by our comrades and called honkies and told to "go home". Maybe people of color are not interested... And before we all jump on the Anarcho-bashing bandwagon, let's not forget about Food Not Bombs, which has been feeding people and providing a safe environment for children, women, and people of color for more than 20 years straight. Crimethinc. is also doing an outstanding job of moving past the scenester ghetto. Check them out at http://www.crimethinc.com I do admit that I eventually dropped out of the Syndicalist movement, because I felt that the factories didn't need to be shared, but dismantled. I started hanging out with the feral peeps and found the true nature of what I seek: Anar-chy as opposed to Anarch-ism. Most people refer to this as Green Anarchy or Primitivism, and it has a bad name, especially among Anarchists, because we're "too wild" and actually get out there and work to dismantle systems instead of debating in our clubhouses and dressing up in black. Just my experiences, I'm not trying to define anything as "right" or "wrong" or defend anyone or any movement. P, E, & A, Jeff

Why I Broke up W/Anarchist Community

Some people with very pronounced and vocal anarchist/libertarian political views are actually extremely authoritarian and domineering. I haven't figured this out yet. I've also noticed that anarchist/libertarians >tend< to be male and a bit short on the feeling circuit: intellect/sensation types in Jungian jargon. Maybe you aren't an anarchist anymore, or you're a different kind of anarchist now. Maybe becoming a mother has just changed you more than you know. It's been a long time since I would have called myself an anarchist, but I notice I keep coming back to the anarchic worldview, checking it out from different angles. I've been reading a lot of basic sources recently to try to figure out my own still-evolving views. Give yourself permission to be yourself and think what you think. No one else has a right to judge you.

An Observation

Something I have noticed: generally speaking, people involved in the political movements in the 60s and 70s fizzled out as they became parents. I wonder if the responsibilities of life and making a living in western industrial culture grinds down the revolutionary political drive.

What makes me ask this is that I look at the people who used to be political and, in general, they become like their parents. That's not what this author is talking about. But it is something I have noticed about other people.

Kozmik asks if being a

Kozmik asks if being a parent and making a living could cause one to fizzle out: Well, of course! And people can and do change, and then change again, and turn into their parents and back again. I feel like I've turned myself inside out several times already. :D

encouragement

Dear Amy - I was enthralled by this post and enjoyed reading it very much. I can greatly empathise with the type of looks that you must have received attending meetings with your child. When I say that I am an anarchist if asked what my political affiliation is, I get a look from people that is not so much "oh, this must be a bad person" as much as "oh god, I'm in the same room with this person and I need to get out". Recently, on some video blog posts I was challenged to demonstrate exactly how anarchism could work in our society without using any language akin to "flaky upper class white-liberalism" or "civil libertarian tax structure delusions". Well, evidently, I succeeded - because all my posts and their responses were removed completely. But I am no guru. I'm just a minimalist with a disdain for consumer economics and a firm belief in karma and entropy. I am writing an essay entitled "society without government" based on a pamphlet I found on the sidewalk when I was seven. I would love to hear your critique when it is complete. Thanks again for posting this. I will enjoy following your blog. Regards, Skip Pulley http://www.soundboyamerica.com

I couldn't have said it better myself

Most of these scenester "anarchists" are going to wet their pants and run to mama when the first shot is fired at them in anger. Your presence among them makes them uncomfortable because in you they see what phonies they really are....I used to call myself an anarchist but now I call myself an existentialist ...too many rules in the anrchist movement

Before enlightenment..chop wood, carry water

After enlightenment...chop wood, carry water

Hate to break it to you...

...But as much as you identify with the ideals of anarchy, it will get you nowhere.

When I was young and started to gain my intellectual identity I gravitated very much towards the anarchist cause. It just made sense. I envisioned a world in which the then-beginning information age would bring an end to ignorance and create a real opportunity for a society to govern itself. I was enthralled. As I got older and more independent I did everything I could to get involved in anarchy functions. At first it was exhilarating to be surrounded by people chanting the same ideals, complaining about the same issues with our current social structure. But as time wore on I quickly recognized the problems with my group, and indeed the issues with similar groups all across the nation. Problems which Amy Hamilton has encapsulated in this article better than I have ever seen done before. As the information age matured, and the internet went from a tool of the savvy revolutionaries to a pass-time for ordinary people; reality hit me hard. The reason we have such a faulty and mediocre society is simple:

Most People Don't Care.

