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Terence on DMT: An Entheological Analysis of McKenna’s Experiences in the Tryptamine Mirror of the Self

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In the popular imagination, Terence McKenna is a name intimately tied to DMT (dimethyltryptamine), machine elves, aliens, and 2012.  Though now deceased, Terence's musings on DMT continue to influence explorers of altered states of consciousness and his writings and lectures have left an indelible mark on popular psychedelic culture.  Largely through the internet, Terence's accounts of his DMT experiences are easily accessible throughout the cyber realm, where he is largely presented as a heroic explorer and radical thinker, challenging us all to embrace a profoundly enlarged view of reality - namely as experienced through DMT.

Yet, are Terence and his wild accounts of DMT and the machine elves all that they are made out to be?  Is Terence a ground-breaking, reality-shattering explorer of the far realms of the psychedelic universe?  Is he a torch-bearer leading us to a grander vision of all that just might be?  Many seem to be convinced that the answer to these questions is an emphatic and undeniable "Yes!" despite the obvious reservations of more "rational" and "traditional" thinkers.  Indeed, it is often the radical ontological and epistemological shift implied in accepting Terence's accounts that attracts many "counter-cultural" thinkers and self-styled explorers of consciousness. McKenna's ideas are un-conformist, and it is his image as an outsider and free-thinker that makes him appealing to so many and why they are so eager to absorb his reflections on his arguably quite strange DMT experiences.

I find Terence's reflections on his DMT experiences to be valuable and insightful for a very different reason.  When analyzed from the perspective of what I call the "Entheological Paradigm," Terence's experiences do not present us with an intrepid explorer discovering new realms.  Rather, we are presented with a clear picture of an individual who is unable to recognize himself in the mirror of tryptamine consciousness.  In short, Terence's experiences boil down to one fundamental truth: They are the experiences of someone who is consuming very powerful entheogens, yet is failing to recognize the projections and creations of his own ego while in that state.  From the perspective of unitary consciousness, Terence appears to have never managed to transcend his ego and therefore appears to have failed to realize the genuinely true potential of the entheogenic medicines he ingested.

When this perspective is understood, it becomes immediately clear that virtually all of what Terence has to say about DMT experiences are projections of his own ego.  Terence has not explored some other realm or brought back valuable information for other would-be explorers, as he imagined himself doing. Instead, he explored the confused projections of his own ego and never achieved anything close to clarity about those experiences.  Ultimately, Terence brought us deep and abiding confusion, and his confusion has subsequently been eagerly and whole-heartedly embraced by countless others in the entheogenic community.  For the information that Terence brought back to us to be of any real use at all, it will be as a clear example of the mechanics of ego-projection, self-imposed confusion and reification of ideational realities.  In my estimation, Terence shows us the complete opposite of DMT's true potential.  By understanding how this is so, we can begin to develop a clearer picture of what DMT is genuinely good for, and what it is not.

In order to demonstrate the above conclusions, I will analyze three talks given by Terence on the subject of DMT.  All three talks are available as videos on You Tube and are readily accessible for anyone to listen to on the web.  The talks are: "5-MeO-DMT and nn-DMT," "Too much DMT," and "The Strangest Things Happen on DMT."  I have chosen these talks for several reasons.  The first is that they are available to anyone and while I am providing transcripts of the talks here in this essay, I encourage readers to listen to the talks.  Tone of voice, choice of words, speech patterns, and laughter are all significant factors in evaluating what Terence shares with us.  It would be even better if the talks had actual video footage so that we could also observe physical posture and body movement and gestures, but even just the audio is significantly telling. 

I also wanted to include talks precisely because they are talks.  While the "voice" of the author comes through in writing - it is the spontaneous public speaking not from written notes, outlines, or prompts, that reveal how someone's mind works in the moment, versus the well-thought-out and edited form of written text.  In other words, to really get to know what Terence thinks of DMT, it is more insightful to talk to him or listen to him speak than to merely read anything he has written.

Lastly, I wanted to choose examples of Terence's accounts of DMT that are fairly representative.  In surveying what Terence said about DMT, one quickly finds that most of his talks are fairly repetitive and he tends to touch on similar, if not identical, issues, although there are occasional inconsistencies.  What this tells us is that Terence had his "rap" on DMT down fairly well, and this is what he chose to regularly share with seemingly anyone who was willing to listen.  These three talks that are presented here are therefore arguably representative of his comprehensive views on the topic.

Terence lamented that there weren't enough people who were familiar with the DMT experience to really converse about it at length.  In his estimation, no one had as much experience with this tryptamine as himself.  He saw himself as a pioneer - as mapping new territory, so to speak.  As a result, most of his public talks were one-way conversations, with Terence being the sole voice of those who had gone beyond into the great mystery that is DMT. 

I never met Terence.  I have no idea what his level of personal use was of DMT.  Nor do I know what his level of personal use of 5-MeO-DMT was, though one gets the impression that it was significantly less than of DMT.  Given my own personal experience, I seriously doubt that there are many people on this planet who come anywhere near my experience level with 5-MeO-DMT, and I probably have more experience with the far weaker DMT than most as well.  I would be genuinely surprised if Terence had as much experience with 5-MeO as I do.  And while Terence may have more experience with DMT than myself, I do have ample experience with it as well.  I therefore feel uniquely qualified to comment on Terence's experience.  Indeed, I routinely counsel people about their entheogenic experiences and help them sort out the illusions of ego from the reality of genuine being.  The treatment that I will be giving Terence here is identical to what I would give to anyone who came to me with similar accounts of DMT experiences.  As you read through the following, keep in mind that this is precisely the kind of assistance that I give to individuals on a daily basis.

As mentioned above, the diagnostic tool that I will be using is that of the Entheological Paradigm.  As I have lectured and written a great deal on this topic, I will only present salient points here matter-of-factly.  Those who are interested in more in-depth presentations should visit www.entheological-paradigm.net.  The basic premise of the Entheological Paradigm is that all of reality can be comprehensively understood as a unified energetic system that is conscious and self-aware.  The foundation of all of reality is the Energetic Unitary Being that functions according to fractal mathematics.  All of reality is therefore an energetic expression of fractal patterns.  This is a unitary energetic system, thereby indicating that all living beings are in fact direct embodiments of the One Energy Being

Within the Entheological Paradigm, entheogens, or substances that "generate the experience of God within," are understood primarily as tools to open one's perception and experience of energy.  This can be understood as the process of transcending the ego, which is characterized as a self-referential energetic pattern in consciousness that functions to create the perceived experience of separation between subject and object and therefore establish self-identification.  However, this energetic pattern is based on the maintenance of an illusion: that of a unique, separate self.  The energetic pattern of the ego is therefore limiting, by definition.  When sufficient quantities of entheogens are ingested, shifts in ones experience of energy allow for transcendence outside of the limiting energetic confines of the ego.

Full ego transcendence is by no means the automatic result of ingestion of entheogens.  Ego transcendence requires a willingness to surrender, let go, and trust completely and unconditionally.  While high doses of extremely powerful entheogens such as DMT and especially 5-MeO-DMT (which is stronger than DMT by several orders of magnitude) can produce ideal experiential environments for transcending the ego, it is always a matter of choice, and it is always possible for people to choose not to let go and release.  Egos that choose not to surrender and release always manage to hold on to various illusions and projections out of perceptions of self-protective fear.  Energetically, this internal struggle then becomes projected out as energetic environments and visionary scenes and phenomena.

Ego transcendence is merely the beginning of genuine awakening, however.  The real work is learning how to identify the products and patterns of ones ego and how to not let these limit the self at any time, not just during the entheogenic experience.  This then becomes a process of learning to become aware of ones energy both with and without entheogens, and thereby take responsibility for oneself as a direct embodiment of the One Energy Being.  This is a long process of becoming more and more centered, aware, present, and energetically responsible. With greater personal responsibility comes greater and greater freedom, culminating in ultimate liberation from all ego-generated illusions so that one can live fully and completely in reality, right here, right now.

Given that the experience of temporary ego transcendence is just the beginning, and certainly not the end goal of entheogenic work, we can see immediately that Terence didn't even make it out the door.  What we get instead are other realms with alien languages, machine elves, and self-transforming objects that amaze, confuse, and often terrify the subject of "Terence."  It's all ego.  100%.  In order to see how and why, let's consider carefully what Terence has to say for himself, and how he goes about saying it.

Let's take the latter issue first: how Terence communicates.  For anyone not familiar with Terence's tone of voice or speaking style, you need only find any audio file of Terence and hit play to hear his distinctive, nasal voice.  You can also hear, especially when he gets excited, how quickly his speech becomes fragmented.  He has numerous false starts on sentences and long run-ons with endless "ands" between clauses.  When he ponders questions, there are many "uhs" and "ums" mixed with "you knows" and "I means."  These all reflect Terence's relationship with his subject matter, often in surprising ways.

Terence's tone of voice and nasal timbre is uniquely telling: it shows us his energetic relationship to himself and to his subject matter, the object he is sharing with us.  The energy of his voice dramatically reveals how far Terence is from his energetic center.  It tells us, immediately, where he is coming from.

Within the Entheological Paradigm, the human being is described as being comprised of five primary energy centers, all of which run along the central axis of the body.  Three of these centers are generative of energy: they are direct energetic expressions of the Unitary Energy Being.  These three are the brain (the central seat of intellectual consciousness), the heart (the central seat of conscious energetic awareness) and the sex organs (the seat of sexual energy).  The two other centers are not places where energy is generated directly as in the other three, but rather process the energy of being through the physical/conscious system.  Thus we also have the throat (input and output of energy and primary mechanism for personal expression through language and sound) and the stomach (regulating energy in the body in relation to the use of the throat center).

Within this system of five energy centers in the human being, the heart is the center of the total energetic system.  This is the seat of "life" itself and it is the originator of the largest electro-magnetic field of the body (which far surpasses the size of the electromagnetic field produced by the brain). When one is "living from the heart," one is literally residing energetically within the center of one's being.  So too when one is "speaking from the heart," one is energetically speaking from the center of one's being.

What is the energetic quality of Terence's voice?  If I were to describe it, I would say that Terence appears to be speaking energetically from a point directly behind the midpoint of his brow, directly between his eyes.  It is this energetic focus that gives his voice that nasal, droning quality.  Physically, we can see that this energetic focus is quite distant from Terence's heart.  The very sound of his voice indicates that he is not speaking from his energetic center.  Wherever Terence is while creating his discourse, he is not in his center.  Rather, he is quite clearly in his head, thereby indicating that he is communicating ideas; things that he thinks, rather than things he has felt or understood in the very center of his being.  These are all quite clearly ideas for Terence, not truths he has experienced and felt in his heart.  Keep in mind again that the electromagnetic field of your heart, the field that allows you to "feel" and "sense" your reality, is far more powerful and extends more deeply into "external" reality than that of your brain, your "thinking" organ.  When the heart and brain are in energetic alignment and entrainment, what you "think" and what you "know in your heart" are in sync.  However, it is quite possible for the brain to run its own energetic programs (belief systems, thought patterns, ideational constructs) independently from the heart.  In other words, we are free to think anything we want, regardless of whether that is in alignment with what we can energetically experience as true with our hearts.  We are also free to act on what we think or believe, regardless of the actual state of reality.  This is free will.  How we actualize free will, how we choose to mobilize our energy, is reflected in the energy of our bodies.

The analysis, therefore, is that Terence is talking about his ideas, but that these ideas are not in deeper alignment with the truth of his energetic center.  He is disproportionately in his head; his nasal tone is an immediate expression of this fact. When one is genuinely speaking from the heart, one's tone of voice tends to become deeper, more resonate, and less nasal.  Patterns of speech also become more fluid, coherent, and more eloquent with far fewer false starts on sentences or words or use of fillers such as "uh" and "I mean" or "you know."  This is because when one is speaking from the heart, one is simply stating the truth, not needing to "think" about what to say or how to communicate.  In other words, the communication is rich, natural, and energetically expressive.  You can hear it when someone is truly speaking from the heart (which can also clearly be distinguished from simply impassioned speech that can come from adherence to beliefs rather than experienced truths).

Energetically, Terence also often sounds fragmented in that he presents numerous ideas and descriptions in rapid sequence, and he also shows a lack of commitment to any specific interpretation or central point of his discourses.  As a visual metaphor, one might say that he is examining and presenting all the angles, without ever looking at things from the center.  Terence raises all sorts of speculations, questions, and possibilities, without ever making any definitive statements.  Some might see this as a proper level of humility and ontological openness, but this isn't how Terence actually comes across.  Rather, this lack of a central perspective leads him to nervous laughter and jokes about his discomfort.  Energetically, his style of speech is saying, "All these ideas about my experiences are actually freaking me out a little because I can't understand how they all fit together and I seem to have a very fragmented experience of reality."

So, let's look at some of what these ideas are that are making Terence uncomfortable and lead him to over-idealize his experiences.

Our first selection is from a video entitled 5-MeO-DMT and nn-DMT: 5-MeO-DMT, uh, some people like it.  Uh, it's a feeling, is what it's been for me.  It's this huge feeling that kind of sweeps through you and it's velvety.  It's hard to describe, actually, but the main thing that I'm noticing when it's happening is I'm not hallucinating.

