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The Serpent's Promise: The Oldest Exchange of All

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"Sorcerers say death is the only worthy opponent we have. . . . Death is our challenger. . . . Life is the process by means of which death challenges us. . . . Death is the active force. Life is the arena. And in that arena there are only two contenders at any time: oneself and death. . . . We are passive. . . . If we move, it's only when we feel the pressure of death." --Carlos Castaneda, The Power of Silence

Anyone who has smoked DMT knows why Terence McKenna called it "white knuckle stuff." One puff on a pipe and the experiencer is thrown -- in the time it takes to inhale and exhale a lungful of smoke -- into another world in which no familiar features remain. It is a world stranger and more outlandish than anything our wildest dreams or nightmares could ever conjure. It is also a world that is inhabited and -- most disconcerting of all still -- the inhabitants are focusing their attention on us. The abyss gazes also. Smoking DMT is like being turned inside out: not only is the true nature of reality exposed to us, but, in that same instant, we are also exposed to it. There is literally no place to hide on a DMT trip, because the Universe is fiercely and unfathomably alive, and it is right under our skins. Anyone who has smoked DMT once, and who knows therefore what to expect, will have to push his courage to the sticking place the next time he volunteers to say "bye-bye to Kansas." The main consolation for the white-knuckled DMT-smoker is the knowledge that even the most intense trip only lasts from 5 to 15 minutes.  What sort of courage would it require to smoke DMT knowing it was a one-way trip, that our consciousness was about to be cannonballed into the Imaginal realms for the rest of eternity? Would anyone be able to hold their pipe steady knowing that?

What follows in this article is not based on hard science or accepted facts about brain or body chemistry and entheogens. It is a mixture of personal experience, deductive reasoning, and something I can only describe as "received knowledge," so the reader is advised to add a "maybe" or "it seems to me" to the end of every sentence, in order to counteract the otherwise authoritative tone of the piece, necessary for clarity and succinctness. Having offered up that disclaimer, here's the premise of my argument: If Castaneda's don Juan is correct, and death is the active force in life, then psychedelic substances are a form of concentrated death. Even ordinary observation indicates that death regenerates life and keeps things moving forward; without it there is no evolution, no advance. Poetically speaking, Death provides the urgency of Time within the tapestry of Eternity. That is why Chronos, the Lord of Time, is depicted as the Grim Reaper. Time is the catalyst of Motion added to the "substance" of Space. This concept is clearly illustrated in Atu 13 of Aleister Crowley's and Frieda Harris' Thoth tarot deck.

As "condensed death particles," then, entheogens attack the nervous system, targeting specifically the neurons, not only of the brain but of the entire body, within which more and more neurological systems are being discovered (such as in the heart and intestines). This "attack" of the psychotropic molecules upon our neurons is not without intent, however, and so far as I can intuit, their intent is to hijack the cells of our bodies and use them and vehicles to cross over from "death" into "life." By "death" I refer to the inorganic realms, where the organic realms pertain to what we know of as "life."

Shamanically speaking, to smoke DMT or ingest any other hallucinogen is to offer up our cells as a sacrifice to the spirits. By such sacrifice, we are allowing our consciousness to be possessed by mysterious and invisible agents of transformation. When we ingest a psychoactive substance, a number of our neurons are "destroyed," which is to say, broken down to their basic constituents. In the moment of destruction, they become "food" for inorganic intelligences to gain temporary substance in our organic realm of existence, via our consciousness. There is a moment of overlap between the worlds of life and death, the temporal and the eternal. As part of us "dies," it is absorbed by the spirit-intelligences residing in the plant or chemical, intelligences which (we can only imagine) are seeking an experience of organic existence otherwise unavailable to them. (Since plants are organic life forms, it might be more accurate to say they are seeking a different, more sentient kind of organic experience.) In those brief moments or hours, while our neurons are being consumed by the entheogen, they are still connected to our conscious selves, to the nervous system and neural network. As a result, we get to consciously experience existence "on the other side," through the eyes of the spirits; at the same time, the spirits are able to experience life through our eyes. This form of ritual sacrifice is an ancient exchange, possibly the oldest one of all.

In Ketamine: Dreams and Realities, Karl Jansen writes, "LSD and DMT bind to serotonin receptors and this is thought to push the start button for a cascade of events resulting in a psychedelic trip."[1] To the extent that psychedelics bind to and thereby alter the receptor sites, the question arises: what does this alteration of the nervous system allow us to receive? The kind of energy that is received via the altered receptor sites, as well as the amount, would perhaps be determined not merely by what is being ingested (the chemicals in the plant), but also by the circumstances under which it taken and -- perhaps most critically of all -- the psychological make-up of the person ingesting. Native Americans doing peyote or Peruvians shamans (and their clientele) taking ayahuasca would then be an entirely different affair to Westerners aspiring to become master Magi or seeking congress with the divine, while having little clue what they are doing and little or no relationship to the plant/chemical (and residing spirit) being ingested.

Spirits are inorganic intelligences (which may include what we call souls of the dead). Being inorganic and/or dead, they lack access to sentient physical form. This is an area I'm less than a hundred percent clear on, since inorganic spirits apparently can live in organic matter, just as elemental or faery beings are said to live in rocks and plants and the like. It may be that these spirits seek specifically to experience human existence, and that getting incarnate humans to ingest entheogens is one way for them to achieve this. Whatever the case, they appear to desire not just congress with but ingress into (and through) our consciousness, which they attain by accessing not only our neurons (as they are "hijacked" by the psychoactive chemicals) but the entire network which those neurons are linked up to. I estimate there are three layers of neural circuit-boards to a human being. The most superficial is that of the brain, which is then linked up to the larger network of the nervous system, including all the organs which store individual memories (the brain's function being to access and "decode" these memories), memories which make up the life and identity of the individual, or total body. Lastly, beneath that, encompassing every atom of the body, there is the subatomic network of the DNA, which contains our genetic code and hence the memories of the entire species.