For most people, if their basic needs are met, they become so disinterested in serious change that they cannot even begin to fathom something as radical as the anarchist movement. Easily 80% or more of Americans are happy to put up with irresponsible leadership and crushing debt and a doubtful future if they are able to have their cable TV and fizzy drinks today. I have learned that humans, by their very nature, are complacent; lazy. It is a basic function that has allowed societies to exist at all. If it where not for the 80% happy-to-be-a-peon ratio, society as we know it would have torn itself apart long ago. If human minds where compatible with the 100% independent 100% individual-driven social setup of anarchy the human race would have been all but wiped out. Leaders lead, and they need followers to do that. Followers are great, but they are not independent enough to be compatible with anarchy. They simply won't take enough personal responsibility to function that way. "its not my fault", "this isn't my job", "I don't want to do this." We can't all be revolutionaries. Averaged out, human beings, let alone Americans, are incapable of being responsible enough to run their own society. This simple fact puts a steak in the heart of wide-scale anarchy. It just can't happen, at least not until the human mind has gone through some considerable evolution. All that widespread anarchy could bring is conflict and poverty and ignorance and a massive leap backwards in the standards for human life.

So I abandoned anarchy; both it's title and it's ideals. I went back to basics, I went back to the core of my beliefs. When I got down to it, the only thing I felt was a universal truth of life was the theory of evolution. Natural Selection. Survival of the Fittest. It is a relentless, unending process that always produces results, regardless of variables. It is the ultimate mechanism of life, un-defeatable so long as the basic requirements for life are met. So powerful is it that it can even change what those basic requirements for life are. It even works in the absence of life. The process of natural selection has been used by science to design components that the human mind would not have dreamed up on its own. Only strange widgets so far: audio-sensing chips and weird little radio antennae, but it does work, almost frighteningly well.

Natural Selection works, and it is something embraced by a wide variety of free-thinkers, though each in their own way. Anarchists, Naturalists, Existentialists, Environmentalists, "Liberals", none of them will deny that it exists and that it works. Yet I find it strange that none of these people are willing to apply it to society. But I was. I felt myself gravitating most strongly towards people who embrace evolution most strongly in terms of the way society should be handled.

To my own bafflement, this lead me straight into the heart of those I had hated most when I was young: Capitalists. Capitalist pigs: hunters of the week and vulnerable. Destroyers of nature and the will of the average man. Scheming, thieving, soulless monsters who have plagued human society since it's very beginning. How on earth could I get into bed with these people?

Shocked, but not enough to turn away, I gingerly waded in. All I could do at first was turn a blind eye towards the vast majority of capitalists in search of those who shared my vision. Slowly at first, but then with increasing regularity, I found them. Small business owners, free-thinkers, researchers, volunteers, charity workers; some of the most radical and independent individuals I had ever met. The older and more experienced of them introduced me to a political ideal that grabbed me and never let go: Small Government 

The idea of small government is something that could satiate the ideals and desires of so many forward-thinking political movements. Liberals, greenies, anarchists, everyone. However, unlike all of their movements, small government actually has the potential to make BIG changes to our society. A major overhaul that results in better life for everyone, not just some small-town movement that only effects a few thousand individuals in a single isolated community. Does this sound familiar anarchists? A revolution? A sweeping change that will forever banish the corrupt leaders of yesteryear to the history books? A country-wide movement that values high standards for human life, fair distribution of wealth, and above all: Personal Responsibility!

Small government could deliver all of this and more. On top of that, it actually has a realistic chance of working; unlike other head-in-the-clouds liberal movements popping up all over the country. Would it be nice for no American to go hungry? Yes. Would it be great to provide for every single last homeless, disabled, elderly or otherwise needy person? Sure. Would it be wonderful to have universal health care that doesn't lower our existing standards? Hell yea. Are anarchists/existentialists/ecofeminists/anti-consumerists/etc capable of accomplishing any of these things?

NO

The fact of the matter is this: humans need stuff. Do we need as much stuff as we Americans currently consume? Absolutely not. But that doesn't change the fact that there are things we need that no anarchy movement, no matter how big, could ever provide for. Example: The Internet. That wonderful tool that anarchists love so much; that has allowed them to connect and organize like never before. A tool that the author of this very article has leveraged to make her voice heard by many times more people than would ever be able to have heard her through other means. Sorry anarchists, but capitalism is the only social force that could keep the internet going at this scale, and expand it continuously! Sure, open-source programming picks up more steam every day, but without capitalism those coders would have nothing to work with. No cutting-edge computers, no software development tools, hell, no wires and fiber optic cables with which to communicate.

Long story made short: We Need Capitalism!