Admittedly, one of the things that catches my attention with regards to Terence's attachment to DMT is how he has very little to say about 5-MeO-DMT.  His preference is clearly for DMT.  This is interesting for a variety of reasons. The first is that 5-MeO-DMT is so much stronger than DMT that making comparisons is difficult, if not futile.  Yet this fact is not what Terence focuses on.  Instead, he identifies the "main thing" as the fact that he is not "hallucinating" on 5-MeO-DMT.  At best, he can only describe 5-MeO-DMT as "a feeling," as "huge" and as "velvety."  This is so vague, so overly general, that it tells us virtually nothing about the 5-MeO-DMT experience.

What is that "feeling"?  I would describe it as the feeling of absolute energetic and conscious unity of all things and the certain knowledge, as experienced immediately in the energy of ones being, as your genuine self as identical with the Energy of All.  In short, if one chooses to relax into it and open energetically to that infinite reality that certainly is beyond any kind of hallucination, then 5-MeO-DMT is the fastest and most direct route to immediately experiencing the reality of being God. Now, that's quite a "feeling," and goes so far beyond machine elves that it can render the DMT experience quaint by comparison. "Some people like it," according to Terence.  It would appear that he didn't, for he has nothing more to say.  "It's a feeling."

This is another clear indication that Terence was far from his energetic center.  He is so removed from what he is feeling, so far more interested in hallucinating, that he doesn't even give this "feeling" a second thought.  It is of no interest to him.  It seems to have no value, especially when he compares it to DMT.

And of course the main thing that's happening with DMT is you're having hallucinations so intense, so three dimensional, so highly colored, so sculpturally defined, that it's more real than reality.  And by that I mean, if you look at this room, notice how all edges are slightly feathered.  There is, at all boundaries, a slight indeterminacy.  But on DMT, it's hard-edged.  Everything is just defined.  Sometimes people say it's as though all the air had been pumped out of the room.  You're seeing it with that lunar starkness and clarity, you know.

So it's the visual nature of DMT that Terence finds so fascinating.  At lower levels, there is very little distinct visual quality to a 5-MeO-DMT experience and indeed, the "trip" is more something that one might feel than specifically see.  However, at higher doses, 5-MeO-DMT can appear as amazingly sophisticated fractal crystalline refractions of pure white light and luminous rainbow fragments, like the most pure of light shining through an unimaginably complex prism.  Yet DMT still seems to have a more distinct visual nature to it than 5-MeO-DMT, so to some extent, here Terence is being reasonably accurate. By comparison, DMT is more an infinite spectrum of colors and geometry and patterns that can be visually hyper-distinct and appear in mind-boggling detail. 

Notice, however, that Terence doesn't describe the feeling, and when he does make an attempt to characterize this visual quality, he dovetails into an odd statement about air being pumped out of a room and then tops it off with "lunar starkness and clarity," followed by a "you know."  Chances are we do not actually know what Terence means by that.  Does he?

In terms of the energetic feeling made accessible by 5-MeO-DMT versus DMT, the feeling of 5-MeO-DMT is far stronger. Despite the more intense visual nature of DMT, the feeling, by comparison, is extremely mild. The energetic opening (and opportunity to deeply transcend the ego) afforded by 5-MeO-DMT is much, much stronger than DMT. In fact, with DMT, one might not "feel" anything, and instead, get almost entirely fixated on what one is seeing, the objects of experience, rather than the experience itself.

Let's see what Terence goes on to describe: And unimaginable objects. Objects off the art scale. And entities. DMT is the only one of these psychedelics where I have seen the entities. On psilocybin, it speaks. And it's audio. On DMT, it's, it's uh, you see these things. And, uh, I don't know whether it's my personal mythology...

So not only objects, but even more significantly, entities. Terence is impressed with DMT not only for it's hyper-real and super-detailed objects, but also for the entities that he encounters.  Yet he immediately expresses his confusion about these beings.  What are they?  Are they part of his "personal mythology"? And if they are, what are they doing here, in the DMT experience?  Why is he seeing them?

Terence has no idea.  This phenomenon is literally boggling his mind.  As much as he is trying, he can't wrap his head "around" it, despite all the energy he's concentrating directly behind the bridge of his nose: For me, DMT is the center of the mystery.  I fear it.  I love it.  I thank God for it.  Uh, I wonder if I'll ever understand it.  It takes a huge mustering of courage on my part to do it, because I . . . it's just so . . . I mean, we talk talk talk talk talk, change transformation, other dimensions . . . this is not talk, when you do that.  I mean, you just do not know the parameters.  I feel like I know more of what could happen to me if I'm in the Amazon jungle than I know what could happen to me when I'm in that place.  And after many, many DMT trips, I've finally been able to paint a picture for myself of what is happening in there.

This is an extremely telling passage for Terence.  He openly admits his fear, his lack of understanding, his struggle with DMT.  He even seems to question why he's so attracted to it at all, given the unimaginable strangeness it has presented to him.  Yet he is so perplexed and fascinated by his experiences that they have become the "center of the mystery" for Terence.  They are the ultimate puzzle.  And it terrifies him.  It requires "a huge mustering of courage" to embark on such a journey and to contemplate such an enigmatic object.  So at best, he's painted a picture for himself.  He has constructed an idealized representation, a "painting," of what he thinks is "happening in there."

Notice Terence's use of language, especially when taking into consideration the energy of his being while speaking this.  I've already described Terence as being distant from his energetic center as he appears to be speaking from a point centered between his eyes.  He claims that what he is telling us is the "center of the mystery," yet his energy does not correlate with this linguistic claim. The energy that underlies the words is saying, "I'm presenting you with an idealized visual representation," but it is not from the center.  Indeed, Terence even tells us as much when he describes his account as a "picture," clearly referencing the idealized visual nature of his understanding that rests far from the center of his heart.  This is clearly not the center of the mystery.

And what happens for me - and I don't know anybody who's done it as much as I have - I wish people did it more and talked more about it, because boy, if there is a landscape where we need more consensus, this is it.  I have been present when people did it, and they come back babbling about the same thing that I think I have encountered.  I mean, they come back, and one woman said, "It was a carnival. It was a carnival.  It was an extra-terrestrial midway."  Somebody else came back and said, "There were gnomes. There were elves."  And, yeah.  This is getting close to it.

Terence laments that he is one of the few that have been to the center of the mystery and come back to give any reports about it, presenting himself as a lone explorer into the unknown realms.  He feels himself to be affirmed by others, who appear to speak his language about the objects and contents of the experience, but still, it's only "close."  He's looking for universals, but they aren't easily forthcoming.  Are gnomes the same as elves the same as alien carnival as machine elf?  How could one possibly know?

How much influence is Terence having over others?  I don't just mean a psychological influence, which is certainly present as Terence spoke about his experiences openly, thereby potentially influencing anyone tripping with him. But even more profoundly, from the perspective of the Entheological Paradigm, all of reality is understood as a singular energetic system.  In practical terms, what this means is that despite appearances, there is really only one being, and that one being is all things.  As such, the one being engages in game playing between contrived subjects and perceived objects. Terence, as a manifestation of the one being, is providing himself with self-validating experiences in the form of others who tell him enough to convince him of the reality of the game he is playing.  Generally speaking, we draw to ourselves those who will validate our ego-generated narratives of who we think we are and what we think is occurring within our lives.  It is a game, however, and those with illusory personal narratives can always find others to play along.

What happens to me when I do it is, um . . . I'm conveyed - there's a period, an initial period of a kind of hysteria and confusion.  It's almost as though time speeds up, even before you take the first hit.  Many people say, just before you do DMT, there's this funny kind of impression in the room, almost as though there's a backwash from the event about to happen.  You're caught in the psychic field of this event, and everything is moving faster and faster - this is like the q phenomenon - and then you take the hit, and it's building up in your body, and your heart is pounding, and everything and then you break through to this place...

Despite Terence's propensity to immediately jump to time-backwash speculative metaphysics, given that he describes the onset of the DMT experience as one of hysteria and confusion, it's not difficult to imagine that he is merely experiencing anxiety in anticipation of the big event.  While confusion is not uncommon among novice users of any psychedelic, it is somewhat surprising that with all of Terence's professed use of DMT, he never got beyond the feelings of hysteria and confusion. Notice that this is the first time that he attempts to describe the feeling of DMT, though he doesn't describe the feeling directly - only his emotional and psychological reaction: hysteria and confusion. Notice also that he identifies from the beginning with the concept that DMT takes you to a place, somewhere that you must "break through" into, and therefore is distinctly characterized as other or not here. Wherever DMT seems to take Terence, in his mind, it is definitely not here.  This is a clear indication that Terence is dealing with ego projections.  When one is centered, present, relaxed, trusting, and open, no medicine, no matter how potentially powerful, will take you anywhere but right here, right now; anything less than that is an energetic reaction of the ego resisting the energy of being completely centered and present. 

And what it's like is, the first impression is of a loud, well the first impression is of the sound of cellophane being crumpled - that crackling sound as if someone had just taken a bread wrapper - (audience laughs) - yeah - (more laughter), crackle that cellophane for us! (T laughs with audience) - That's it! (more laughter, louder)  More of that! (more loud laughter - audience member calls out, "Are we there yet?") Would that it were so easy!  A friend of mine says, "That's the sound of the radio-entelechy of your soul tearing out of the organic envelope" (audience laughs more and T joins in with a nervous laugh).  Which is what it sounds like.  It sounds like your body has just been wadded up and thrown into a corner and now you're a radio signal approximately four light seconds in diameter spreading out through an alien universe.

Here we see that Terence is willing to quickly jump from an occasionally experienced phenomenon, that of hearing cellophane crinkling, to metaphysical speculations about the relationship between "body" and "soul."  The first fact that deserves comment here is that hearing a sound that resembles cellophane crinkling is a somewhat common, yet nowhere near universal, feature of DMT ingestion.  Terence speaks of this phenomenon as though it is a constant, so perhaps this occurred for Terence every time he smoked DMT and he made the incorrect assumption that this is true for everyone.  It definitely isn't, though it does show up enough to make it an interesting phenomenon.  If we wanted to be scientific about it, we would see if there were any correlation between the perception of the sound and the subsequent quality of the DMT experience.  However, Terence is not being scientific here.  He's speculating.

Terence's speculation is largely nonsensical.  He knows it too.  His nervous laugh communicates as much.  The energy of his laugh seems to say, "This is totally absurd, but I believe it anyway!" There is no sound of heartfelt confidence - just uncomfortable questions.

Terence again tips his hand and demonstrates the deep level of disassociation that DMT causes him.  He completely disassociates from his body, and with it, consensual reality, and envisions his "soul," (a concept that is dismissed within the Entheological Paradigm as a clear product of ego projection) as leaving this world for an alien universe.  Terence finds DMT to be alienating from reality.

And the next impression is of a cheer.  It's, "Hurrah!  Welcome!  Welcome!"  And it's them, and they're waiting.  And they can hardly wait.  There's a moment where they're not on me - just a moment.  And then they say, "You're here!  We're glad to see you.  Why did you stay away so long?" and then they come toward me. 

Now we have reached the true crux of the experience for Terence: the beings! He opened his talk by saying that DMT was more significant for him than 5-MeO-DMT because the former makes him hallucinate whereas the latter does not.  But even more significant than this, Terence is captivated by DMT as it is the only psychedelic he's used that has allowed him to experience "beings," and he is clearly deeply fascinated by this.  This is what makes DMT the center of the mystery for Terence. Is it possible to make sense of what's going on here?

And the main thing for me in the DMT thing is to struggle not to go into shock of wonder, basically.  I mean, because there is a tendency, a strong tendency, and for the first few trips, I couldn't conquer it, I was just, I was a victim of it, and I would go into this (presumably makes a face of wonder or astonishment - audience laughs).  You know and I would say, "Heart, heart OK.  Breathing, breathing OK."  But I'm looking, and I can't believe my eyes, because I'm in some kind of domed place.  And the impression, don't ask my why, but the impression is of being underground, even though it's a huge vaulted space, and highly colored.  And then . . . but what is of course riveting my attention is these beings.  They're small, and they're like, and I've described them as machine elves - they seem partially machine-like and partially elf-like.

Terence is clearly awed by his experience of the so-called "machine elves." His descriptions of his awe are very telling - shock and wonder that he couldn't "conquer."  DMT does give rise to tremendous feelings of awe and wonder, so there's nothing that strange or unusual for Terence to be making such claims. However, given that Terence describes his experiences rather uniformly, along with his claims of having taken more DMT than anyone he's ever come across, we do have an interesting situation here. I would diagnose him as being stuck. Based on his descriptions, we're given the impression that every time Terence takes DMT, he is awed and shocked at fundamentally the same thing, time and time again.  Terence has nothing more to share about DMT.  It's all machine elves and self-transforming jeweled objects.  There's no movement.  There are no breakthroughs.  There are no realizations. There is no recognition of the self.  Terence is stuck. It's machine elves, every time, and it awes him.

The productive use of any entheogen will move, change, and progress.  For Terence to begin and end with machine elves shows that he has not used his DMT experiences to come to any greater understanding or acceptance of himself.  He fixated on his ideas of the machine elves and never got beyond them.  He reified them into a permanent feature of his experience. After an audience member asks a question about the machine elves, he responds: They are not so mundane as that - they don't have a fixed body outline.  And in fact, that's one of the things going on in this space that's so baffling.  They come toward you, they're singing in this alien language, which you somehow understand.  It cannot be translated into English, but you understand it in that moment.  And what they are doing is, they're using their voices to produce objects, so song becomes thing. 

