Waste is Not a Dirty Word!

A few days ago I felt inspired to visit St Paul's Cathedral, the spiritual heart of the Church of England. Although I was christened as a child, and though I sometimes visit church to hear a good friend play the organ, I wouldn't really identify myself as a Christian. Yet as a gay man and a pagan I appreciate the earnest inclusivity of the Church of England, and I certainly revere the quiet majesty of St Paul's. So it is that I found myself in a side-chapel one lunchtime, meditating alongside a small congregation of the usual businesspeople and tourists.
In the middle of this side-chapel stands a huge ironwork candelabra mounted atop a handsome marble plinth, which is strewn with sand to catch wax and toppled candles. Indeed the whole structure was festooned with countless votive candles that day, being constantly added to by a steady stream of visitors. Each would approach the plinth in her turn, depositing a few coins in the wooden slot before taking a candle from below, lighting it ceremoniously, then finding a place for it amongst the others. Some worshippers would light several candles in turn, whilst others would recite a holy incantation, or else whisper a subtle wish.
I had a strange, even absurd revelation as I sat there observing the flow of visitors. I suddenly saw the scene on two levels. At one level I was moved by the beauty of all these spiritual beings investing their deepest wishes in votary ritual, performing a kind of sympathetic magick even in the heart of the Christian church. On another level, one which shocked and jarred me, I was struck by the total waste of candle-wax. The candles' heat was lost in the comfortable self-regulating ambience of the massive stone building. Their light was drowned by sunlight streaming in from stained-glass windows high above. They were useless -- frivolous. They were being wasted.
Of course I understand that the burning of the candle is central to the votive act, that it is essential for the working of the ritual. One can't offer a prayer with a candle and then put it back on the shelf unused! And this Christian act was just the tip of the iceberg -- people of almost any faith will offer up a sacrifice, offering or token of some kind or other, given the right context. I knew all this, I felt it, and I had practiced it myself. But still this nagging voice told me, the candles were going to waste. This was the voice of rationality of course, the voice that finds it so hard to accept divinity, faith, ritual, and all that that implies.
So far so good -- we know very well that the modern rational mind has trouble accepting its alternatives. But a very specific connection had been made that day; this wasn't a lack of faith I suffered -- remember, my first impression was to be moved by the presence of my fellow worshippers; I was one of them too. Rather, even though I had every conviction in the votary ritual, I still intuited that it was somehow wasteful. Perhaps, though I don't like putting it this way, the material cost might outweigh the spiritual gain. And now in hindsight I see that we're faced every day with a mirror-image situation. As we become ever more conscious of the profound poverty of modern life, we fear that the spiritual cost of our lifestyles might outweigh the material gain.
In either case (at the scene at the chapel, or in daily life), the fear is that something precious might be going to waste. Increasingly in today's world this fear is played on, for better or worse, every time we cook a meal (think about freight-miles, cooking gas use, composting?) -- or take a simple journey. Our benign concern for each other and the environment is in danger of becoming an overriding obsession, fixing us into meek, predictable patterns of (sustainable?) production and consumption driven by a distinctly machine-like quest for efficiency. I for one almost went as far as to condemn a sacred ritual because it was converting a few grams of paraffin wax into carbon dioxide -- and for no appreciable (material) gain!
But if it's out of a concern for nature that we fear waste, that fear is misguided. Nature is not efficient. Where nature finds efficient and elegant solutions to specific problems, on a local scale, the energy that is saved is only exerted again -- "wastefully" -- elsewhere.
Consider the world's vast reserves of oil and other fossilized hydrocarbons -- those same reserves from which the wax candles were made. In prehistory (as now), the energy bombarding the earth from the sun was so great that the ecosystem couldn't possibly make use of it all, whether efficiently or otherwise. Nature's perpetual miracle was to use what it could of this energy to raise towering forests from vast quantities of inert matter taken from the air and the very ground itself. But there was no immediate use for this embodied energy. It was waste. It rotted down and sank deep into the bowels of the earth where, according to some ecologists, it would have been best forgotten forever.