Potentially, entheogens can "light up" the neural network of our brains and even our greater nervous systems. In extreme cases, such as shamanic initiation entails, they may even allow us access to a genetic level of consciousness, where ancestral memories and "past lives" are stored. This process is perhaps similar to splitting the atom to create a nuclear explosion: if our bodies (like the rest of physical reality) are holographic systems, each neuron, each molecule, would contain the information of the whole network. (A blood sample will tell you something about the whole body.) When psychoactive molecules "invade" the molecules of our bodies, they crack them open and release the information stored inside, giving us momentary awareness of the whole network: "nuclear" vision. There's an obvious side effect of this, however. Since accessing the information of the neural network requires hacking into the system, entheogens cause inevitable damage in the process. As a result, the long-term effects of entheogens are generally the opposite of their short-term effects. I believe that entheogens cause "ruptures" in the neural pathways of the brain and the total body (possibly even in the DNA), ruptures which then prevent a spontaneous activation of the system further on down the line. They give us a taste of enlightenment-which is to say our natural state of being-but the possibility of a lasting enlightenment later on is drastically reduced.  In this way, entheogens, like gurus, and perhaps like occult knowledge in general, engender spiritual addiction. As with all addictions, we need ever more powerful doses to get "high."

 

Gaia's Secret Revenge?

"[T]he real truth that dare not speak itself is that no one is in control, absolutely no one. This stuff is ruled by the equations of dynamics and chaos. There may be entities seeking control, but to seek control is to take enormous aggravation upon yourself. It's like trying to control a dream." --Terence McKenna, "Dreaming Awake at the End of Time"

There is a very clear parallel to be drawn here with the ecosystem, which of course is the source of most if not all psychoactive substances. If the trees and other plant life of the earth form a sort of neural network for the planet (a scenario deftly illustrated in Alan Moore's run of Swamp Thing comics), then decimating the rain forests and other forms of environmental damage would be affecting more than merely our oxygen supply. It would also be rapidly reducing the capacity of the Earth's biosphere to function as intended, as an information system by which the planet (like the human body) can become fully self-aware: in a word, planetary consciousness. Ironically enough, it may be partly because of this system shut-down that there is such a collective pull towards a "psychedelic solution." The irony, if this is an accurate description, is that the destruction of the ecosphere is not only a symptom but also a cause of our increased disconnect from Nature and from our bodies.  As we seek to experience our primal/cosmic natures via the entheogens which the Earth (and modern science) provides, the imagined solution may only be compounding the problem. It would be Gaia's secret revenge, because if the (ab)use of entheogens were decimating our own individual "biospheres" and preventing us from having full access to our faculties, this would exactly mirror the ways in which our disconnection from the environment has affected the Earth's biosphere.

Although this is a potentially controversial point of view within the entheogen and alternate perceptions community, there is ample evidence to support it. On the one hand, we have a blockbuster such as Avatar, which advocates environmental activism and mind expansion through psychedelics, while at the same time feeding the military-industrial-entertainment complex that is slowly destroying the planet and keeping the collective mind numbed out on sub-literate crap like Avatar. So far the only explanation of this contradiction is that the movie is proof of a planetary awakening! The countless contradictions within the film -- to say nothing of its crappiness -- belie such an "explanation," however. If a movie made by the military-entertainment complex known as Hollywood appears to vilify right-wing military forces as anti-environmental while glorifying psychedelics and "back to roots" tribal values, you can be sure the film's backers have their reasons for doing so. On the other hand, we need look no further than two of the leading forces in the psychedelic revolution -- Carlos Castaneda and Terrence McKenna -- to glimpse the dark side of the entheogen experience. McKenna died of a brain tumor at age fifty-three, and Castaneda died of liver cancer, aged seventy-two. The brain and the liver are the two organs most obviously and indisputably affected by psychoactive substances. These visionary spokesmen's deaths underscore their messages[2] and have served to counteract, at least to a degree, their influence regarding the presumed positive value of entheogens. Castaneda quotes don Juan Matus in one of the later books, admitting that power plants "do untold damage to the body," explaining that they were only necessary because of Castaneda's extreme "stupidity." A third body of evidence (probably the most persuasive) for the dubious benefits of entheogen-use would be the countless proponents and spokespersons who claim to have been transformed by power plants, whose rhetoric and behavior betrays a distinct lack of balance, coherence, or sobriety. (It would seem cruel to mention any names at this point.)[3]

It will no doubt be argued that, if used properly (shamanically), entheogens such as ayahuasca, ibogaine, and psilocybin can be used for healing, so how can they be said to harm the body? The answer is in just what "proper" or shamanic use entails, as well as what we understand by "healing." The electromagnetic field or "aura" around the human body, which corresponds roughly with the neural networks I have been describing, is where all physical illnesses originate, so it is here that any shamanic healing via entheogens presumably occurs -- if indeed it does occur. Such "soul-healing," when effective, would more than make up for any damage being done to the body by entheogens, because by sealing up fractures or clearing out blockages in the energy body (the total psyche), the body would be able to regenerate itself over time. Generally speaking, this does require a shaman -- an experienced energetic healer -- administering the entheogens, and often taking them in the patient's stead. Performing energetic surgery upon our own psyches would obviously be a highly risky endeavor, not to say an insane one. At best, the chances are that we will use the entheogen-induced experience of heightened awareness to avoid areas of blockage -- or to plough through them without necessary preparation -- rather than heal and integrate them. This may not result in physical sickness (at least not right away), but it will very likely lead to ego inflation, on the one hand, and dissociation and fragmentation (mild schizophrenia) on the other. Perhaps most commonly, it leads to a combination of both.