And there are dozens of these things, and they're coming closer and closer and the songs they sing condense into objects, and the objects themselves can sing, and these things come and they're saying, "Look, look" and they're holding this stuff out to you, and you look at it, and you're fighting wonder because your entire being is caught up in "This can't be happening!" and yet they're saying, you know, "Just look!"

And what these things are, are devices, toys, works of art, objects . . . But whatever they are, they are amazing.  And you look into it, and you can't, and they seem to be shifting, even though they're made of metal and glass and gems and pulsating . . . everything is migrating and shifting and changing and they say, "Look at this one," and it's the most astonishing thing you've ever seen, and you look at it, and they say, "Look at this one!  Look at this one!"  And they're piling up and these things are coming toward you and then they jump through you - they can pass through your body, and they're running around chirping and singing and making these objects and what they're doing is, what they're saying is, "Do what we are doing.  Do what we are doing," and you say, uh . . . "I just want to go back to New York!" (audience laughs and Terence joins in with a nervous laugh of his own)

In the above we have the grand crescendo of Terence's DMT experiences. Virtually every account he gives of DMT centers around the supposed production of objects through the use of song, or what Terence otherwise describes as "alien language."  Terence seems to feel that this is a monumental discovery and at some level, a metaphysical truth about reality: the world is made of language.  These bizarre experiences with the machine elves seem to confirm this view - indeed, elsewhere Terence challenges those who don't believe that reality is made out of language to take DMT and then see what they think of the proposition.

This view only makes sense if you believe in magic, which Terence clearly does.  In fact, this belief is central to Terence's entire relationship to psychedelics and is foundational to virtually everything he has said about psychedelics.  In answer to Terence's rhetorical question of whether his DMT experiences were products of his "personal mythology," is an emphatic, "Yes, obviously."

One need only dig a little into Terence's history to see how this personal mythology has played out for him.  In his written work, such as True Hallucinations, Terence writes of how he began his psychedelic quest by venturing into the South American jungle in search of the "violet psychofluid of translinguistic matter" that is reportedly excreted by ayahuasca-using shamans in the Amazon. In other words, Terence is specifically looking for the connections between language, reality, and psychedelics. He's searching for something very particular. He's not looking for "truth" or "reality," and certainly not looking for "himself."  He's looking for violet psychofluid of translinguistic matter.  He has his sites set on a very particular object that dovetails perfectly into his philosophical speculations that reality is somehow made out of language.

Apparently, Terence found "it" in his construction of the machine elves, their alien realm, and their strange behavior of creating objects out of sound.  However, upon making this "discovery," Terence is nothing but confused and dumbfounded.  He can make no sense of this whatsoever.  Jokingly, he remarks that he just wants to go home.  It's just too strange, too nonsensical, too enigmatic.  It all seems to have no applicability, unless one thinks magically, like Terence.  In the end, Terence concluded that this strange ability to manifest objects through sound and language is connected to his speculations on 2012.  Elsewhere, he writes that in 2012 we will be able to climb into UFO's that we speak or sing into existence, just like the machine elves, and we will fly off to join the great cosmic community.  Terence clearly believes in magic.

Quite interestingly, and also quite unscientifically, Terence appears to have never taken the next step in his machine elf reveries: actually attempting to do as they are instructing him.  I have not found a single reference to Terence taking the machine elves' advice or instruction.  He repeatedly tells us that the machine elves are instructing him to "not be amazed" and "just do it," meaning to sing an object into existence. Yet at virtually every recounting of his DMT experiences, he tells us that this he is dumbfound by this command.  Odd, isn't it that he never attempts the one thing they tell him to do?

What would it mean for Terence to try to sing something into existence and why are the elves telling him this?  The answer is, I think, not at all what Terence might imagine. Taking into account the perspective that the machine elves are projections of Terence's ego, and therefore actually versions of himself, the command to sing speaks volumes. I have already shown how drastically disassociated Terence is from his body in his DMT experiences.  He is completely in a "mental" space that is entirely disconnected from simply being here, now. He struggles intellectually with what he encounters in this mental space.  He's trying to make sense of it.  However, the elves urge Terence not to try and make sense of it.  They simply urge him to "do what we do" and "don't be amazed." 

However, for Terence to actually try to do what the machine elves are supposedly doing would require Terence to feel his body, be present with himself and stop obsessing with the machine elves.  The man would have to actually attempt to sing.  He would have to mobilize energy in his body and consciously direct it with his voice and intentions. Yet Terence is convinced that he's a disembodied soul in an alien universe and his body is wadded up in a ball, discarded in the corner of the room.  He is completely disassociated from the genuine reality of his being.  Singing, then, would seem to be an impossible feat. He's too busy trying to understand to even contemplate being in his body and being present.

Terence is stuck in his ideas, beliefs, and ego-generated mythology about the nature of reality.  The elves, ironically, are actually giving Terence advice for "getting back to reality," despite the appearance of things being otherwise.  As versions of himself, they are telling Terence: Don't be amazed!  Just try singing and see how your experience of reality shifts and changes with the mobilization of your energy. The elves are attempting to get Terence energetically and consciously back in his body and out of the bizarre mental space he's created for himself and subsequently become obsessively attached to. In a sense, they're saying, "Stop your obsessive thinking and try feeling."  Terence, however, didn't get the message.  After all, he just wants to go home.

Our next selection comes from a clip entitled "The Strangest Things Happen on DMT."  Here, Terence reiterates many of the ideas given above, and adds an archetypal interpretation of the circus to the DMT experience. As with the above account, what we again find, despite claims to the counter, is that the experiences are entirely reflective of Terence and his own energy rather than revealing any kinds of secrets about the universe - at least, not in the way that he assumes: The strangest things happen on DMT - the most intense - and you can remember them.  DMT is not like a psychedelic drug in the sense that you're getting into the contents of your hopes, memories, fears and dreams - it's much more like a parallel continuum.  It's more as though, uh, you've broken through to some alien data space. 

Once again we can immediately see that Terence wants to distinguish the DMT experience as characterized by a pervasive sense of otherness.  Here, he even goes so far as to proclaim DMT's supposed otherness from other psychedelics, which he identifies as providing access to ones "personal content." I would have to thoroughly disagree, and I think that the analysis given above adequately proves that, as will the analyses provided below.  The difference is largely one of magnitude and intensity, but not necessarily in kind.  Being a tryptamine, and also being the active ingredient in ayahuasca, DMT is very similar to psilocybin mushrooms and the ayahuasca experience.  The duration is much shorter and the intensity can be many, many times greater, as can be the visual quality of the experience, but none of these are entirely dissimilar from each other.  Even 5-MeO-DMT is experientially of a similar nature.  In fact, all entheogenic medicines are the same in the sense that they open up ones ability to perceive and experience energy.  They do this in different ways and at different levels of intensity (with 5-MeO-DMT being of the greatest intensity, by far), but in that sense they are all "the same."  The difference is in degree.  There are other significant differences, but in the end, energy is energy and you either feel it and perceive it or you don't. 

Take music, for example.  You can hear (perceive the energy of) a piece of music in a multitude of ways depending on your state of mind, your emotional state, and your personal associations with the music. The music is the same. The way you experience it differs.  Medicines work in a similar fashion in that they all open you to energy, but in somewhat different ways and capacities.

Yet Terence insists that DMT is different in that he does not see it as reflecting personal perceptions, like other medicines, and in fact sends you to an alien realm. The greatest difference here is in Terence's estimation, not necessarily the medicines themselves. Certainly there are plenty of shamans out there who would equally claim that ayahuasca and mushrooms have the capacity to take one into "another realm," which Terence is here seemingly willing to dismiss as personal projection, a point with which I'd gladly agree. But not DMT. DMT is special, according to Terence.  This is where Terence and I differ.

One of the most puzzling things about DMT is that it doesn't affect your mind, you know.   It simply replaces the world, 100% with something completely unexpected.  But your relationship to that unexpected thing is not one of exaggerated fear, or exaggerated acceptance, as in "Oh great, the world has just been replaced by elf machinery!"  Your reaction is exactly what it would be if it happened to you without DMT - you're appalled!  You say, "What happened?"  Because you don't feel your mind moving.  You just see that the world has been replaced by something that you could not have even conceived of or imagined before.

Terence is here extrapolating far beyond the available data to entirely unsupported conclusions, which he simply presents as universal fact. His experiences with DMT seem to 100% replace the world, and certainly this seems to be true of enough of other peoples' experiences to give it some validity.  But then, how does one account for the fact that it is quite possible for people to consume even very large doses of DMT without having a "world replacing" experience? Again, I point out that individuals who are energetically centered and present can consume large quantities of entheogens with little to virtually no perceptual distortion or change at all.  In fact, the more present, centered, and focused one gets, while simultaneously relaxing, trusting, and completely letting go, the more profoundly "normal" any entheogenic experience becomes. But Terence is anything but centered, focused, relaxed, present, and trusting.  In fact, everything indicates that he is, energetically, of the exact opposite state.  Given his energetic state, his reactions to DMT are entirely expected. They are not "normal," in the sense that these are the reactions of a severely energetically wound up being.  Those who are more relaxed, trusting, present, and able to let go of their ideational realities have very different experiences from Terence, and in my estimation, for the better.

Part of the difficulty here is the experience of realities that "you could not have conceived of or imagined before," and this is certainly an apt description for the visions afforded by tryptamines.  However, we have confusions of subject, object, and ultimate identity here.  From the ego's perspective, yes, all these "realms" and their unimaginable contents do seem "unimaginable" and appear unrelated to the self.  Yet, the question then becomes: What actually is the self?  Is the self what the ego thinks it is, or is it something else entirely?  Who, actually, is the author of all this visionary content?  Is it "me" or something "other."

The "natural" reaction on the part of most egos is to assume, given the grandeur of the experience, that some "other" is involved in its production.  Initial impressions can be radically deceiving, however, and those initial impressions can get energetically stuck if one attempts to wrap too much ideational structure around the impressions.  For advanced practitioners, it becomes increasingly apparent and undeniable that all contents of entheogenic experiences are projections of the self.  It just becomes obvious - although admittedly, this is only for those who reach a deep level of self-acceptance and responsibility. However, at that level, it becomes immediately clear that ones own thoughts, emotions, and reactions have a direct effect on the contents of visionary experience - even the seemingly most radical, alien, and otherworldly.  Once you see through the veil of self-produced illusion, the truth becomes undeniable.  It is you.  It's been you all along.  You just didn't know how to recognize yourself.

Within the Entheological Paradigm, visionary states of consciousness are characterized as experiences of the Divine Imagination.  The fundamental building blocks of experience within the Divine Imagination are fractal and geometric patterns of energy, which, indeed, are the energetic blueprints for all of reality.  Within this perceptual energetic space, the energy of egoic consciousness bounces off the fundamental matrix of energy, so to speak, and creates images related to the individual's consciousness.  The simplest way to put it is that when gazing into the Divine Imagination, one is looking into a mirror that expresses the fullness of one's energetic being.  Visions are a form of communication from the self to the self. Egos however, get very confused about what is going on in this process as they perceive the contents of consciousness as being distinct from the subject experiencing it.  This is a fundamental misperception and is grounded in energetic illusion rather than energetic truth.  It is a product of the ego.  Individuals who are not confused and who are centered do not have visions in the Divine Imagination, as they are able to perceive themselves as they actually are: energy.  Confused egos have visions.  Confused egos see "content."  

To be clear, if Terence were centered and present, his DMT experiences wouldn't take him anywhere but right here, right now.  The fact that they don't is a clear reflection of the imbalances in his personal energy.

And these entities, these things that look like self-dribbling jeweled basket balls - something that the NBA might take an interest in - you see them.  They present themselves to you.  They use language to condense visible objects out of the air. Now, I don't know why they're doing that.  Perhaps at one level I assume they're trying to teach you how to do that.  On another level they seem to be giving a demonstration that reality is made out of language.  They're saying, "Hey, you don't believe reality is made out of language?  Here, I'll make you one."  And then blibbledy bliddledy blip, and there they hand you one and it's to be passed around with slack jawed amazement among the human beings.  This technology that they possess of these objects made out of gold and emeralds and chalcedony and agate, that are morphing themselves, even as you look at them - I mean, this is a technological dream come true - the lapis as elf excrescence or something like that - and why they're there - I don't know. 

Did Terence ever ponder how this might be a reflection of himself?  Does he not realize that he, himself, is making exotic "objects" out of language by putting thoughts into the minds of others of machine elves and self-dribbling basketballs and reality made out of language?  Isn't this a perfect metaphor for exactly what Terence is himself doing?

Many, many questions.  Where are they when you're not stoned?  Do they have an autonomous existence somewhere?  Do they spring into existence a micro-second before you get there?  Are they rooted in the dynamics of your psyche, or are they no more rooted in the dynamics of your psyche than the world trade center?  It's not clear. 

I've already provided the answer to these questions: they are all a reflection of the self, even if one is unable to accept the reality of this. Terence is the machine elves and the self-dribbling basketballs; they exist only when he smokes DMT and shifts his perception to the Divine Imagination. And in becoming attached to them, he is using them to play games with himself, providing him with data for his pet theories about the nature of reality that, when considered carefully, don't actually make sense. This is why he would always find the game so confounding and confusing, a riddle with no solution, and endless puzzle to ponder. It is a self-referential mobius strip of reality, of his own creation. To transcend it, he would need to take responsibility for it and learn to recognize himself.