Now, does that mean we should let capitalists run the show? Hell no! Greedy bastards, they'll happily poison the planet and take advantage of the ignorant and do countless other unspeakable acts to improve their profits. They get away with far too much as is, they need reining in. But like it or not, its that ruthless pursuit of better profits that makes it such a powerful force for good. Even very small, honest mom-and-pop businesses practice cunning penny-pinching and haggling techniques to stay alive. Its evolution: survival of the fittest and it is good. All that needs done is to do more to make this process work for people, not against them. The information age is already taking care of a lot of this. Corporations can't get away with the bullshit they used to. Corporate scams and scandals are ferreted out and shared with the world at an ever-increasing pace by organizations like The Consumerist. Its happening naturally and supporters of Small Government can make it happen faster.

Fiscal conservatism, planning for the future, practical approaches towards preserving the environment, sustainable social services, high-quality and widespread health-care, a common-sense approach to currently-illegal drugs, higher average standards of living, emphasis on education, efforts to reduce world-wide conflict, and personal responsibility.

These are my ideals and the ideals of an ever-increasing number of Small Government supporters. Our ranks are spread throughout the country and are given many labels: new-age conservatism, tea partiers, young republicans, all the labels are crap; but our message is strong. Down with the over-sized, over-spending government mega-monster. What the people can do, the people can do better. Anarchy and Small Government supporters want a lot of the same things. We both want the government to back off, shrink away and to let the people get on with the business of taking care of ourselves.

The difference is that we acknowledge not every single person is willing or able to take up that responsibility. We realize that, evil as it may become, governments are necessary because it just isn't practical to get every last man woman and child involved in running our society. Many of them don't want to and so we don't want them to. We take a much more realistic and pragmatic approach. We've got the best chance of making significant, national change because the changes we need to make are closest to reality. As interesting as anarchy is, it won't be practical on a wide scale inside of the next hundred years.

Many anarchists shout us down. "Sell-outs" who compromise and are willing to get into bed with the current establishment. Small Government isn't "cool" or "indy" or "progressive". It doesn't have whole genres of popular music dedicated to it. It doesn't have a sexy appeal, or daring avant-garde books and movies that explore its social meaning. Its not an excuse for young angry white men to get together and complain and throw rocks through Starbucks windows. It isn't a fucking "scene". What it does have is a diverse, pragmatic, common-sense oriented group of people dedicated to finding a better way for society to serve private citizens. We'll let anarchists bitch and moan about the establishment and talk about the Spanish civil war while we get on with the business of improving society for real. We'll get on with dismantling the flawed establishment from the inside instead of worthlessly tossing stones at it's unassailable walls from the outside.

Mock if you want. Cling to your 'superior' ideals. Gather in your community centers and hand out fliers and fruitlessly chase an impossible dream. Meanwhile we'll be busy building an improved society for future generations. It won't be cool, it won't be sexy, it won't be revolutionary, but by God it will be better.

Are we talking about Anarchy?

Anarchy, from the ancient Greek, anarch (without a chief), means the absence of any sort of government. What you are talking about is community activism. I think these are two different things. I have always held anarchy to be something to be avoided because it can only be a point in time. Then something will fill the void (fascism seems to be the historical favorite). The Spanish Revolution for all its Romantic glory, was really just a bunch of thugs running around killing each other. Vendetta was the word of the day. As far as I know, anarchy was developed as a philosophy so that the individual could realize his (sorry ladies, but there are no neuter personal pronouns in English) potential without the interference of systems. I have no problem with doing things in your community to help out the situation, in fact, I applaud it, but I don't think it is really anarchy. Once you start building systems to change the situation, any situation, then you are constructing those things that anarchy is set against. Perhaps it's time to come up with a new word, like community activist or maybe hippies, and let the anarchists hit each other in the head with sticks and bricks.

Anarchism deliberate action towards system free of coercion

Anarchy is the power vacuum of which you are writing. I can see how you might get the terms mixed up :)

Anarchists need a diverse social and political support system

Hi Amy! It stands to reason your negative experiences with your local anarchists would resonate with many activists, of all types. These problems of marginalization are evident in every aspect of urban society. The guys where I live have conflict with identity politics. Hmm, I wonder why? The first thing I noticed about anarchists when I began seeking connections to anarchist projects, was how rigid they seemed to be. I still love the guys and their critique of leftist activism, still find it empowering. When someone needs child care, I volunteer. I am my own kind of anarchist, after all. They are their own kind. I wish there was more mutual aid, sure. So I just try to be of service when I see a need.