The idea that psychedelics are a concentrated "death substance" -- a form of holistic poison -- does not contradict the idea that they can be used for healing, because this fact is common to all homeopathic remedies. Dosage is key: even a little bit too much and medicine becomes poison. With entheogens, this relates not so much to the amount ingested but to the frequency of use, and, equally or perhaps more important, to the circumstances under which they are being used. To give my own example: in a little under twenty years of experimentation (not counting the past seven years during which I have avoided entheogens altogether, unless you count the occasional joint), I have probably had around a hundred powerful hallucinogenic experiences (quite a few of which were marijuana-induced). I would estimate, conservatively speaking, that less than two dozen of these were "necessary" (appropriate), and that perhaps still less were truly shamanic and therefore healing or transformative to my being. That would render somewhere between 75% and 90% of my entheogen use gratuitous and therefore deleterious to both my mental and physical health. Overall, I like to think that it evens out, that the 10-25% of shamanic experiences were sufficiently transforming to compensate for the damage I did to my nervous system by over-indulging. Nonetheless, if this is true, I still have to acknowledge the possibility that I'd be more or less exactly where I am today if I had avoided entheogens altogether. It is also possible that I would be considerably better off.

The inescapable realization for me has been that I was using psychedelics, not simply to expand my consciousness, but to escape the confines of a contracted consciousness. What's the difference, you may ask? Perhaps nothing save that the latter is an honest description where the former is not. In other words, if I had been content within the parameters of my limited consciousness, I would not have been so eager to experiment with heightened states of awareness. So-called "consciousness expansion" becomes merely recreational once we have attained a certain level of consciousness, a level at which we have more than enough to integrate without stirring up still more elements of our unconscious. And integration entails coming back down to earth to see what's going on in our mundane awareness, something that doesn't happen if we keep shooting for ever-higher states of consciousness and ever more mind-expanding experiences, via entheogens. How much does expanding our consciousness enhance our day-to-day capacity to function in the world and relate to other people at an ordinary level? And how much are we simply increasing our ability to talk for hours about abstract subjects and fly off into imaginary/imaginal realms, bringing back shiny trinkets (songs, poems, paintings, books) to show off how "evolved" our consciousness is to the world? Be honest now.

 

Enlightenment: What Is It?

"Proteins are intelligent beings. They have evolved to operate in the metabolic maelstrom of a turbulent cellular environment." --Christopher Miller, Nature magazine

During one of my more memorable encounters with salvia divinorum, I experienced myself as consciousness interacting with the molecules of my eyelids. These molecules were all individual beings which together made up a collective (my eyelids) characterized by a combination of fierce awareness, a mischievous sense of humor, and a powerful  and unmistakable expression of love and affection for me, or whatever remained of my self-consciousness at that time, as I was swallowed up in this electric congress of molecules. I mention this as a counter perspective to one described above, in which, as the entheogens consume our neurons, the spirits (residing in the plant and/or the smoke of the plant) ride into our consciousness on a wave of "destruction." An alternative way of seeing his-not necessarily at odds with the first-is that the spirits (being non-local, quantum beings) also reside in the cells of our bodies. (In the above experience, my eyelids became my focus because I was trying to remember not to open my eyes once I had smoked.) When the entheogen hits our nervous system, these "spirits" are released (like nuclear energy from the atom) from that force which holds our bodies (and everything else) into a fixed form -- the bondage of matter. Perhaps, as my molecules "died" under the influence of the salvia, their molecule-souls were flying free, dancing joyfully over to the other side, taking my consciousness (temporarily) along with them?

Atoms (and molecules, cells, neurons, and proteins) are entities. They carry an information load, which is essentially no different from the way that we, as larger atoms, carry the memories of our lives, making up our own "spin" or information load. And since our sense of identity comes primarily, even exclusively, from our personal set of memories, then an atom which carries its information load can be said, likewise, to have identity. This presents a whole new area of exploration beyond the scope of the present article, namely: to what degree does using psychedelics allow our consciousness to be possessed by foreign entities that are not "sympathetic" (in both the magical and the common sense of the word) with our bodies and psyches? The assumption is that, since entheogens come from the Earth, they must be benevolent (i.e. compatible with our own evolution). This is a rash assumption, since there are plenty of species indigenous to the Earth that aren't "on our side." Plant spirits foster dependence, and how they interact with us may depend on how consciously and conscientiously we relate to them, just as it does with everything else in life. In a predatory environment, everything is food for something else, so why assume this applies any less to the realm of consciousness -- or to our interaction with those "spirits" that reside in the entheogens which we consume, eager to be possessed by God? It may even be that any kind of consciousness that is sourced in molecules besides those of our own bodies is foreign to us, and therefore potentially harmful; in short, that true individuation or awakening depends on accessing divine consciousness not outside of ourselves (in plants or gurus) but within.[4]

I would like to turn now to the question of life after death. Stripped of all religious adornment, this is simply the idea of the continuation of identity-individual consciousness -- after the death of the body. If we take the concept out of the realm of myth and religious belief, and into the realm of (not-quite) science, how great a leap is it to suggest that our existence on the other side of death might conceivably depend upon our actions and accomplishments while we are alive? This would not be a moral question -- since morality is merely a human invention -- but a purely pragmatic one. It could depend, for example, upon an individual having a fully activated (linked-up) neural system at the moment of death, a system which could then serve as a vehicle for inorganic consciousness once the flesh and blood vessel was no longer functional.