Of course, now that Terence has shared these experiences with the world, he has inspired many others to go out in search of machine elves.  And you know what?  They've seen them too!  Why?  Because the illusions of Terence's ego spoke to the illusions of other peoples egos, and they too find themselves reflected back to themselves in the form of machine elves and self-dribbling basketballs. Congratulations, Terence! Your words have created new objects in hyperspace!  You did it!  You can relax and trust and let go now.  Mission accomplished!

I think I mentioned at some point, just briefly, that the archetype of DMT is the circus.  These things are clowns, at one level. They're clowns.  When you think of the circus, it's a very complex archetype.  The circus is for children.  It's a delight.  You take a child to the circus that there's three rings and absurd clown antics going on, but then you lift your eyes up to the top of the tent and there the lady in the tiny spangled costume is hanging by her teeth and working without a net.  It's about eros and death.  My first awareness of eros was being three or four and these women in these tiny costumes spinning around realizing, you know, if she falls, she dies.  And then away from the center ring and all this action there are the sideshows: the goat faced boy, the thing in the bottle, the Siamese twins and fuzzy Charlie . . . all of that is also very DMT-like.  It really is the archetype of the circus.

I can remember when I was a kid in this small town in Colorado, every 4th of July the carnival would come to town for a week and set up and we anticipated it all year.  But as soon as they were there, we couldn't play outside after nine at night because the carny people are different, we were told.  And their means of support, sexual proclivities and choice of intoxicants might have run counter to this mid-western Catholic mining town I was in.  So there's this sense the disruption, the danger, the drama, the interest, the fun, and then they go away, and life is as if they had never been there at all. And that's what DMT is like. 

And the mobius strip takes another turn.  Terence just can't see himself, despite the fact that he references himself and his childhood experiences.  He claims that the circus is the "archetype" of DMT, and then goes on to claim that this is so because it reminds him of his childhood experiences at the circus.  Hello!  Self to Terence!  Pay attention!

I will emphatically state that the "circus" is not in any way the "archetype" of DMT.  This is Terence's archetype of DMT.  Given that the DMT experience is one of the infinite energetic nature of the self, it can be anything. Granted, it is very colorful, wildly entertaining, extraordinarily fun and exhilarating, so maybe it's like a circus in that sense - though perhaps Burning Man would be a more apt imagistic metaphor.  But exhilaration and pretty lights do not necessarily Burning Man, or a circus, make.  DMT is its own experience and is not reflective of any other archetype, other than possibly all archetypes.

For Terence, the circus represents danger, sexuality, liminality, otherness, and suspension of ordinary social interactions and realities.  It is exotic and thrilling for him.  It's entertainment, but with an edge.  It's also a temporary reality and ephemeral.  It's completely disconnected from ordinary life.  It represents all that is not usually here, now.  For a small child in a rural Catholic community, the circus is pure alien thrill and an escape from mundane reality, but only for a little while, and most of the normal responsibilities of life and being have nothing to do with the liminal state of the circus.

The fact that this is the archetype for DMT for Terence tells us volumes about how he approached and appreciated his DMT experiences.  Just like the circus, they were temporary diversions into liminality, completely disconnected from the ordinary world and ordinary life: completely and thrillingly other.

This represents a profound internal dichotomy within Terence and his energetic being.  He is being dualistic to the extreme.  Again, centered and present individuals who use entheogenic experiences to bring themselves into the clarity of being precisely where and who they are find DMT to be profoundly unitive. In other words, they don't experience DMT as being dualistic at all.  Rather, the energetic unity of all of reality is immediately perceived and experienced at all levels of ones energetic being.  There is nothing even remotely other about such experiences.  In fact, in unitary states of consciousness, perception of otherness is actually impossible; if it were possible, it wouldn't be unitary consciousness.

Another way of putting this is to say that Terence's choice of archetypes is a reflection of his lack of mystical, unitary perception. Terence did not experience the oneness of all things.  He experienced profound separation and alienation.

I mean, it's a secret of such magnitude that it's inconceivable how it has ever been kept.   In a world where information was fairly weighted, we would spend as much time talking a bout DMT as we do about, I don't know, the West Bank or something.  And as you see from studying our newspapers, DMT is rarely, if ever, mentioned.  I mean, never would be a good rule of thumb. 

Times are changing and this is not anywhere near as true now as it was when Terence spoke these words.  Part of that discussion about DMT needs to be on the supposed reality of what is encountered within the DMT experience.  This is precisely what is taking place here in this essay. While Terence might have been shocked by my conclusions or taken personal offense at them (egos often have a difficult time hearing the truth), honestly assessing his testimony in fact is more respectful than blind acceptance. If DMT is going to be part of the public discourse, as it is increasingly becoming, informed perspectives become all the more vital.

The Western mind is very queasy around these experiences that cast into doubt their illusions about how reality is put together. When you get to DMT, you have hit the main vein.  I mean, I hold it in reserve as the ultimate convincer.  I mean, there are these people running around who say, "You people are into drugs - give me a branch whiskey and a little TV - I think you're deluding yourselves."  "Do you?  Well do you have five minutes to invest in this cheerful proposition, my friend, because have I got news for you!"

I would definitely agree with the opening statement above, and also add that people in general are wary of experiences that challenge their beliefs.  Beliefs are what egos are made of, in many respects.  Most egos aren't all that willing to let themselves dissolve into the infinite expanse of their genuine natures when it means letting go of everything they've ever thought or believed.  Intellectuals can be just as bad as religious fundamentalists, though, for ideas can be just as difficult to transcend as beliefs. 

The proposed use of DMT to replace one set of beliefs with another is a waste of time and energy.  All beliefs are limiting energetic constructs and while some sets of beliefs are more realistic than others, they are all still beliefs.  Fortunately, entheogens such as DMT, and especially 5-MeO-DMT, can assist in the transcendence of all beliefs and direct perception and experience of the infinite, unified energetic nature of reality, right here, right now.  This is not what Terence is using DMT to do, however, and he is clearly caught in his belief structures and ideational realities that he is creating for himself.  He could transcend all of this, if he would only choose to.  Somewhat disappointingly, Terence rather sees DMT as a tool to convince someone of the reality of an illusionary belief system.  How is this different from religious indoctrination?

Our final selection is entitled "Too Much DMT," and quite fittingly, somewhat addresses the above question: Right in the middle of this trip, this woman came back to the house . . . and started beating on my door furiously.  Now being a double Scorpio and secretive anyway, I just about had a heart attack and jumped off the bed right off this DMT flash.  I jumped up and landed on my feet in the middle of this room.  And something about moving so suddenly had shattered the distinction between the two continuums and I carried it all with me so that the room was then filled with elves.  They were hanging off my arms and spinning me around and there was this geometric object in the room that was spinning and clicking.  And every time it would click, it would hurl a plastic chip across the room that had a letter in an alien language written on it.  And these elves were screaming and bouncing off the walls.  This machine was spinning in the air.  The chips are ricocheting off the walls, and I was trying to deal with Rosemary in the middle of this.  

And you know, it was a too-muchness.  It was a case of seeing too deeply into it.  And if you have too many of those kinds of trips, then you become reluctant.  This is why I'm very cautious with it.  The notion of having enough chutzpa or will or something to want to try use this stuff - I can hardly imagine using it - I mean, every time I encounter it, my wish is not to be destroyed by it.   And the idea of using it for anything just seems like blasphemy, you know - and it probably is blasphemy - probably a good way to get cut down to size.

Too much, indeed.  The most interesting way to view this account of too-muchness is to appreciate the fullness of the perspective provided by the Entheological Paradigm. Keep in mind, not only is Terence everything that he experiences on DMT, but he is also everything that he experiences without DMT. There is only One Being, after all, and that being is everything, including Terence and his DMT trips.  So, from that perspective, what is going on here?

First of all, we see Terence firmly identifying with his ego in recounting this story.  He rationalizes that his reaction to having his door pounded on furiously by a woman immediately after launching into a DMT trip was due not only to being "secretive," but also a "double Scorpio." Astrology is an ego's dream: finding personal, egoic meaning in the movement of stars and planets and providing rationales for personal patterns of behavior.  It is ego story telling at its finest.  Realistically, Terence could just say that anyone pounding on anyone's door immediately after ingesting DMT would probably be disquieting.  He doesn't say that, however.  He wraps a couple layers of ego around a simple statement.

From the perspective of the Entheological Paradigm, understand that the being that is Terence is also the disruptive woman, Rosemary, as well.  In this case, it seems as though the One Being decided that it was time to shake Terence up and force him to reconsider this energetic, dualistic divide he had created between "DMT Space" and "normal" reality. The pounding on the door forced Terence to come out of his psychedelic head space of alien realms and deal with the fact that he's actually a person in a body in a room tripping DMT and not a "radio entelechy of the soul" parading about in an alien universe.  The truth is that Terence is actually right here, right now, and the woman pounding on the door it about to prove it.

However, Terence's attachment to his fantasy projections are literally gambling with his life and wellbeing.  He's so attached, that the screaming, bounding machine elves are hanging off him, clinging to him (and by mirror reflection, he to them). And in the middle of it all is some strange machine, spitting out alien poker chips randomly about the room while Terence tries to deal with the irate woman.

Too much, indeed. And all that Terence can say about this event is that the sudden movement caused his distinction between the "two continuums" to collapse, thereby bringing it all back with him into normal reality.  Terence's dualism shines through yet again.  His mind space is different from his body space.  They are two different continuums.  Terence does not experience himself as an integrated person.  He is not present in his being.  And this experience is a way for Terence to show himself this truth through the context of the woman and the elves jumping about the room and the poker chips.  It was a lesson.  A harsh one.  If embraced, it could  lead him to the next step in the process of recognition of the self and letting go of false beliefs.

It seems to have scared Terence.  Once his dualistic distinctions got shaken up, he seems to have become less cavalier about DMT. He directly states that he fears that the DMT experience will destroy him.  Ironically, this is precisely the kind of experience his ego needs to go through. The surprise would be that once he fully surrendered to the process of being destroyed, he'd find himself present and liberated. It is only a temporary transcendence of the ego, after all, not "the end."  In fact, it's just the beginning.

So shaken by this experience was he that Terence goes on to claim that using DMT for anything is blasphemous. Indeed, it is terrifying to challenge ones belief systems. Challenging beliefs is the very definition of blasphemous, and it is the fear and terror that this causes the ego that has led religions to react so strongly to the blasphemous. False identities built on belief in illusions don't want to hear the truth of what they are.  In that sense, use of DMT to transcend beliefs is blasphemous, in the best possible way.

When used consciously, entheogens hold the radical potential to be the ultimate tools in self-awakening and human liberation.  They can bring us to direct and immediate experience of the true energetic nature of reality and ourselves as embodiments of the Unitary Energy.  One has to choose to let go, however, of all beliefs and all ideas produced by the ego. These are blocks and they only serve to get in the way between our selves and genuine reality.

Using DMT to affirm beliefs is just delusional, in the worst way. We are not what we think we are.  We are not what any of our belief systems have taught.  Beliefs just get in the way and project out as all kinds of illusions and fictions to which we react exactly as our egos have trained themselves to react.  Terence is a great example of this truth and his DMT experiences clearly show this ego mechanism at work in the Divine Imagination.  It's too late for Terence to go beyond his illusions of the machine elves.  Fortunately, it's not too late for the rest of us.

DMT.

It's an interactive mirror.

Enjoy the show.

But don't be fooled by the clowns.  It's just an act, after all.

;-)

Comments

I thought this essay was

I thought this essay was silly. I'd be much more interested in a thorough account of your own impressions of DMT.

I think you've read too far into what Terence was saying, and misunderstood him for the most part. He meant for his words to be entertaining, and I think it's quite obvious his accounts aren't intended to be in depth or a full reflection of his impressions. He almost never detailed what his personal experiences entailed, he was intentionally vague.

Maybe my understanding of ego transcendence is naive, but I personally find your certainty about the One Energetic Being, expressed through it's five energetic centers, the understanding of which allows one to find their own energetic Truth... I find this to be a touch egotistical. But I haven't looked into your Entheogenic Paradigm, which I suppose I should if I'd like to experience the Truth of my being?

Sorry to be disagreeable, but I'm sure you could tell that I was typing this from the energetic center 3.25 inches posterior of my glabella anyhow, so you won't be surprised.

I don't think Terence was at all confused. I think he was fascinated and humbled. Rather admirable in my opinion. And let's not forget that one of Terence's recurring talking points was that people should learn to live without closure.

Anyhow, that's my reaction to this essay which I found to be lengthy in condescending analysis and lacking in perception.

Sincerely,

Glue

Shame on you

Shame on you Martin...
Picking a fight with someone who can't defend himself.
Using Terence to make yourself more important.
Wasting all that brilliance in shallow pettiness.

You are nothing but a coward, shaming a dead man behind big fancy words.

I was a friend and neighbor of Terence's, both in Camp Meeker and on Big Island. He initiated me into the DMT experience, which changed my world ever since. I was there at the end, when he saw that "love is all there is".

He was a quiet, reflective, humble, funny, courageous human being, who wasn't looking for fame or fortune. He was given the baton by Timothy Leary, and he reluctantly ran into the unknown regions of our collective psyches, lighting the way for the rest of us. He never saw himself as a hero, far from it, he was a recluse. He would purposely go out of his way not to be noticed, or be flashy in any way.