Yet if we're comfortable conceiving of Gaia as a single integrated organism -- as some of us do -- then what are these rich seams of concentrated, latent energy? They are layers of fat. They are deposits made ready to be tapped when the time was right. Whatever humanity's ills -- and we have many -- I want to believe that we still remain a vital part of the global ecosystem. Now we can consider mankind's pillage of the oilfields to be a crime against nature, a tragedy or a "wasted" opportunity -- meaning that, in retrospect, we can imagine putting those reserves to "better," more efficient use. Or we can accept that our tapping of the earth's yolk-sac began at a time of psychic and spiritual immaturity for us. We were not fully responsible; we were only doing what came naturally. We were part of a natural process.
Now things seem a little different. The stored reserves of energy are running low, their release has forced massive effects upon the global ecosystem, and these twin realizations are prompting us towards new heights of consciousness. Yet by what right do we consider this released energy to have gone to waste? Or to voice an even more challenging question, by what right do we consider waste to be a bad thing?
Let's slow things down a little, and answer these questions one at a time. By what right do we consider released energy to have gone to waste? Consider the gas central heating systems currently in use in millions of homes. They tend to be remarkably inefficient -- as well as emitting carbon dioxide and other "waste" gasses, they also let out large amounts of heat into the surrounding air (including in the exhaust gasses themselves, which tend to be steaming hot). We like to think of all this as "waste" -- at best, it will never be seen again, though we know we could have put the energy to more efficient use. At worst, it actively contributes to global warming, which we've decided we don't like. But in terms of basic biological processes, we are adding energy (and useful materials) to the ecosystem -- resources which otherwise would be trapped deep underground. Your inefficient boiler may help your vegetable patch grow greener. On a wider level, climate change is a massive spur to evolution and is increasing Gaia's complexity even as many species and individuals become extinct -- something which, if my intuitions are right, we need not be so squeamish about. Our actions are creating new ecological niches on an unprecedented scale.
Intellectually and morally I am not sure that we can separate the effects we enjoy from those we don't. This raises my second question, by what right do we consider waste to be a bad thing? If we insist on calling the release of energy or material into the environment a waste, we imply that we'd have wanted to get more out of it. We imply that it shouldn't be there yet -- or at all, or that it shouldn't be in the form that it is. But we are only now tentatively developing the faculties to really recognize and judge our actions -- and it is not a question of individuals answering, but of all humanity answering, as an organ of Gaia. And I suggest again that the release of these vast stored energies, and the transmutation of all this matter, is a natural moment in Gaia's evolution. Again, let's be clear -- nothing has disappeared when the candle has burned away. In fact, much has reappeared from the physical, temporal and even spiritual depths of the earth. Whatever our conclusions, we must remember that the energy and matter that was stored up is still there -- it's just been put to use. In my most humble opinion, for it to have remained buried forever would have been the only true, unmitigated waste.
Now I'll add the voice of my heart to the voice of reason. One of the hallmarks of emergent consciousness seems to be the ability to resolve multiple, even conflicting points of view. So, I stand by all I've just said and believe it to be true. But in my heart I also feel that there is something wrong with the way we've been "wasting" (I'd prefer to say "using") nature's resources. I'm scared by climate change and environmental degradation. I'm shamed by my contribution to mountains of trash -- though perhaps we're amassing a new nest-egg of sorts for future inheritors, in a way that we ourselves can't envision (just as the ancient forests probably didn't know that they'd one day power electric can openers -- or high-energy radiotherapy machines, for that matter).
The message that I'd like to offer is deceptively simple. As we become aware that our "wasteful" lifestyles are causing us more grief than joy, we should also beware that we don't become preoccupied with avoiding waste, to the extent that we fear to live our lives, playing into the hands of those who would make our decisions for us. The message is deceptive of course because it is so difficult to put into practice. How do we allow ourselves leeway without returning to the old obscene ways of consumerism and carelessness? I can't answer that question for all of us, but I can propose a naughty, throwaway thought: Waste is not a dirty word.
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Great Article...
Renunciate Appreciation
I'm always struck by ways people handle adversity such as the apparent conundrum of whether to light the candle or not--with all the attendant implications. I don't believe that this needs to be experienced quite as ambivalently as many people seem to do.