Perhaps the life of the body is a means for undifferentiated consciousness (pure energy, before form) to experience itself as a separate entity, by entering into (or weaving into being) a "package" to contain it? Consciousness then would have the possibility of fully integrating itself into its package, so that, like clay inside a mold, when the form were destroyed the energy that in-formed it -- having allowed itself also to be formed by it -- could retain the unique shape-the individuality -- which physical experience granted it. This idea is dramatically depicted, once again by Alan Moore, in the comic book Watchmen, when Jon Osterman is vaporized inside a nuclear vault and his consciousness miraculously manages to weave for itself a new physical form made of pure energy, using the memories of his former identity as a matrix. Alan Moore also came up with a whole new origin story for Swamp Thing which was basically the same model: Alex Holland undergoes an existential crisis when he realizes that he is not who-or what-he thought he was, but rather a plant intelligence that has inherited Holland's memories.


"For one kiss wilt thou then be willing to give all; but whoso gives one particle of dust shall lose all in that hour." --The Book of the Law (Aleister Crowley)

 

In several of his later books, Castaneda describes something he calls the Sorcerers' Recapitulation. This is perhaps an overly literal interpretation of the integration process of undifferentiated consciousness with its experience of physical incarnation and individuality. As Castaneda describes it, a sorcerer's task is to recapitulate his or her entire life -- including every thought and every dream ever dreamed -- creating a surrogate awareness which can then be offered up the "the Eagle" (the ruling force in the Universe). In return for this offering, the sorcerer is allowed to keep his or her individual awareness (the Eagle's gift). This is not a metaphor which I take too literally, any more than I intend to painstakingly recapitulate every thought I ever had in order to attain immortality. (Apparently it didn't work too well for Castaneda, who allegedly went insane before he died.) I am citing it now merely for the parallels which it presents with our present model. Also relevant are the many documented "near-death experiences" (NDEs, see Michael Talbot's The Holographic Universe) in which individuals undergo a full "life review" and re-experience every moment of their existence up to the moment of (near) death. In Castaneda's model, at the moment of death -- or rather as an alternative to dying -- a fully recapitulated sorcerer "burns from the fire within," and every cell in his body becomes conscious of itself and of the totality of the body. As fully activated cellular awareness, the sorcerer "glides into infinity," dissolving into the boundless while simultaneously retaining some mysterious residue of his or her individuality.

Such an epic description is probably better read as a modern myth than a factual account; yet even so, it may relate to a very real practical occurrence, namely the lighting up of the neural networks (all three levels) within our bodies while we are alive. This, so far as I can ascertain, is what's known in spiritual circles as "enlightenment," while at the same time being simply our natural state as human beings. In existential terms, it would entail integrating our individual consciousness, the ego or personal self, with our unconscious (the sum total of our life's experiences, the memories of the body) so that we can come fully into "the Now," bringing all of those past moments out of the past and into the present. Enlightenment entails living in an eternal present in which divine or transpersonal consciousness is also present, both through us and as us. When a person dies in such a fully "activated" state -- with all the individual cells linked up to form a circuit -- the entire network might then become a vehicle for "Spirit" to possess, a "Merkaba" for divine consciousness to "glide into" eternity-merging with the infinite while remaining self-aware within it. Alternatively, and perhaps more accurately, if this activation occurs in life, then the death of the body would no longer herald any significant change for the indwelling consciousness, since it would be already linked up to, and in continuous communion with, the realms beyond death.[5]

This is why "every moment is precious": because every moment of our lives is a link in the circuit-board of individuated consciousness. Without each of those links functioning (which depends upon all the moments of our lives being integrated into consciousness), the system cannot function as a system but only as a collection of unconnected parts. At death, the individual's totality either fails to light up or short-circuits and explodes in the first moment of "enlightenment." We might imagine the moments of our lives then as "temporal molecules" which together make up our fourth-dimensional "souls," the "building" of which is necessary if we are to fuse with, and flow into, the spacetime continuum of eternity. In occult terminology, this is "the crossing of the Abyss."[6]

The reader may have noticed  how the sorcerers' recapitulation, as the means to get past the Eagle to freedom, is very similar to the religious notion of giving full account of our lives to St. Peter before slipping through the pearly gates. The difference is that, in the non-religious model, the Universe does not demand penance, it merely demands account. To give a full account of our lives requires total awareness of them while we are still living (in religious terminology, repentance and atonement). Otherwise, if we enter into the totality of ourselves without the necessary preparation, the overwhelming pressure of all those disowned, unintegrated, unaccounted for moments will cause us to short-circuit, as awareness, and plummet back into "the matrix" for another go-round inside Blake's dark, satanic mill. In Socrates' famous phrase, "an unexamined life is not worth living," because it leads nowhere. Taken too literally, such a harsh judgment contains the seeds of elitism, however (as does Castaneda's work, for that matter, and any other spiritual, religious or occult doctrine we can mention). Taken too literally, the idea that an unexamined life is without value is also fundamentally incorrect. At the end of the day, there are no individual lives, and everything belongs to God. But Socrates was addressing the possibility that, without the essential element of awareness of each of our acts, there is no possibility of cohesion or unity to the countless moments which make up our lives. At the moment of death, those moments are then dissipated into infinity and return to undifferentiated energy, to be recycled as raw matter in the ongoing movement of Spirit towards individuation. This is probably the source of the popular idea of reincarnation, even though the idea of reincarnation conveniently ignores the fact that, once energy has returned to the undifferentiated state, it would not, by definition, retain any identity. In which case, the only thing that "reincarnates" is God/the Universe. The moments of an unexamined life remain part of the fabric of eternity, which is God's body, and nothing is lost, much less "damned." But the story which they were once a part of dissolves and is gone, as if never having existed-because as a narrative, it went nowhere in particular (or nowhere new).