You are so wrong about him, if you spent just a few minutes with him you would not be saying the venomous things that shamefully comes out of your mouth.

For all your wisdom and insight, you will never achieve what you truly desire;
love from yourself.

For love comes from within, and it must be nurtured and fed constantly with kind thoughts. Your words were like knives trying to cut into the flesh of a noble and honest man who gave his life to open humanity's doors so we can follow the narrow dangerous footpath that leads to self-awakening.

Shame on you, and may Terence forgive you for your cowardness.

I have to agree with this

I have to agree with this whole-heartedly, Glue. I was pretty ashamed and appalled reading this essay. So many have experienced other worlds and other beings on DMT, I belive that those are all precieved differently, but to call ALL those people out is just wrong. You're basically saying in the essay that whomever visits a world that isn't right here, right now, that our energies aren't in the right place or we're not accepting of ourselves. Personally I just feel like you're doing it wrong. For you to not realize that whatever is ACTUALLY going on here is something great, wonderful, and mysterious is staggering. It felt to me as though you were trying to wind us all down back to right here, right now, and guess what? I don't want to be right here right now, I'm already here, I'd like to take any clues, hints, and leads I can to figure out as much as I can about what we're doing here. I was also pretty offended how you just picked him apart the whole time. Who cares that he says "uh" and "umm" are you telling me that you can truly describe your experiences without stumbling a little. DMT is very intense and completely out of this world, many that do it, including myself have a difficult time portraying the actual experience in words because it is so awe inspiring. You really need to get your facts straight.

Laughable

This "essay" is quite simply a joke.

For someone judging a dead man's ego, this writer sure as hell made it painfully obvious that he hasn't done much of anything to transcend his own ego. Otherwise, he would have realized the utter futility of writing such a pointless piece. "I'm above Terence Mckenna and heres why."

Terence should be respected for his work; not ridiculed posthumously for being egoic (which in and itself is, as I said, comical). Of course he shouldn't be put on a pedestal and not criticized at all, but his role as psychopomp to thousands should be respected. If you actually listned to his lectures and read his works, perhaps you would see that he always professed that his opinion was merely subjective and absolutely nothing more. The mystery lies within.

To the writer: go back to work on something thats actually meaningful, you know, like personal evolution.

Calling out the Timothy Learys and Daniel Pinchbecks of the world is one thing and definitely has its place, as they are charlatans of the highest degree. (That's right Daniel; you're a total douche who capitalizes on people's innate credulity.)

Terence had more humility than all of the psychedelic community combined.

Timewave Zero and his stories of the Elves were at times painfully idiosyncratic and flakey, but he presented them as such! This writer obviously hasn't listened to Terence enough to form a proper opinion.

That, my friends, is why this "essay" is a gigantic crock of shit.

this essay doesn't make sense

"This writer obviously hasn't listened to Terence enough to form a proper opinion."


 

Addendum: One last parting shot

This quote effectively outs Martin Ball as an utter tool and, most of all, a charlatan, as I said before.

"In very practical terms, they (psychedelics) show you that everything you know is wrong. How can the ego survive that piece of information? It just puts in your lap incontrovertible evidence that everything you ever thought or believed is hokem (bullshit), and thats extraordinarily humbling. And that word, humbling, means the feeling you have when your ego is reduced, you know? Humble yourself enough and you'll begin to feel humiliated. And that is a deeper ego reduction. I think that aside from any magical chemical effect they might have on ego, they are just simply showing you the true size of the Universe and your place in it."

Terence Mckenna

 

To Terence:

I hope you are enjoying yourself with Jung in Eternity. We've got everything covered for you in your absence; in fact, I'm saving you a seat for the Eschaton. See you there!

 

To Martin:

You clearly need to get laid if you are starting pissing matches with the dead. Tell me, what good does such a critique do? None. It only serves to draw more attention to your massively inflated ego. I mean, why would anyone who is ultimately UNKNOWN, such as yourself, attack such a well-respected, DECEASED figure? Perhaps you are jealous of his following and your lack of one? Perhaps...

Also, I find it hilarious that you openly hawk products and call other people egoic. How confused are you? I can almost see you and Pinchbeck patting eachother on the back at how cool you guys think you are (even though both of you didn't get "any" in high school and still struggle to do so today; maybe THAT is the root of your insecurity issues? Because we all know, someone who is secure with themselves doesnt feel the need to attack others.) 

And you can quit your internal dialogue, "Oh, well, they are just mad because I attacked their hero, i.e., they are just little fan-boys defending their herder."

Au contraire mon frere; this entire essay and the subsequent uproar it caused only served to reveal your own blatant insecurities about yourself and your work. Any armchair psychologist reading this would say, almost immediately, "He's merely projecting his insecurities on someone else." No. shit.

Signed,

Terence's Ghost

 

P.S.

Your silence is most deafening and telling.

Are you relatively Centered?

In 1967, Richard Alpert gave Lakshmi Narayan Sharma 900 micrograms of LSD. Then in 1970, Richard Alpert gave Lakshmi Narayan Sharma 1200 micrograms of LSD. In both cases, since Lakshmi Narayan Sharma was already Centered, the LSD did not affect him at all.

Visuals from DMT, LSD, etc., are inversely-proportional to how Centered you are. The greater the visuals you project, the further away from being Centered you are. These molecules give feedback to show how far away from Here and Now you are.

Most humans infected with the meme-virus known as culture are far from Centered. Only a tiny percentage of culture-carriers will admit that the above statement is true.

Thus, most humans who take large doses of DMT, LSD, etc., project various visuals. Only a small percentage of us are relatively Centered enough to not project any visuals. Most humans project visuals, and won't admit that this is evidence they aren't Centered.

We all have the potential to become Centered to a much higher degree. Do you will to? Lakshmi Narayan Sharma did not project, he did not dream, for he did not even sleep. He was a rare human who let go of beliefs and remained Centered to a very high degree.

Most humans in general angrily deny the fact that they aren't reaching their full potential. The first step is admitting to yourself that your energy is not residing in your Center now. Understand that visuals are not the goal, a centered person does not project any visuals.

You can continue to deny that visuals are self-projected, you can continue to see visuals. You can join the DMT-Nexus and write lengthy reports about the alien dimensions and entities you see.

Or, you can simply allow your energy to return to the Heart Cave and become Centered. Become Centered, and then smoke a large dose of DMT, and you won't project any visuals. When your energy sits firmly in your Heart Cave Center, you will see reality without any projections. :-)

One of Terrence's best

One of Terrence's best features was his sense of humour and the fact that despite all his grand visions he never took them too seriously and happily admitted that he didn't fully understand what was happening. It seems that you've approached his talks a little too seriously. You have read into every pause and 'um' uttered and claimed they are proof of Mckenna's shortcomings. The man used to talk for 6 hours at a time so I think it's understandable to have a few pauses in there.

I recently listened to a talk you did over at http://in-a-perfect-world.podomatic.com/entry/eg/2009-11-11T16_01_19-08_... and found your repeated use of the word 'like' rather annoying. But I didn't let it affect the information that you were trying to get across. I guess I urge readers to listen to your talk and make their own decisions. Personally I feel like someone is a little jealous.

the first time i heard Terence

was on free radio, it was a cassette recording, that came as a wild breath of fresh air, right off the bat, Terence weaved a language spell that to my old psychedelic poet's ear reminded me of being at some of the poetry readings that I attended in the 70's in that I was caught up in the flow of his musings, it was poetic, philosophical, and I felt a resonance with the thrust of his thought.There was a lot of information that I felt was the kind of philosophical approach that allowed me to enter the wave of his universe, and apply whole layers of his insight to my own.Having never smoked DMT his experience in this area was not something I could question, so I rather listened to the flow of his words and picked up on certain elements that I could expand upon in my own musings.I was impressed with his literary analogies. his unique ability to link James Joyce with Borges with Alfred North Whitehead.So , yes to listen to Terence was entertaining and intriguing.Having come out of the psychedelic explosion of the late 60's Tim Leary was the voice that I took with me into my own youthful trips, at that time it was all I needed to turn on, I had no philosophical maps, or studies in Eastern spiritual texts.It's not like I listened to Leary to give an intellectual view to paste over my late 60's LSD experiences, it was more like he was the only voice that had that positive affirmative that allowed me to feel like I was not so isolated in the teenage wasteland.Terence was another affirmative presence that signaled on the transcendent horizon.

There is something called "metaphore"

"DMT. It's an interactive mirror." Isn't everything?

Mckenna was a poet, and a storyteller..A man with a sack full of tales extrapolated from the abyss..A man who had repeated that unfathomable journey into the unkown more times than most..what Mckenna was talking about, raving on and on about was the unspeakable..Mckenna had the gift of language, of elegance..a man with the ability to speak the unspeakable. Id say take a second look..

 Like any other poet, Mckenna didnt want to be taken seriousily, with us hanging offevery single word he spoke..frankly Id be quite offended by his work if he did...He was a poet, he spoke great metaphores..envoking the irrationality of the intangible into the realm of spoken word..He was not speaking to be taken literally, but metaphorically..and he did a damn good job as far as I can tell...

 Ego is not everything..but non-ego is not either..its like 1 and 1..you dont get 2 without paying equal attention to BOTH.. Now, Ive read all of Mckenna's books, more than once..Ive listened to all of his lectures..I smoked a hell of alot of DMT, drank my share of ayahuasca..taken mushrooms hundreds of times..prob more vilca than any man should, amongst a whole plethora of other entheognens..and Mckenna has always reasonated with my experiences..

Im not some 2012 freak, frantically quoting Mckenna slogans from his books I never took the time to "get", let alone read..I dont think the escaton is on its way..I dont think the world is going to end..and I highly doubt Mckenna would want to be associated with any of these people were he alive today.. What Mckenna was really saying was sooooo much deeper than what has been outlined here..Of course his words are riddled with paradox, but is there really anything on the money worth saying that isnt?..Nothing is ever that one sided..we're talking the realm of spoken word here..

Terence McKenna

Terence McKenna is not alive to defend himself against the allegations in this article.

thought provoking post

For me, this was an insightful look into how the ego can influence an open minded state.I hope people can surrender and go beyond their mental bodies in order to be unified with the whole of creation.That said, its possible, and probably a lot easier to accomplish without drugs..

no need to take sides

I love Terence's work, and i also sincerely enjoyed your perspective and criticism. Man you have balls, its not easy to try and take down one of the "gods" of the counter-culture. I am really glad you did, your article gave me quite an epiphany.

Well, I guess this piece

Well, I guess this piece will generate some discussion on Terence's ideas by those who understand what he was specifically saying. Fifth dimensional language can't be fully discussed though. Martin, if you really want to understand exactly what he was saying it may take a few years of listening to all his lectures several times to get the communication. You seem to have your own personal framework of the truth, reality and how you use Entheogens and what you experience. When you are on one good solid track it may be impossible to see the other. That is cool, stay on yours and share. But in your effort to "win" your evidence is a bit loose, strategically chosen and put on your own chess board. take care

well it's all very clear now

we have fooled ourselves for so long about Terence McKenna, and should immediately put aside our previous ideas about our great bard and storyteller and start listening to the TRUE prophet of DMT, the author of this article.

He has put aside his own ego to derail Terence and insist that he is the rightful king of the DMT space, that his ideas are TRUE while Terence's are indeed the false ones.

agreed, the ego can play strange games, eh?

humpf!

 

 

 

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laughing ... ;)

laughing ... ;)

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Agreed. Our egos tend co-opt

Agreed. Our egos tend co-opt even our trancendent experiences, try to take credit for them in some way, when they are in fact a gift from the divine. Silly desperate behavior in my opinion. That is why it is not helpful to try to annihilate the ego. I know from personal experience that viewing the ego as seperate from us and as something that needs to be destroyed is a non-productive exercise in judgement against ourselves and others. Those judgements not only feed our egos, they also serve to energize the blocks that keep us repeating old unhelpful patterns. If we honor our egos they will trust us enough to relinquish control with less of a fight and ride shotgun on our adventures, looking out for us instead of driving. As far as DMT goes, just trying to figure it out is like trying to contain the uncontainable. The heart doesn't need to understand, thats only important to the mind, which is not helpful when trying to transcend the ego. 

This analysis resembles

This analysis resembles Freud's "Interpretation of Dreams" which assumes that every feature of the dream is nothing more than an aspect or projection of the dreamer rather than an external "dream" reality. As such its a well known argument.

Not having tried DMT I can't speak about it, but I have experienced wildly vivid dreams and next-day waking imagery that I suspect are caused by the use of melatonin before bed. What often surprises me about such dreams and free-floating imagery is how strange and detailed they are and how impossible it would be for me to conjure such detail with my imagination - its simply not up to the task. As such, its not surprising that they seem to come from an outside source rather than myself.

I think neuroscience has a better chance of cracking these riddles than introspection, but Government has to be persuaded to allow the research.

This is really fascinating stuff, Martin's divine fractal imagination reality seems an overly reductive idea as far as I'm concerned but its well argued. McKenna, however, would seem to be a little immune to this type of crticism - he was as much a bard as anything else.