While we learn how to think of multiple circumstances or influences as logically conflicting or competing, our reality allows for mathematics and logic but isn't only logical. We sleep at one moment and wake at the end of that moment, but sleeping and waking aren't conflicting although we can conceptually impute that conflict. Neither is the fact that we need both sleep AND activity deceptive as far as I can tell. But I agree with Darren that facing this apparent conundrum, accepting accountability and abundance at the same time, moves us towards a potentially better perspective--a richer social and psychological dynamic.
It can seem that rampant consumerism supported by an expansionary capitalist ideology and military superiority sits on one side of this conundrum while world-renouncing, medieval monks sit on the other. But we might as well throw in pagan hedonists, Talmudic Jews, Hungarian farmers, and gorillas (sure, gorillas, why not). Rather than a simple dichotomous conflict, we have a rich background to draw from and luxuriate in. The conundrum is artificial (waste is not a dirty word), but that we feel the pull of different perspectives is not. It is the same good will that motivates one towards devotion (light the candle) or thrift (save the paraffin).
Our minds and bodies thrive on diversity, but only when they are well-rested. When we're exhausted and stressed, dealing with a wide array of choices adds difficulty, mental stress, anxiety, etc. Focusing on one simple candle and one simple feeling not only reduces the stress (in a medical sort of mode) but also enriches this very moment experientially. We can feed all of the apparent conflict into one simple flame--for a while, for a moment. We need those moments just like we need sleep.
When we aren't accustomed to setting aside all of the hubbub, when we aren't accustomed to renouncing psychologically, the physical renunciation (don't light the candle) ends up being a symbolic attempt to express that good will. But we can see and feel that the symbolic expression of devotion and good will can be lighting the candle at one moment and not lighting it at another. Psychologically, the conflict involved in "should I light the candle or not" is energetically wasteful. But if this sort of psychological struggling is your symbolic expression of your desire to be good, be good.
Ramana Maharshi, when asked what is the best posture for prayer or meditation, replied that there is only one true posture--submission to the divine. Practicing moments of simplicity and moments of appreciating abundance allows us to light the candle and not light it too. If we don't look for the right or entitlement to light the candle, we can also give up any moral superiority involved in not lighting it. Then there is peace in the renunciation (not lighting), peace in the flame too. While our practical decisions will never be perfect and complete, we can allow some moments in our lives to be peaceful. Sometimes that feels perfect and complete.
Selfishness
I find this a very interesting discussion. For a start, I do resonate with Mark Trueblood's extract - thank you for sharing it! Yet Uncle Rudy's reply raises important points; selfishness, visciousness etc. are more-or-less 'self-centred' value judgements, whether we find those traits in 'wild' nature or in the Shanghai cityscape, which we seem to agree is no less a manifestation of nature.
Whilst it's true that these value judgements regarding nature's 'spontaneous, organic interaction' are expressed via a sense of self, and whilst in some circumstances it seems that an egoistic sense of self is a barrier to spiritual realization, happiness, environmental stability etc, I have to make a certain contention: our selfish, judgemental faculties allow us to discern the treeness in a tree, ugliness in the Shanghai sprawl, desolation in the desert or love in the eyes of a lover. The ability to conceptually pit the whole of creation against one's own petty interests is thus as beautiful as it is perverse - beauty and perversion being further value-jedgements, of course. In fact I think this complex gift/curse/obligation/privelege is one of humanity's (and so again, nature's) more unusal and remarkbale endowments. Certainly it cuts across the article that I wrote here, without being fully explicit.
Perhaps (and with a great deal of sympathy and respect for Uncle Rudy's position), I should rename my article, "Self is not a dirty word." :)
A Deep Subject
Thanks for a very interesting article, and the pondering it generated. I too have wondered for a long time what exactly our place is.
Are we merely part of the organic stream we call "life", appearing and disappearing in a flicker of geologic time?
Are we aliens to this world, able to fashion whatever tools we might need in order to rise above (for a limited time) the gnashing and tearing of the pit below?
Or are we truly transcendent, putting on and taking off costumes of flesh, playing out roles of our own unconscious choosing before someday returning Home?
I feel myself in all three of these, and wonder which is the true...