The above, somewhat speculative, digression into medium-level metaphysics has been part of my attempt to understand the true purpose -- and the very real dangers -- of entheogens. It's my opinion that the bottom line of psychedelics is that, in the process of expanding consciousness, they impair memory and do "untold damage to the body" (especially the liver, which is what we are until we die: livers). I believe that when they "hack into" and "hijack" the atoms, molecules, cells and neurons, they do so for their own ends. Plants are not only sentient, but also volitional, so to assume they have no other purpose besides serving us is probably human arrogance at work once again. It's true that, whatever the plants' agenda may be, by ingesting them we gain temporary access to the greater spectrum of molecular awareness which is our natural birthright. However, as every psychonaut knows, this enhanced vision is only temporary, while the changes caused to our neural networks, nervous system, and even our DNA, are likely to be longer-lasting, possibly even permanent. If McKenna died of a brain tumor, maybe he was mutating too fast? Perhaps he was growing a new organ, as in the movie Videodrome, an organ meant for seeing the true nature of reality but which wound up killing him instead of turning him into the übermensch.[7]

In Elizabeth Haich's Initiation, in which she recounts her alleged memories of ancient Egypt, Haich describes how the initiate was prepared physically, over a period of time, with certain medicinal herbs meant to strengthen the nervous system for the higher consciousness which the initiation procedure would bring about. In Eastern terms, this equates with the waking of the Kundalini, which is commonly recognized to be harmful, even fatal, if premature. Psychedelics induce higher conscious artificially, with no preparation of the nervous system. If, as I have stated, enlightenment is merely our natural state as humans, then psychedelics take us in the opposite direction, blasting us into an unnatural state that at the same time closely simulates the natural one, and hence offers the feeling of attaining "greater reality." They also lead to the corresponding comedown and, generally speaking, the desire to recreate that state. Speaking personally again, I am still paying "back-taxes" on my illicit journeys, not only in shaky health but in my everyday struggle to be content within ordinary, mundane awareness. What causes the harm, in short, is not the plant chemical being ingested, but the energy-consciousness which it allows access to our nervous system, and/or that which is released from it, namely, the Kundalini force. Probably, it is a mixture of both.

Every sperm is sacred, and every cell is vital of the functioning of the whole. Those hijacked neurons, mutated receptors, or ruptured cells -- if they didn't mutate but were simply burned up on the sacrificial altar of "expanded consciousness" -- have to be regenerated. Without them, our electromagnetic fields may wind up like a set of Christmas tree lights with missing bulbs: one fail, all fail. Every cell of our bodies stores information about our past, and every single moment of our lives is going to be called to the table on that day of reckoning. In simple terms, the gains of entheogens are heavily taxed. Most experimenters, unaware of this fact, continue enjoying the gains with little or no clue as to just the back-taxes they are accruing. But eventually, the fiddler must be paid, and there is only one thing surer than taxes.

 

 


[1] "Receptors are biological transducers that convert energy from both external and internal environments into electrical impulses. They may be massed together to form a sense organ, such as the eye or ear, or they may be scattered, as are those of the skin and viscera. Receptors are connected to the central nervous system by afferent nerve fibers. The region or area in the periphery from which a neuron within the central nervous system receives input is called its receptive field. Receptive fields are changing and not fixed entities." http://www.britannica.com/EBchecked/topic/409709/human-nervous-system/75...

[2] Admittedly, Castaneda tried hard to disassociate himself from the psychedelic culture very early in his career.

[3] "Leary critics eventually point to his close connections during this time to international LSD-smuggling cartel, the Brotherhood of Eternal Love, rumored to be a CIA front. The Brotherhood is controlled by Ronald Stark, who the Italian High Court later concludes has been CIA since 1960, and Brotherhood's funds are channeled through Castle Bank in the Bahamas, a known CIA ‘proprietary.' For two years Leary lives at Brotherhood headquarters in Laguna Beach, during which time Brotherhood corners the US market on LSD and distributes only one variety of the drug, "Orange Sunshine." Stark reportedly knows a high- placed Tibetan close to the Dalai Lama and wants to provide enough LSD to dose all Chinese troops in Tibet. In the US, meanwhile, Stark provides enough Orange Sunshine to dose the hippie culture many times over. This is the ‘bad acid' that Charles Manson's followers took before murdering Sharon Tate and that the Hell's Angels took before stabbing to death a black man during a Rolling Stones concert at Altamont. Because of this, William S. Burroughs, White Panther leader John Sinclair, and Ken Kesey eventually entertain the theory that Stark, Leary, and Orange Sunshine are all part of a CIA plot to discredit the radical left." http://www.sunshine69.com/Sunshine__autumn.html

[4] As don Juan once told Castaneda: "All the faculties, possibilities, and accomplishments of sorcery, from the simplest to the most astounding, are in the human body itself" (The Eagle's Gift).

[5] In a side note, Castaneda describes using power plants one last time as a boost by which to enter all the way into "the nagual," which one of his groups equates with "the kingdom of Heaven." Terence McKenna waxed lyrical on entering the Now: "The alternative physics is a physics of light. Light is composed of photons, which have no antiparticle. This means that there is no dualism in the world of light. The conventions of relativity say that time slows down as one approaches the speed of light, but if one tries to imagine the point of view of a thing made of light, one must realize that what is never mentioned is that if one moves at the speed of light there is no time whatsoever. There is an experience of time zero. . . . The only experience of time that one can have is of a subjective time that is created by one's own mental processes, but in relationship to the Newtonian universe there is no time whatsoever. One exists in eternity, one has become eternal, the universe is aging at a staggering rate all around one in this situation, but that is perceived as a fact of this universe-the way we perceive Newtonian physics as a fact of this universe. One has transited into the eternal mode. One is then apart from the moving image; one exists in the completion of eternity." "New Maps of Hyperspace," Magical Blend magazine.