Very Interesting

I won't claim that I have not been a Terence fan, despite his annoying voice, but that is so true about the fact he is speaking from somewhere between the Ajna/Head and the Throat center. The head centers help us interpret, speaking directly through the Head >Ajna>Throat centers could not result in anything but projections of ego. Very good observation. 

It seems that people listen to Terence and hang on his every word in a large part because of the legend and imagery that surround his name. It is of critical importance at this time that this be exposed. I am shocked at the reality of the polarity of this icon of ethneogenic enlightenment as it appears so clearly defined to me now.

 Holy shit, did we collectively fuck that one up or what? No wonder it seems to be slow going- where would we be if half the world hadn't been wasting their DMT trips looking for machine elves, waiting to penetrate the wall, trying to break through the complex geometric patterns, to convince themselves they went where Terrence went, to the promised land with all the little bouncy balls and elf voices-or being disappointed if they didnt. Embarking on the whole excursion with the expectation that they will not be able to comprehend what is about to happen-"Terrence fucking McKenna can't even comprehend it- everyone sees the same little guys you know-its archetypical, rain foresty, groovy." I can hear it now, I have heard it-sort of-wow-I think epiphany is a major understatement here.

 Apparently the we have been deceived not only by our politicians and religious leaders, but also by those who portray themselves as free thinkers, ushers of enlightenment, heroes of the counterculture, even pillars of the psychedelic community-

"everything that I was ever taught was a lie" immortal technique

Hehe

Martin, as others have pointed out I too think you need a bit of humor - one of McKennas strongest features. You come across as a dull and perhaps even dangerous "Andrew Cohen Guru I have The Truth" kinda guy. Which to my mind is destructive ego behaviour if anything. McKenna had the socratic audacity, and knew history well enough to admit he was a ignorant fool. But you see, he had a fun way of conveying this, and that's why so many including me like him.

LOL Andrew Cohen indeed . . .

LOL Andrew Cohen indeed . . .

and so

as much as I enjoyed Terence, read his books, and saw him in person, I still felt there was much to learn from really listening to him, but also, much to take with a grain of alchemic salt.As the DMT thing was not to be part of my psychedelic journey, the machine elves and all that never mattered to me, I just remember that when Terence came along to my attention, in the mid 80's and I was drawn to his way of picking the psychedelic gauntlet and his tenacity.One thing that bothers me though, is when people graft eastern thought over western thought, and talk about ajna and anahata and then plunge into conjecture about a persons speech patterns.I really don't care how high and holy you think you are, and how nit picky you are about the style a person like Mckenna happened to manifest.When you speak of feeling and then use terms of well lets be honest, every new age snowflake out there thinks they are coming from their hearts, fine, fine, fine, but when you are speaking of the psychedelic experience there is a different nuance that comes into play, and all the eastern religion terms do not change the way we look at say a work of art, and speak of it in words that come from the heart of the eye in the third place, I could listen to a lecture on chakras and want to learn more about my merridians, and I have and do, but when I think about the journey psychedelics have been on in my life time, and the whole ball of wax that rolls with that, I still will be drawn to James Joyce, William James, and my middle name James, I still will reflect on the first time I took LSD and the last time I ate mushrooms, I will think about eastern mystical texts but I wont mix the orange that looks like a sun now with the apple of forbidden fruit that Eve scarfed, all Bible translations aside.And one other thing, the night Terence died I had a dream about him, I found out the next day.I saw him entering an underground cave.

The pathos of the 3-ring target

I am surprised by the general rush to judgment as regards Ball's article.

Touchy, touchy! I am very fond of McKenna myself, but I don’t in any way feel threatened by the points that Ball is making.

Let us all aspire to have a more omnipotent sense of humor!

During the early 1980s, I used to look forward to McKenna's monthly column in "Magical Blend," but, as my own explorations deepened and expanded, I eventually became exasperated with his obsession with "machine elves," which came more and more to seem like a kind of metaphysical fetish.

It was only over the past 5 years or so that I rediscovered McKenna, and realized how much more he had to say.

There is a passage from Rimbaud that I’ve always loved. It is from a letter to Paul Demeny, as reads as follows:

“The poet makes himself a seer by a long, gigantic and rational derangement of all the senses. All forms of love, suffering and madness. He searches himself. He exhausts all poisons in himself and keeps only their quintessences.

“Unspeakable torture where he needs all his faith, all his superhuman strength, where he becomes among all men the great patient, the great criminal, the one accursed—and the supreme Scholar!—because he reaches for the unknown! …

“Let him die as he leaps through unheard of and unnamable things: other horrible workers will come; they will begin from the horizons where the other one collapsed.”

North America is no longer an “undiscovered continent,” and perhaps “self-dribbling machine elves” are no longer at the cutting edge of cosmological exploration; we might, instead, compare them to the monstrous fish that guard the edge of the flat earth on a Medieval map.

McKenna probably would have agreed wholeheartedly with this statement, which is attributed to the 9th century master Lin Chi: “If you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him.”

The Buddha being safely dead, perhaps we could more productively direct our murderous urges toward McKenna. On the other hand, I have never heard of Ball before, and would prefer to see him live just a few days longer.

well it's only natural

 I'm not sure it's much ado about Terence Mckenna at all actually. I think the author is making a few projections onto Terence and he is receiving a dose of the medicine he wishes to distribute.

 

Ego based deconstruction usually attack the person and often ignore the ideas, they use the person, or the level of attainment the person is perceived to be at, as a way to disqualify the ideas they are discussing or putting forth. 

 

The deconstruction in this article seems to project ideas about Terence Mckenna as a way to disqualify his 'wanderings' in the DMT space and then use that deconstrution to build his own aura in the DMT space. Since his whole article is an attack on the role of 'ego', it's fair game to note that his own ego apoears to be his own strategem in the article.

Which is fine as well of course, as long as it's funny.

 

But is this article even funny?

 

Bah humbug! 

 

 

 

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Spirits and Shamanism

I think what it comes down to, regardless of what you or Terence says, is whether one believes in the spirit realm or not and whether or not it is possible to access the spirit realm via the use of psychedelics or not. The ancient Shamans thought the spirit realm was real, and accessible via drugs, and they had more experience with these matters than you, Terence, and every modern day pioneer combined. I know from personal experience such things are real, and not just through the use of psychedelics, but from genuinely paranormal experiences I've had using Magick alone. One could argue that these spirits, these other entities, are a part of oneself because we all are one and, at the most fundamental level, this is true. It is also true of all the other people you know, that you meet just walking down the street. However, if you were to treat all of these people as just projections of your own psyche, if you were not to acknowledge there own independent existence as well as the underlying oneness of all things, then you haven't transcend you ego. You have simply fallen prey to extreme ego mania. The same may very well hold true for the entheogenic realms.

well put

 I agree here, it's as if the author is attacking an entire school of thought on the matter of disincarnate intelligence and unaware that he is doing so. his approach is more 'psychedelic buddhism' of the early Leary/Albert school where all of these encounters were manifestations of the mind, and he seems unaware of the more shamanic/magickal interpretations that suggest that these intelligences may actually exist outside of the individual ego and have their own subjective realities.

 

actually, the deeper one goes into these spaces, if you assume every 'other' you encounter is just you, none of it makes sense and it may also drive you crazy.

 

Someone asked terence once why he calls it 'the other' and he replied 'I call it the other because it presents itself as the other' 

 

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Apples and Oranges

Your reality tunnel deconstructing terence's reality tunnel. hm.... I'm not quite sure what to say, other than that I read through this and came out thinking no differently re: Terence and/or DMT. Critiquing ... psychoanalyzing ... one's subjective experience of hyperspace ... hm. One cannot erect a fence around a man's soul, nor reliably deduce it's contents based on cassette recordings approximating the timbre and tone of spoken language expressed through the structurally unique hairy bag of water it was once attached to. Is the "Entheological Paradigm" a flawless lens? Realistically, it is, if anything, the next level of provisional - Terence, in part, laid the groundwork, and you, as one of the next in line, further coax language into interfacing with the subjective ineffable. Cool - lets give credit where credit is due ... Lastly ... this thing about Terence not having spoken from his heart? He might have agreed - once quipping that he "had never been much of a love bug" ... I'm not so sure, though. As I see it, He lived a life of poetically *romanticizing* all that he experienced - in complete awe, wonder of it all. He danced with language in all of it's inadequacy, constantly and tirelessly refining his rap so that it might one day do justice to such an amazing woman. In the end, his conclusion? "It's all about love" ... Is the story clear now? Terence's journey was *all about* his heart ... Tilting my hat to the sky .... -Mike

Fusion and Confushion

I have always felt that the charm of both Leary and Mckenna was as much in their confusion as in their viability.

Breaking new ground without a "language" is no easy thing ... that they took it upon themselves to even make a language out of it points to their own personalities as researchers as much as, if not more than their being pseudo prophets etc. 

Like Einstein couldn't "prove" the Unified Field State {Zero Point Field etc} his pioneering "meanderings" along such lines, shunned by many of his peers at the time, are still intriguing our present day fields of Quantum thought.

Breaking open the head does not automatically mean more knowledge is now available .. but just that there are more realms to look through for such. 

Entheogens are not about finding or giving "answers" to the mystery of life ... but only to show us the "trans-dimensional" nature of such mystery .. previously locked within the mind. 

Knowledge only comes from sober reflection before,after and during any such experience.

Wisdom only comes from living day-to-day with such reflections.

If Terrance was alive today his evolutions might just appear way more practical than his present day followers suppose from his earlier ponderings.

"It's an interactive mirror"

I'm curious....talking of delusions and ego-inflation, specially after listening to your last talks (compulsive need to demolish all the mystical maps of perception - except yours, of course - ; , lack of humour, pomposity)...are you speaking about McKenna...or about yourself?

So, acording to your paradigm, Grof is delusional, Richard Tarnas is delusional, the sufis are delusional, the Cabala is delusional, all the shamans are delusional, even Dzogchen is delusional...?

Sorry, but I find less distortion in the experiential view, for example, of David Spangler:

"The mystical part of me still focuses upon the primal domain of consciousness itself, which I call the Beloved, for I experience it as a presence of love; likewise, the esoteric part of me looks to and works with some of the other worlds and beings that represent that domain in non-physical ways - the Otherworlds of Celtic lore, for example, or the different dimensions written of in occult cosmologies. Meanwhile, the physical, earthly part of me tries to synthesize the other two and bring them both down to earth!

At different times in my life, I've concentrated on one or another of these. I have gone through my mystical phases, my occult or shamanic phases, and I am always going through an everyday, earthly phase since, after all, this is where I live! However, the primary area of exploration for me has always been the conjunction and blending of these three. What are the boundaries where they meet and how do they interact co-creatively with each other? That is the question that most often drives my interest and my work.


As for what has come out of my explorations, one insight that stands out is the need to move away from a pyramidal or hierarchical view of creation and spirituality. That view usually puts our physical existence at the bottom and spiritual existence at the top. As a consequence, we are either overtly or implicitly encouraged to leave the Earth in some manner because it is less real and less important than the realms of consciousness and being that are found towards the top of the pyramid (with God, of course, being at the very top).


Instead, I take a systemic view. There is pure consciousness on the one hand and the various manifestations of consciousness on the other, and they all interact with each other in co-creative ways. They are a lattice, a network, a pattern of creation, in which each entity or world has something unique and valuable to contribute.


The contribution of my earthly life, therefore, is as important and as powerful in its way as the contribution of some cosmic archangel. My contribution may not have as wide an effect as an archangel's, but it is not less important because of that.


Another way I think about this issue is to use the metaphor from quantum physics of the particle and the wave. Consciousness, the sacred, the mystical: these are wave-like. But I am a particle. Actually, I am a continuum between the fluid, wave state of pure consciousness on the one hand and my specific, particulate, physical identity on the other.


Between those two extremes of being - the wave and the particle - is a very dynamic intermediate state, which has elements of both particle and wave to it, of being an identity and of being something much more cosmic or universal.


It is these states that the shamanic and the Western magical traditions explore: the intermediate state between undifferentiated oneness and the specificity of our particular nature. These approaches help an individual go beyond ordinary consciousness, but they do not dissolve into a purely mystical union of oneness. Some differentiation is maintained; some boundaries are maintained, but they become highly permeable.


These traditions look at what I would call the architecture or the patterning of consciousness as it interacts with itself to create the phenomena of the world. But these traditions also look at the ways in which consciousness creates patterns that can - like vessels - take on and embody deeper or more mystical states of being
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http://www.context.org/ICLIB/IC34/Spangler.htm

 

"...the Imagination (or love, or sympathy, or any other sentiment) induces knowledge, and knowledge of an 'object' which is proper to it..."

Henry Corbin

http://henrycorbinproject.blogspot.com/2009/10/mundus-imaginalis-or-imag...

 

 

"The SACRED (whatever that means) is surely related (somehow) to the BEAUTIFUL (whatever that means)..."
Gregory Bateson

 

ego is a useful lie

I don't think the intent of this excellent article was a personal attack, but more of critical thinking, yet look how fast people are to miss the message in defense of Mister T . Hippies can be sheeple as much as republicans . Reading Mr. T's books recently I noticed his ego and wondered how much of His trips were based on his immense intelligence and magical background . I personally have had trips that were so real it has taken days for me to come to the conclusion that it was hallucinations .Some I still don't know about. Self delusion is easy and just because one person sees machine elves, it does not mean that that they are "real" . Also we know that if you are looking for something ,you can influence your perceptions .Mr. T's job was his rap of trips and that alone would confirm his own experiences . My experiences are "real" to me ,does not mean they are "real"to you .