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Wonderful article!Let the
Wonderful article!Let the Beauty we Love be what we do. There are hundreds of ways to kneel on the ground. -Rumi
BlissAnanda The Highest Intelligence is Awareness without judgement.Our Bodies are borrowed of the Earth and Her elements. Our thoughts are borrowed from ourselves, our God and the Angels. Our Spirits are borrowed from the Sun and our Souls of the Night Sky. Let us be Abundant in our Realization of Interdependence.May we be peaceful and lovinghere is a poem of this inspiration, breath of life:
Last night, as I was sleepingBy Antonio Machado(1875 - 1939)English version by Robert Bly
Last night, as I was sleeping,I dreamt -- marvelous error! that a spring was breakingout in my heart.I said: Along which secret aqueduct,Oh water, are you coming to me,water of a new lifethat I have never drunk?
Last night, as I was sleeping,I dreamt -- marvelous error! that I had a beehivehere inside my heart.And the golden beeswere making white combsand sweet honeyfrom my old failures.
Last night, as I was sleeping,I dreamt -- marvelous error! that a fiery sun was givinglight inside my heart.It was fiery because I feltwarmth as from a hearth,and sun because it gave lightand brought tears to my eyes.
Last night, as I slept, I dreamt --marvelous error!
that it was God I had here inside my heart.
-- from Times Alone: Selected Poems of Antonio Machado, Translated by Robert Bly
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Waste not
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A Message From Mother Earth
My friend, you may call me Love, or The Loving Mother.
You wish to know about the plants and forests. All of these things, along with your human selves, are my children. You are born of me, and spring from me. I LIVE as you do and hold my place in the firmament as I indulge my longing for the higher virtues, the greater understandings. I, too, have questions to be answered, but I am happy to take this opportunity to answer those of yours that I am able.
Is there intelligence in lifeforms beyond those you understand to be "cognizant?" Do plants, rocks, birds, air, have intelligence? Yes, my friend, you would be frightened if you knew the scope of intelligence and that it exists in all things. But you would not recognize intelligence in all of these areas because it does not correspond to your ideas regarding that which is worth thinking about.
For plants, it is not so necessary for them, as it is for you, to express individuality. They are not as ego bound as you are. They require no such proof of their aliveness as individual achievement provides for you. Make no mistake, your path is not wrong. You are clearly designed to express differently than plants, but you would at times find comfort in being a little more like them, if only because you share a common ancestry through the earth.
And so, communing with me, Mother Earth, and with my rooted babies will feel naturally pleasant for each of you.
With regard to the future of this planet, there will continue to be earth movements, erratic weather patterns, earthquakes, volcanos, and so forth, as adjustments take place. And many will continue to predict doom. Those who require--or create for themselves through expectation--such experiences will "enjoy" them, while those focussed elsewhere will manifest a different experience. I am not really all that disturbed about the havoc you humans have wrought on my surface. It is like a case of adolescent acne. It is transient and correctable. Such is the "nature" of my work; of my larger self. You have made ugly scars upon me on a microscopic level, and you have killed my creatures in your attempts to assert your superiority, a longing created by your negating your own larger self, and a dwelling upon the outer, or physical self which is all many of you perceive as reality.
What you have caused, in your clumsy efforts to own, to command, to provide yourselves always with more of what you think you do not own--and more of what you feel will make you better, of happier persons--these things I have in abundance. My surface skin is resilient. If you drink my oil, I have more to give. If you tunnel deep within my surface, I heal the wound. Through a small hiccough I right again the things you made "wrong."
Watch a colony of ants. Their endeavours are so important to them, as their little social structures they uphold; as their hierarchies of leadership they employ; as their minute grains of food they labour to forage for their community. They seem so self important as they burrow holes through my soil and my trees, and yet they are but some of the tiniest of creatures. Watch yourselves as you make your way through your day, scurrying, hurrying, worrying about all the things that seem so important, so world shatteringly important to you. Realise you are but ants, going through the same survival processes, but for your minds which add such complexity to your doings. There is truly nothing more important in your lives than eating, creating, recreating and procreating. All else is just the lemon wedge on the edge of the glass.
Abundance is all around you. I am abundance. And this is my gift eternally to you. Even in the raped forests there is yet abundance; there is yet life. Moreover, there remains in such ruins the expectation of new growth, and as much courage, determination, enthusiasm, love, optimism and joy in the fledgling growths as in any mature forest. After all, the souls inhabiting my creatures great and small are all equal.