[6] Crowley on crossing the abyss: "Then will all phenomena which present themselves to him appear meaningless and disconnected, and his own Ego will break up into a series of impressions having no relation one with the other, or with any other thing." Liber OS Abysmi vel Daath

[7] "I believe that the growth in my head, this head, this one right here. I think that it is not really a tumor. . .  not an uncontrolled, undirected little bubbling pot of flesh. . . but that it is in fact a new organ . . . a new part of the brain." Brian O'Blivion, Videodrome, written by David Cronenberg

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Aeolus Kephas's comments seem to be a reflection of where he has gone with his use/abuse of entheogens.  There have been absoulutely no studies that show that the use of traditional entheogens do any neurological damage.  This is in contrast to the synthetic entheogens such as MDMA which do damage the neurons.  As Terrence McKenna outlined, the safe way to judge an entheogen is to ask the following questions:  1.  Does it occur naturally?  2.  Does it have a history of shamanic use?  3.  Does it have a similar moecular structure to an endogenous neurotransmitter?

 The author picks out 2 psychonauts who died 'early' but does not mention the vast majority that have not by using entheogens.  People like Timothy Leary, John Lilly, Richard Alpert ( Baba Ram Das ) and other frequent users lived to a ripe old age.  Cancer is the number 2 most common reason for death in the developed world, and is more an indication of the constant exposure to carcinogens and mutagens that we are exposed to from in utero to death, than a side effect of entheogens.

Currently I am doing a study as to why some psychonauts do die early and some don't.  So far I have read the lives of Jim Morrison, John Lennon, Jerry Garcia and John Lilly.  The first 3 died early and most likely due to their abuse of psychedelic drugs.  Lilly almost died several times while abusing ketamine, but was saved by friends or his wife.   All abused entheogens, and I am comming to the conclusion that abuse rather than use is the cause of an early death.  'Use' would be a experience in a shamanic setting for the healing of psychic or physical illness.  Abuse would be dropping acid to go to a party or a concert.  None of the above individuals were grounded in a shamanic or religious tradition and this is the secret to entheogen use. 

Be wise in your use of the entheogens and as the Ancient Greeks said ' Do nothing in excess.'

hmmm

"... synthetic entheogens such as MDMA which do damage the neurons."

 

I recall claims specific to MDMA along such lines a decade or so ago.  Unless I'm mistaken, that research hasn't held up.  Some of it was bungled, and been formally retracted.

 

Persistence of findings like that, since taken to task, makes me curious: how/why and huh?  Can anyone provide research citation, literature source?  Inquiring mind curious to know if that holds up, can be substantiated or not. 

 

 

MDMA Summary

Brian,

I am basing my comments regarding MDMA toxicity from two summaries, one by  by Baggott and Mendelson and the other by Earth Erowid at the Erowid site:  erowid.org 

Look under Plants and Drugs then MDMA then scroll down to Neurotoxicity and Health.  The summaries review and interpret the research up to 2001.  It is too bad these have not been updated in over 10 years.  The research is far from 'pristine' but the trend is that MDMA is not safe in high doses or in multiple uses.

Thanks RJ

I'm obliged for your informative, forthright reply. Especially the "up to 2001" detail, that's straight up.  And important because there's been pretty intensive major research since, and some turn-arounds for what had been reported as of a decade ago.  

 

Especially for neurotoxicity of MDMA; which was subject of a research fiasco.  I don't know what else to call it, a lot of confusion has come from it.  Like humpty dumpty, some damage is easily done, but hard to undo.  

 

From what I gather, if correct -- uh, sounds like EROWID MIGHT UPDATE THEIR INFO! Earth to Erowid, I mean ... I guess that doesn't work ( ...maybe Mission Control, Houston to Erowid?) 

 

MAPS has an interesting page on this, in case its of interest for anyone:

http://maps.org/mdma/studyresponse.html  

 

Another real interesting page I find about MDMA neurotoxicity questions, and the research intrigue:

http://thedea.org/neurotoxicity.html 

 

I heartily endorse your perspective about risks related to high dose ("overdose"?).  Heat shock or hyperthermia can occur, life-threatening -- there've been tragedies.  Not only high dosage, but setting have been implicated, from what I've read.

 

To me, anybody's decision to take MDMA (or whatever else) seems a personal choice -- 'nobody's business but they own.'  If it were a friend, I might stick nose in depending, out of concern.  

 

Seems to me an ounce of awareness about MDMA risks might do a pound of good.  If anyone asked, I'd suggest please beware of dosage hazard; especially depending on room temperature (of the setting), and physical activity.  Seems like these things can work together as risk factors for the hyperthermic syndrome that has caused some fatalities. 

 

Drug-drug interactions can be a problem and cause for warnings too, for MDMA use.  Research supports that if I have it right.

 

Multiple or repeated use -- seems questions linger, its another source of controversy.  There've been reports it could cause cognitive impairment, premature Parkinson's etc.  A Harvard Med School study just published this year, on that issue, cast doubt on such ideas.  Not that there haven't been voices piping up, questioning that study. 

 

A lot more research, better and more rigorous, hopefully -- will continue to shed light, to help understand risk factors. Good hearing back from you, peaceful wishes, and thanks again.

Disclaimer Part 2

"I am comming to the conclusion that abuse rather than use is the cause of an early death."

That's what I wrote above also. However, there are two qualifiers. One, correct use can only be determined if we understand the nature of the plants - not just scientifically but experientially. That's a bit of a Catch 22 right there, but based on people I know or have encountered who have done repeat experiments with hallucinogens (and frequent sites like this, including Daniel P), hardly ayone really does, or will even admit that they don't. In the end I can only speak with certainy for myself: I didn't understand them, and if i had known what I know now, I would have practised more restraint.