If Terence was merely

If Terence was merely bringing back his projections of ego from his experiences, I'm quite all right with that. He's inspired scores of people to release themselves from the cultural norm and expectations of their peers. His ultimate, personal achievements in the entheogenic realm seem moot in this light. This isn't some 'holier than thou' game. Whatever McKenna got out of his experience was beneficial to him, even if it wouldn't be for you. Every way we perceive reality is subjective, even the entheogenic experience. Even if we truly let go of our ego and become this 'Being of Light' one-ness, it still all comes from within. I liked your article, it's extremely thought out and well-written. However, I do think you over-analysed the situation. I really don't think we need to bring in some new-agey hypotheses about which energy-center he's speaking from. That seems pretty egotistical and self-indulgent for someone who's ragging on someone for having too much ego.

so, Mr. Ball

Mr. Ball,

so, pray tell, what is self? What is consciousness? What is energy? What is language? What are elocution and prosody? Or, even more interestingly, what, pray tell, is the "Divine Imagination"? 

Is "divine imagination" your particular form of reifying the "entheogenic" experience? 

Your so called "essay" nevertheless seemed to touch on pregnant (albeit somewhat scantily laid out) themes, namely the age-old debate around projection and/or [naked] perception. A debate that undoubtedly calls for a wider discussion/speculation on the nature of reality.

Be that as it may, Mr. Mckenna's reification of his experience with certain substances remains, to my mind, humbly within the realm of poetry - which is certainly, and from certain angles, a kind of mythomania. Still, the mythomania of an erudite (in manifold fields) is surely preferable to the advances of an unquestioning minor adept - especially one proclaiming himself as a "shaman"- wouldn't you say?

Heroes write poetry. Rather, they 'say' poetry. And, in their imaginations of language, we find the material, the life of the path. Poets deign to "fail better". A simple matter of brinksmanship.

 I am also certain that your "knowledge" of energy centers and so forth is equally an experiential accomplishment of some order or another. Nothing to disparage there, I suppose. Except that merely replacing one given system for one's personal requires, indeed, a gift of voice. Of which you seem quite bereft. 

 With my profound respect,

Flow-Wolf 

ps - your general critique of Mr. Mckenna's expatiations is surely welcome, and, in a certain sense, coming from an unexpected angle.  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yeah yeah, sacred cows make

Yeah yeah, sacred cows make the tastiest hamburger. But criticizing McKenna isn't that radical, I think most people who are very familiar with his talks know that his views were often based on his own perspective and not universal truths. His greatest talent was his entertaining presentation and insights. He never claimed to really know what he was talking about anyway. He was self effacing in that way and that made him hilarious and human. And your comments on his inclusion of minor details like a person's horoscope as an indicator of his ego mania are just ridiculously picky and trivial. Lighten up enlightened one.

Why cant both be correct?

Is it at all possible Mr. Ball, that there is validity in BOTH what you and Terrence are saying? Like any explorer, Terrence was attempting to build, and inspire others to build maps of unmapped territory. We ARE all one..Ive been there, youve been there..but still, I am here, and you are there..you are me and I am you..yet, you are you and I am me. Neither ego or non-ego defeat the other in the end. Acceptance always trancends the drive towards defeat.

Objectivity does not inherantly rule out subjectivity, or vice versa. What I see is you and Terrance being two very differnt(yet both relevant) sides of the same coin. There is not need to discredit one in atempt to gain validity of the other. Both must be realized as essential, both must be trancended on equal ground for unity to be realized.

That sounds odd, I know..to trancend non egoic conciousness, and state bound conciousness..most people talk about simply one or the other..but there is a middle ground that trancends the duality of the 2 by accepting both of them for what they are. That means realizing the significant reality of subjective experience, as well as the objective reality behind all subjective, state-bound experiene. I am sure there is more to this reality on a subjective level than we as subjective beings have uncovered..much much more.

 The fact that everything is united at a level beyond all that doesnt change the fact that throughout history we have relentlessly explored, always seeking out the unknown, always questioning, probing...and that is how we got to where we are today. Some might argue that this is all bad, that the moment we bagan to ask questions we forever estranged ourselves from the "natural" world around us and began our plight into ego..I might agree, to a degree..I dont see it as bad..just the natural course of things.

We are human..we question..we feel seperate at times, becasue we rely on that sensation of seperation to experience, to grow to learn..there is nothing wring with being an individual..there is nothing wrong with ego..ego is tool, its all about how one uses that tool. I love this life..I love the people, the food..I love my daily activities..and its through that experience of boundry dissolution tha I come back to this place realizing just how much of a gift this life is.

I remember when I was a kid. I wanted to be a marine biologist soooo bad. I would go to the beach and marvel at the worlds upon worlds that existed simultaniousily in a single tidepool..the diversity amazed me and I wnted to learn more and more..I wanted to know..and I think I see a bit of that kid in Mckenna..that wide eyed completely blown away at what he had found..Mckenna was an explorer..he saw something that, to concentual society was most definatily somthing "other"..and he wanted to share that..Like columbus, he knew there was uncharted territory out there and he wasnt about to let anyone tell him different.

Yes..that drive, that persistance is a by product of the ego, of subjective experience. But ego is not the dirty, sinful thing it is often made out to be. Ego is a beautiful thing. Ego is not a mistake..I dont believe in mistakes..things just are..and ego is one of those things. It serves a purpose like everything else and that is why its here.

That is one of the most important lessons of ayahuasca and psilocin for me. The beauty that lies in individuality..in diversity.. If only everyone could see that, all the shallow judgementalism, uptight conservatism and embarrasing-self esteem issues of our society would fall away. If we all embraced true ego, true diversity, we could all truely be oursleves. Noone to judge, for we have no need to judge when others are not judging us, no need to put on that costume that someone else expacts us to wear..alot of people go through life never finding that centre that is them..becasue they dont want to be judged. To be truely appreciated for the individual you are, a non judgemental approch towards others is necessary, becasue you are expecting the same respect for you from others. Unity cannot exist without diversity. Without diversity what would there be to unite? One makes no sense withot the other. Unity is found through complete and utter acceptance of diversity in all its glorious colors.

This is why I dont see a big dicotemy really between the work of Mckenna and your own work..just 2 very different sides of the same coin..and both need to be said. Both are relevant. The reality of one definatily does not exclude the reality of the other.

Self and Other are dual attributes of a single organ of vision

Dear Fractal Enchantment,

What a wonderful comment! I look forward to reading many more.

My own thinking and writing have been moving in a similar direction. It seems to me that a genuinely "non-dual" perspective has nothing to do with the pounding of round pegs into square holes, or, conversely, with the pounding of square pegs into round holes, but is instead the result of a very subtle and acrobatic capacity to move fluidly between even the most impossible of contradictions, without becoming stuck in any single mode of vision.

Here is an excerpt from "Cultures sit down on chairs around the table of my solar plexus; an argument is about to start":

After crossing to the “other shore,” the poet finds that the moon is but one stage-prop out of many, all of which are syllables that have never left his mouth, but again, he must return out of the depths, with pen in hand. He must re-cross the ocean with no vehicle but his body; to do otherwise would be to violate an oath, or to not respond with orgiastic laughter to a dare. Convinced of the superiority of his one-directional transcendence, the mystic comments on the poet’s youth—he whose near death experiences were once the life’s blood of the lineage!; for the poet refuses to exterminate his “ego.”

Having once “inhaled” it is now unacceptable to “exhale”; a different actor must be chosen to do each.

I have often felt that this split between the planes of consciousness was perhaps a fairly recent development—if the actual length and breadth of human history were to be kept in mind. It does not seem to have been there for the poets of the “Rig Veda” or the “Mahabharata.”  In Homer’s time—during which, according to Plato, the art of memory was already in decline—the poet still seemed fully capable of performing his shamanic function.

The poet was a “messenger,” yes, but his job was not to carry any one set of instructions; his body was an echo chamber, in which thousands of voices all competed to be heard. The World Economy was an engine that an earlier race had designed; in need of tune-ups, it was kept in good repair by his displays of arcane temperament. Bad luck would attach to the killer of a poet; thus he was free to direct his criticisms or insults to the gods—for who among them might not have grown complacent in his/her habits, or been careless in the welcoming of a Guest?

There's a good bit of

There's a good bit of legitimate criticism in this article, but I don't feel like it's very constructive. This does seem very much like 'one ego's perception vs. another's'.. The excerpts of McKenna seem pretty strategically selected, not as much to help interpret the nature of reality-- DMT-influenced or otherwise-- so much as to invalidate Terence's experience all the time on top of stripping intellectual status and public speaking credit.

I was never much of a Terence fan-- his ramblings seem merited more by eclectic word choice and fantastic depictions no matter how qualitative in content-- but who's to say the nature of certain public speaking situations didn't influence him toward the kind of nervousness and response-based validation-seeking you have 'pinned' on him? This might be caused/motivated by his feeling a crowd to be less in tune or less responsive to more abstract concepts. But then again, Martin Ball kinda made him out to be unable 'to feel'. I say these things also because I perceive this author to be one who might look at the whole of negative responses to this article as a collective ego death due to the 'inevitable truth' of his conclusions on the nature of Terence's psyche and experience. Nah, I'd say if anything, the wealth of comments so quickly amassed and the degree of vehemence therein do seem a testament more to his popularity as an icon and the tone of your experience of his psyche so demonstrated. Your approach evoked for me a purported dominance of your ego over his rationally rather than a more holarchic basis for evaluating the nature of DMT experience and all of reality.

Anyhow, the notion that everything experienced on DMT or any psychedelic is a projection of the ego, let alone only the visual aspect (which makes even less sense), is ridiculous. Certainly, the more collected in and comfortable with an altered state one is, the easier it may be to 'move past' if you will the visual experience to purely 'abstract' language-guided spiritual epiphany-- the oneness of Logos with Eros in a psychospiritual stratosphere less visually embodied and therefore less subjectively rendered, a more unitary realm. It does seem like an 'easier' or at least more immediate phase of psychedelic experience to reach deep realization with a visually represented archetype, mandala, etc. But ultimately these differences in 'levels' of experience depend a lot on the nature of the individual's main mode of perception. Sure, the dichotomy of subject and object might have been constantly dangled 'in front of McKenna's face' by machine elves to remind him that he was having trouble reconciling them through realizing that language is as much derived FROM reality as it is a creator of it.. to say otherwise amounts to the anthropomorphization of God, Oneness, the Whole, into a masculine archetype and eventually then the deep wounds left by patriarchal society.

But A LOT of trips boil down to the nondual dualism or at least include it as a major theme. And that's because Logos and Eros are the only 'non-integrable' archetypes, according to Jung; or based on any realization that duality is a blessing and a curse provided by the doubled-edged sword that is Logos and the masculine binary component '1'. A lot of people don't 'see' much on even the highest doses of psychedelics, and a great factor in this is likely whether in the greater part of their 'regular conscious experience' they are looking 'at' things or, visually less focused, 'through' thoughts and feelings that come and pass with much or little bearing on the present sights.

Ultimately the biggest gripe I have with this article besides the last few lines and smile ending it and their contrast to the writing's tone-- c'mon man, who are you fooling-- is the seeming dismissal of astrology.

Of course, astrology is great for the ego because even immense knowledge gained through is often used by individuals to excuse if not celebrate the best aspects of indulging negative proclivities. In fact, this very user name of mine draws upon this. Ascletarius-Asclation was a court astrologer to Domitian, who like many emperors was obsessed with astrology if not just for the reason of wanting to maintain his rule and crush notions of potential end thereof. When Domitian asked Asclation to predict his own death before a typical execution to dismiss the validity of said prediction, he answered that he would be torn by dogs. He was executed immediately, but as his body awaited cremation a sudden rainstorm put out the fire; the undertaker took shelter, and a pack of dogs came upon the corpse. It seems at least two astrologers predicted the hour of Domitian's death, and swiftly did it come.

I am to be molded 'as clay', according to a 'higher understanding'-- at once within me and without me or the requirement of my participation in its way of its flow. One should not use a greater means to wisdom and self-knowledge as an excuse or enabler for one's ego-driven dark side. If it isn't good for the Whole, it isn't really good for oneself. Only through language's temporally rooted abstraction can the conscious indulgence of such excuses be presented as acceptable through contrast definition-- we're always going to fall short, so don't try to for the sake of a false balance.

Astrology is like the essential synchronicity and reality itself-- metaphoric, mediating between subject and object, making correlation essentially clear over the 'cause and effect deception' given the true interconnectedness of all things and therefore the endlessly interweaving causes and effects. To seek illusory cause-and-effect abstractions as ultimatums is wrong-- it glorifies Logos, spreads irrational rationality / 'left-brain imprisonment', and therefore is egoistic.

In trying to explain the clear validity of astrology I like to point out that 'common horoscopes are to astrology what fast food is to health and culinary art.' On top of this, I once encountered the response 'when did man become so egoistic as to think the stars have anything to do with one's psyche?' Well, besides it really being the sun planets and moons in terms of the stars.. when did man become so egoistic as to believe the shape of one's psyche has nothing to do with the world exterior to one's action let alone the heavens? Especially when every bit of the world is in some way interacted with by each action, and therefore not separate from them. Many astrologers recognize that the planets may not even exert much of the energy resonance our beings and genetic codes are significantly influenced by. They are simply reference points for the earthly energetic and seasonal cycles which are more interactive with human traits. Correlation. Mediating between the objectively perceived and subjectively reduced.