If the exact destiny of the world, of myself and all my babies could be foretold, it would naturally take the fun out of living! Be unconcerned, for it is enough to raise your arms in loving tribute to the Sun and to the Creator with absolute faith that love shall not lead you astray.
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Victor Hazel
Antonio Lopez - hola amigo. I am intrigued by the idea that oil lubricates the earth itself. Not the plate tectonics, which sit on magma, but something else - the animus mundi? Let's hear more... Like you I am also fascinated by the notion (I first heard it from the bard McKenna) that humans are central to creation and evolution. A powerful narrative of the New Consciousness is the return to prominence of the Human. We're neither simply dust, nor the Humean 'bundle of perceptions' - we're more. One might think (nastily, I must admit), that species that are being wiped out by Man are simply not evolving quick enough... (sorry). With that in mind, I'm struck by the aptness of George Carlin's comedy line that God created humans because He couldn't make PLASTIC... God really wanted plastic...
abrazos,
Victor
Fascinating
Thank you everybody who contributed to this delightful conversation. I am a new member on this site but I know that after the great treat I came across here today I will be returning daily.
I think many of you, including Mother Earth, have raised the valid point of man often needing the reminder that he is just another small cog in the function of Gaia, rather than a companion or co-presider of her, but I think that there is an aspect to humanity that can still be discernable from nature, at least within our scope of perception and understanding (which, after all, is all we have). I'm afraid I'm an idealist, and conceive the reality placed before us as necessarily an outgrowth of our own individual/collective perceptions. How could we have this conversation if we all actually believed that we humans care only about things that merely SEEM important to us and not to the rest of existence we know and share? What we perceive to be important is all that we can know to be important, and I believe that the fact that some of us can be gathered here today and see the organism Gaia as important enough to discuss the possible role of ourselves in relation to it is something to be accounted for. I've now caught myself rambling a bit, so I'll just finish with a quote that kind of wraps up what I'm trying to say here:
"The greatest mystery is not that we have been flung at random between the profusion of matter and of the stars, but that within this prison we can draw from ourselves images powerful enough to deny our nothingness." - Andre Malraux
Thanks for responding!
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Everything in nature is lyrical in its ideal essence, tragic in its fate, and comic in its existence. -Santayana
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Waste is not only the same thing as Inefficiency
Thankyou for this bold and well-written article. However I think there are a couple of things you may have overlooked.
"Waste" has two meanings. The first is the one you focus on in this article: inefficiency. "What a waste," we say, "that could have been put to better use." The other meaning however, specifically when applied to the stuff we throw away, is to describe stuff that has become useless. There are degrees of uselessness, of course, and throwing something away simply because it's become useless to us is a "waste" in the first sense. But as the uses to which we can put a thing become exhausted, it becomes critically important how we dispose of it as to whether it then has any further use to the planet as a whole.
When we dump all of our rubbish into a single place, this renders it all essentially useless for anything but breeding bacteria, fungi, and generating methane. As we become more conscious about separating our rubbish, recycling, composting, we increases the number of uses to which it can be put, not just by us but by the Earth when returned to it; we push back the line where it becomes useless waste.
Then, there are some forms of waste for which there really can be no conceivable use. Pollutants and radioactivity, once concentrated enough to be deadly to all life in their vicinity (in the case of radioactivity, for potentially millions of years), surely can't be justified or considered a good thing by any stretch.
The other problem you've overlooked is regarding extinction. Extinction, even mass extinction, is a natural process, yes, and new life arises to fill ecological niches, but there needs to be sufficient genetic diversity left behind in order to exploit those niches. My fear is that the rate of extinction we are witnessing today, the fastest ever in the history of the planet and getting faster by the day, is such that diversity will be so severely compromised that life may never again be as abundant as it is today.
I firmly believe that climate change is not the greatest threat either to human survival or to this planet - it may seem rapid but it's happening on a generational timescale which gives some chance for species to adapt. The greatest threat is mass extinction due to man's escalating destruction of habitats, particularly rainforest, which simply gives no time for adaptation and survival. We could easily lose most of a gene pool that has taken the entire history of the Earth to build. If that isn't a waste I don't know what is.