The other point is that I believe, even when used correctly, the plants affect our nervous systems in the same way; the difference is that it is possible to repair the "damage" during the course of the "trip," or perhaps that, since there is a conscious interaction happening with the "spirit allies," they are that much gentler and assist us with regeneration during or after the expeirence?

It's no surprise to hear emotional, kneejerk reactions from brain-fried dingbats such as below, however; in fact, I'd be disappointed if I didn't, since they inadvertently provide the strongest evidence for my argument.

Altho I know people, including one bona fide shaman, who seem to have benefited from entheogen use, even apparently "excessive," they are far out-numbered by the legions of wanna-be shamans and "psychonauts" out there who are top-heavy with cosmic "knowledge" grounded in little or nothing that is real, and who are like unearthed plants just waiting to topple over. I also know people, including a possiby enlightened teacher, who have never taken hallucinogens, and they are by no means lacking a cosmic perspective, imagination, or depth of understanding because of it.

In the end, however, my article is meant to provide an alternative perspective to the party line in the community, and to the extent that people are eager to refute it rather than admit that they don't know and allow the possibility they may be wrong, they prove themselves to be entheo-fanatics, and not open-minded explorers.

Apparently my disclaimer was insufficient to prevent their buttons being pushed, and as a general rule, that only happens when something is getting too close to the bone.

Heartfelt thanks....

I want to extend a very heartfelt thanks for this piece. It is one of the best ever presented on this site and should serve as a welcome reminder to the entheogenic community to step back and try to take a clear headed look at what they are both engaging in and promoting.

Not that many here will listen to you, let alone seriously consider the truth of your experiences. As someone who has ingested entheogenic substances less than a dozen times, I thankfully came to quickly realize the potential for systemic damage inherent in these substances.

My realization probably stems from being a competitive athlete, and being much more aware of the subtle effects on my performance and abilities that any number of food and plant stuffs can potentially have.

Another frequently overlooked aspect of entheogenic use that you touch on is the reality of ego inflation and the onset of delusions of grandeur among regular users/abusers of psychedelics. 

Anyone who has spent time around any of the so called leaders or figureheads of the psychedelic movement, both past and present, can see this process in all it's unpleasant glory.

I have noticed, among regular users, a certain hollowing out of the spirit and even body. Their anchor to this world has been severed, or at least seriously compromised, by an addictive desire for an ever deeper immersion in the dream world of various psychedelic states.

At least in traditional cultures, entheogenic plants were often used to guide the group to better hunting grounds or pasturage, thus providing an obvious benefit for the whole community. No such need exists among the psychonauts of today.

You would think by the incessant promotion of the benefits of Ayahuasca on this site, that it would bring some sort of lasting and/or permanent benefit to regular users, and yet I live in the same neighborhood as one of creators of this site, and he can be seen moping around the EV nearly everyday, oblivious to the many friendly overtures directed to him. His demeanor to the staff of several of the coffeehouses he visits is usually gruff, occasionally even rude. And this has been noticed by many for several years.

He is apparently too lost in the residual reverie of his psychonautic adventures to extend some basic human warmth to his fellow creatures.

This observation can be made of many other mouthpieces for the movement. One begins to wonder if they are even aware of what, or who, it is they are really speaking for, and the effect these " beings " have had on their lives and so called communities.

Once again, thank you for this. You've held up a mirror to this community. Now let's see if any of them have the fortitude to look into the mirror and honestly see what is reflected back. 

does entheogen use destroy our capacity for irony?

You're welcome and thanks for the support, it looks like I am gonna need it!

 I published this in Spanish at pijamasurf.com, and the first couple of dozen posts were all positive; the naysayers only showed up after a few days went by, and they were much less hostile than here, and hence more consturctive. 

 So far the mudslingers here have demonstrated one thing clearly: how attached they are to their entheogens.

Ironic, innit?

 

Jerry Garcia did NOT die from abuse of psychedelic drugs!

All I can say, that if statements like "...Jerry Garcia ....died most likely due to their abuse of psychedelic drugs"...are representative of the rest of what is being said here...then this is hogwash.

Jerry died of a heart attack.  He spent a lifetime over weight, with untreated sleep apenea, junk food, and cigarettes.  It is my understanding that all of these were a prescription for his demise--NOT psychedelics. 

Jerry had been treated for heroin addiction.  Unfortunately, that seems to by far  have been his drug of choice in the most recent decades prior to his death.  What a pity.

Jerry Garcia did NOT die from abuse of psychedelic drugs!

All I can say, that if statements like "...Jerry Garcia ....died most likely due to their abuse of psychedelic drugs"...are representative of the rest of what is being said here...then this is hogwash.

Jerry died of a heart attack.  He spent a lifetime over weight, with untreated sleep apenea, junk food, and cigarettes.  It is my understanding that all of these were a prescription for his demise--NOT psychedelics. 

Jerry had been treated for heroin addiction.  Unfortunately, that seems to by far  have been his drug of choice in the most recent decades prior to his death.  What a pity.

We are talking about Tesla

We are talking about Tesla coils not about plastic trees with a few lights out. DMT is DMT its not ketamine, or crack-cocaine. Its not causing legions, its not causing ill activity. Its allot of energy and if people don't do anchor themselves in a physical practice they will just fuck around writing shit for RS claiming like they are the spiritual authority whilst their nascent powers lay dormant due to the prideful ignorance of the logic and rhetorical arrogance of the pen, bla bla bla which is falsely asserted in your scare manual above.

Tesla had visions since he was a child of powerful blinding lights that would occur accompanying seizures. He would stay awake for days at a time, feeling these currents of electrical activity pulse through his body and pierce into his thoughts. Luckily there no pharmacological establishment in place to eradicate his natural genetic predisposition to trans-energetic states of awareness.