Wanted to get that out of the way. But if anything I think the so-perceived 'stuck record' element of McKenna's DMT experience and how he recounted it could be as much a glorification of his purpose as a hindrance to perfectionist expectation of its expression. Perhaps the very nature of it being like "hello, let go and feel!" and how perhaps he did not, serves as all the more beautiful a reminder to others that this be done. He confirmed the relative reality that language helps manifest the 'object'ivity it is ultimately derived from, and perhaps was never released from its reduction valve.

I am as you are, and so I bow.

One.

as above, so below;

strive to glow

From Terence's "The World and Its Double":

"I feel self-conscious telling you what I've learned from psychedelics, but imagine me telling you what YOU'VE learned from psychedelics!"

Thanks Martin

You remind me of myself when I first started taking psychedelics - shouting loudly while stepping on toes.Not that I think you are wrong. I agree with most of your analysis of my favorite bard Mckenna. It's just a tone thing... your tone is tinged with anger or resentment. Try love and compassion. More people will hear you.Mckenna was a storyteller. And a fine one. His choice was to stay in his head. I personally think that his attachment to his cannabis was what kept some of his mental constructs "sticky," and consequently helped him stay stuck in them, and who knows, maybe even contributed to his tumor. But he loved his head. And he loved his cannabis. And I love him.And I love you too Martin. Keep exploring. Keep refining your voice.

a confused ego

I too, thank you for your interesting perspective & valid criticisms of someone many peeps in this scene (myself included) are fond of - takes balls! - and I also hope you can deal with the interesting perspectives & valid criticisms you've received, and use them to strengthen your work, and not just fuss about them like some e-goon.

Personally I find myself more in the middle of your & terrence's perspectives, hopefully with the potential to go between & beyond both - I'm not certain that everything that can occur in the psychedelic experience is a reflection of the ego (which is a more judgemental (tho perhaps more specific) word than simply 'self'.)---Even though a treasured maneuver when I run into discomfort is to "I AM IT", and there is great benefit to bearing the idea that "it's all me" in mind, it just don't cut the mustard in some situations. For you to outright dismiss the "other realms" perspective seems foolhardy, arrogant even - those crazy primitives eh?

It also seems that you might be peculiarly limited (or admirably focused!) in your perspective that it's all about "being here now" & unitive consciousness - that may well be the be-all-&-end-all of your journey/approach but I'd be very cautious about interpreting everybody else's experience in that light . . . diversity is a beautiful thing!

I do think you provide a valuable service in pointing out a very valid & coherant perspective, and it's a shame that Terence isn't here to reap those benefits (or maybe - that you weren't there!) ...

I, for one, would be glad for you to "do me" one day!

"Hey Martin I can see a Tree whose branches are the negative space between the stars and whose trunk slowly revolves like the pace of the earth against the face of the moon and whose roots contain the joys & pains of the combined compost that is every being which ever lived!"

"Calm down Sam, only confused egos have visions."

HejeehejfjehehshsHAHAHA!
http://www.fleshprism.com/

 (edited to correct habitual spelling mishcake of Terence as Terrence)

T.M. "Still Stirring The Brew".

I knew Terence and believe me he did have an ego. I also think his personality was big enough to be amused by your article. No one is above analysis. I think he would have relished the fact that he is still controversial, relevant and entertaining. 

let go of my ego

Um, not to be a spelling nazi, but it's Terence with one r.I was on a site that is defunct now for years and we talked a lot about Terence, and Leary, and Robert Anton Wilson, Alan Watts, ect.I am sure, like Terence always said....foooooor surrrrre.I also like to read philosophy, as did Terence, I did not have the nice education he did.But I am was about his age, I was a child of the late 60's.I took Owsley LSD when I was 17, until I was about 19, I did mushrooms, and Peyote, but mostly LSD.So I guess you could say I was a "hippie", I assume most of the people posting on here now have had nice educations, more or less, apparently the person that made this essay, had one, and I suppose he spent several years in an ashram, or had some guru, and I bet his guru did not smoke DMT.I don't know, I spent a year in a meditation community back in the mid 70's.The Teacher was a man from England that had had a guru in India for a few years, he also had a "psychic research society" thing going in Jamaica for a period.When I landed there at his meditation community I was the token wild hippie, the other people were all university students, mostly.So I did what they did, I took the meditation course, and also we held lots of meetings where we attempted to practice what Mr Hills called "creative conflict"As any rate all the university people, were on the fast tract to enlightenment, which meant, that they were there to bash each others egos, but as chance would have it, in the year that I was there, they really liked bashing my little ole ego, in fact I became the scapegoat ego bash whipping boy.I was a poet, and I was even bashed for skipping out on a meeting and sneaking out to a local poetry reading.There is a lot more to this little tale, in fact I could prolly write a book about it, suffice to say, I left paradise finally because of a woman.My shattered ego intact.Or I mean, it was a healing experience, but it also was a lesson in English gurus and group dynamics.I remember Terence saying that he scoured the Rishis, Roshies, Geishas, and he always asked "what can you show me?" I got a kick out of that.I recall the first time I saw Terence speak, after that was a party at a local psychedelic affectionado's house, I stood next to Terence for a moment, and Listened to him, it reminded me of going to a after poetry reading party, and standing next to a famous poet.I also sat on a couch next to Kat for a while, and listened to her, ah, she had such a lovely voice.

McKenna said your "Entheological Paradigm" himself.

And it was said by many religious philosophers, poets, shamans and psychoanalysts before him. The fact that you place so much of the weight of your thesis on his "nasal voice" is so ridiculous that it reeks of school-yard bullydom. He thinks he's so smart because he has a whiny voice? Ufggghhh and then you go on to analyse him on the basis of his verbal pauses. This essay makes me feel embarrassed. This isn't only bad psychology, it's poor self-awareness clouded by machismo and some sneaky sort of envy. And the whole thing just poisons itself and comes off as unintentionally ironic. Your ego is eating itself and it thinks that it's McKenna's ego playing the Ouroboros dance! A strange mirror indeed.

wasted potential, egomania

well, I tried to read it all but it got so maniacal and repetitive that in the end I just skipped to the Terence quotes, as they are at least entertaining...

it's embarrassing to see someone trying to market his own ideas by throwing stones at another's, and it's like a childish "piss contest" trying to compare who took more DMT, who understand it right or not, while speaking about ego.

boy, this article is a long and tedious ego masturbation :( and in the end, your paradigm could be just as true as Terence's elves. but there's a crucial difference in the way you both communicate it: he's a poet, you are a preacher.

hyperborea

I've entertained the idea that you can tell a lot about people from what "drugs" they like... Mr Ball seems to be a classic 5MEO-type!
;-)

I never knew that about Terence repeating "It's all about the love" on his deathbed, that's beautiful! I was one of many people who emailed him when he was ill, to send him Love (in my youthful exuberance I forgot myself and thanked him profusely for everything he'd given me, like it was already over - but there was his humour again, the only line I remember from his reply was "It ain't over till the fat lady sings!" (this caused me loads of fun when I went psychotic a few years later and was convinced there were hidden messages in Shpongle tunes leading me towards the tip of Terence island (where he sat, still alive, behind the UFeye in the sky transcribing our highest thoughts!) just in time to get sacrifucked & save the world at the party at the edge of time!!!))) anyway... Thanks for that info.

L O V E
&
L O N G L I V E T H E B A R D !

I think

that there are too many assumptions being made in this article. I really don't believe that McKenna ever said that he is the one that smokes the most DMT either. Plus, back in his days it is quite probable that he was one of the people that was smoking alot of DMT, I mean, that was a long time ago and smoked DMT is a pretty recent phenomenon. Because he speaks in a nasal voice, he is not centered in his heart? Are you kidding me? Everybody has their own interpretations of the world and of the psychedelic experience, although there are things which are universal. Everybody has their own ego to battle with, including McKenna and the author of this article. I really don't think that this article is very fair, and seems petty. Trying to prove McKenna was led by his ego. What is your point? That he wasn't a great man? I have great admiration for McKenna, and I started reading his material before the 2012 mania that is going on right now. I think he has helped me navigate through the world of psychedelics but at the same time, just like him I don't believe in anything with 100% sureness.  The author of this article - what have you helped me do?  Point out the fact that all of McKennas work might have been led by his ego?  Does that even make a difference?  Does his work become insignificant now?

 

Stay civil

Set, setting, and beyond

The tone of this article is unfortunate and it is not surprising that some have reacted to it the way they have. It wasn't necessary to tear down Terence McKenna to make the point but there is a valuable point to this post.

From the earliest days of psychedelic research, Leary et al showed that the psychedelic experience was primarily determined by set and setting.

The set is what the individual brings to the experience. It includes a substratum of mind/brain common to all humanity and with commonalities reaching back into the animal, and possibly, plant kingdom. It also includes the experiences and beliefs unique to the individual - the sociocultural milieu and circumstances of upbringing and experience.

The setting is the environment in which the experience takes place. People in hospital rooms surrounded by people in white tend to have bad trips. People in nature or churches tend to have better ones.

The big question is once effects of set, particularly the parts unique to the individual, and setting are removed, what is left? Is there an opportunity to glimpse directly into the nature of reality? And, how do we not confuse the illusory visions with the real thing?

I would recommend Martin's book Being Human for a presentation of his ideas that may be more acceptable to some turned off by this post.

Ball has balls . . . (balls = ego)

Mr. Ball,

My applause to you for sparkling writing and "ball-sy" criticism of a psychedelic hero. Your analysis is a fantastic presentation of how Terence's words are inappropriately idolized and taken too seriously by psychedelic culture - and by yourself.

Terence did not claim--or want--to be an entheogenic-spiritual guru. He was just a poetic dude who waxed on about his own trips for anyone to listen and take with a grain of salt. It seems to me that your anger (yes, anger; it really shows through, man) is less with Terence himself and more with the status of his words in psychedelic culture and entheogenic studies. Yes, people take his words too seriously and his writing plays a far more authoritative role than it should; Terence did not intend for this. And like many said before me, you are making the same mistake others make that is making you so angry: you are taking Terence too seriously. 

So here is a list of your attacks and why they are ridiculous:

  • Terence's nasal voice coming from the head? Of course! He was an intellectual. He did not aspire to be a fully balanced spiritual being. Why are you expecting him to be different?
  • Terence's obvious ego? Yes, of course! So what? He was not pretending to be a spiritually enlightened DMT (or 5-MEO-DMT) egoless trancendent angel. He's just an intellectual poet who liked to explore his mind with chemicals - and people like to listen to his rantings.
  • Terence's DMT experiences are limited by his lack of ego transcendence? Big deal! He explained his own trips for others to listen - it's their (your) fault if you take them as scripture from high heaven.

Like many have pointed out: YOUR ARTICLE REEKS OF YOUR OWN EGO. Just listen to yourself:

Martin Ball is the expert on 5-MEO-DMT, not Terence or anyone else in the world:

"Given my own personal experience, I seriously doubt that there are many people on this planet who come anywhere near my experience level with 5-MeO-DMT . . . I would be genuinely surprised if Terence had as much experience with 5-MeO as I do."

Martin Ball is also the expert on regular old "wussy" DMT,  just as much if not more than Terence or anyone else in the world:

". . . and I probably have more experience with the far weaker DMT than most as well."

Martin Ball has fully trancended his ego and is now offering his services to help others see the influence of thier own egos, beause Martin Ball is so incredibly awesome at seeing the effects of ego and separating them from "true" reality:

"Indeed, I routinely counsel people about their entheogenic experiences and help them sort out the illusions of ego from the reality of genuine being."

Additionally, Martin Ball is so good at helping people remove ego from their thoughts and words and actions that he is offering his holy "services" to the deceased so that Terence may realize (from the grave) that he was full of ego when he took, and talked about, DMT:

"The treatment that I will be giving Terence here is identical to what I would give to anyone who came to me with similar accounts of DMT experiences.  As you read through the following, keep in mind that this is precisely the kind of assistance that I give to individuals on a daily basis.  "

 And finally, we are invited to employ the "Entheological Paradigm," developed by Martin Ball, to see the obvious egoism of Terence McKenna. Let's read the description of this breakthrough paradigm, which will assure us that there is no trace of ego within this pure framework:

"Grand Unified Theory of Reality that accounts for the most sophisticated scientific discoveries, the most sublime mystical states of consciousness, and the true nature of all that lies in between.  In short, it is a theory of everything!  But it is much more than a theory: it is also a clear guide to personal liberation and self-transcendence.  The Entheological Paradigm is a map of all of reality and your personal path to freedom, true responsibility, and ultimate human happiness.

This is the system of knowledge and self-transformation that humanity has been waiting for but has never been able to clearly articulate or understand . . . until now"

Hmm . . . 

Well,

when you put it like that...

LOL.

I'm starting to feel sorry for MWB now, bless him, but someone said he was used to it, so I guess he can handle it. We all gotta get a shock from the mirror someday I suppose... isn't it invigorating?! ;-)

Terence's nasal voice coming

Terence's nasal voice coming from the head? Of course! He was an intellectual.

 
 LOL!!  You said a lot of things I wanted to.  Excellent comments. Thank you.