In time Tesla came to control his visions and allowed himself to be a conduit for the energy and understanding which lay encoded in his cells. And of course he gave birth to the 20th century, so some say.

Tesla king of christmas tree lights! * Kefas wipes drool from my face...

Quixote awakes from a dream:

"I'm here to fuck your shit up, now pay the piper muthafucka! " *says in Sam Jackson voice.

DMT is going to make us all into incoherent burnouts! Just look at this Eddie guy... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8NJhYgXY-dY Guys smoke so much of that shit they probably can't even stand up...

Will there be virgins at your paradise; where do the serpents feathers go?

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I am srry but Mr. Kephas

I am srry but Mr. Kephas said it in the begining of his article - "What follows in this article is not based on hard science or accepted facts about brain or body chemistry and entheogens. It is a mixture of personal experience, deductive reasoning, and something I can only describe as "received knowledge," so the reader is advised to add a "maybe" or "it seems to me" to the end of every sentence, in order to counteract the otherwise authoritative tone of the piece, necessary for clarity and succinctness"  He says it himself, he is not an authority.  Your comment is pretty damn rude

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No Other Beings Required

I have never had an experience of "other" beings directly involved in my personal entheogenic moments. {mostly in the past} ... also being a "soul" / inorganic being at essence ... well as my conditioned pathways of neurons are letting go - transcending their limitations I soar {one soars}

I seem to be the only inorganic being requiring the trip to take place. No "other" has ever "fed off of me" ... but being now free myself from my own brain chemistry familiarity / conditioning I can now relate to other "freed up" spirits that are every where {spirit of rock, tree,} .. hence the "becoming one with" sensibility.

Nothing, more or less, than being freed from ones own neuron pathway habituations. In the Castaneda series Carlos is constantly chastised for being "self-indulgent," even in the middle of such entheogenic moments.

It is likely only this left over slothful energetic habits that attract any other psychic entities, hence the constant stress by Don Juan to "not waste even one drop of life energy," always and only using and having enough for the task at hand.

Whether walking or hunting all such activities in the book were focused on such type of concentration {the gaining of power} so that when one "trips" the trip becomes ones own.

Remember that one student of Don Juan/Genero called Elligio {spelling - haven't read the series in years} ... whose "trip was everything" ... the perfect student who "got it" and "never came back"  

With enough "personal power" and only living a life of sheer necessity, using death as an adviser, there is no longer any slothful left over energetic indulgences for other beings to be attracted to ... hence feed off.

Similarly in some of more mystic / tantric  Buddhist traditions one can see in many of the mandala /thanka paintings many many subtle type beings "ready and waiting" at so many dimensional variables to distract us at some levels, and/or teach us at others.

Yet the day to day practice of just "chopping wood-carry water" {similar to Carlos's many ordinary tasks Don Juan gave him to perform} ... that build character and free one from the more temporary distractions {indulgences} of the senses and mind {yogis also know of this principle} ... so that as one enters mystically advanced states he has the power to see the "whole mandala" as "ongoing maya" and doesn't get distracted with either the good or evil fruits / beings and their temptations {Biblical mysticism also}  

  Like both Jesus seeing both heaven and hell {Satan also} while "fasting" in the desert ... Buddha being tempted by Mara and other beings under the Bodhi tree .. until their personal power became sufficient to use "death alone" as an advisor ... to now be able to fully "entrain with "theos" itself ... {entheogen - "entrainment with the genius of theos" as a whole - tree of life mandala - as opposed to being tempted away by this aspect of duality or other - tree of knowledge}  

In the more mystical states of Yogis there is similarly the caution not to get distracted / caught up in the "Siddhi's" {mystic powers etc} lest one "become indulgent in power for it's own sake .... 

... like many of the sorcerers /brujos in the Casteneda series that were "after Carlos's power" .. or even the whole previous Toltec dynasty of mystics that fell victim to such similar folly according to Don Juan ... hence the need for "controlled folly" path of the heart" "storing personal power" etc etc so that "other beings/realms" however grandiose or horrifying will not distract us from the "totality of our being"

Ones own self as soul or inorganic being is calling one beyond not only the limitations of ones neuron pathway conditioning but also beyond the more subtle dimensional paths that in their own right can be of 'but higher conditioning

To truly master such potential 'tis not an easy thing {"path of warrior" etc}

One may get initial glimpses into so much possibility ... only to again find oneself struggling with ordinary consciousness or infatuations with other more subtle realms with their own unique "fruits of temptations"

... many are called .. few are chosen ... so is it really other beings calling us or does the Entheogenic "fruit of life tree" merely call our own selves back to Eden before such initial sense of duality/separateness had us "self-conditioning" via limited neuron pathways that but keep one entangled in their own brain chemistry. hence limiting the way in which the world is seen.

 

Mere ponderings of a potential mystic 

 

PS. A lot of the "so called harm" that some associate with the Entheogens themselves comes from either the smoking of them - having to burn them, hence disturb their holistic spirit / chemical composition ... like the moment pot combusts /ignites over 200 different chemical reactions take place that are "alien" to the original spirit

. ... same with chemical synthesis ... however close in suggestive chemical parallel ... will forever ever be just that far removed from,organic synergy with ones own organic totality

.. best to eat directly off the "tree of life" and only on occasions of actual inspiration {all healing aside} ... lest there will likely be karmic reaction, however so gross or subtle, as there will always be more to the "spirit of interaction itself" than our own "tree of knowledge" attempts of improving / disproving the totality of such potential could ever reveal ... {hence bypassing the "serpent" altogether} ... {set- setting / preparation of substance / preparation of self / method of intake etc ... such  wisdom has always been there ... apparently lost unto the modernistic mind.   

 

 

 

"Wonder is what Mystery would do if it was conscious" ...

"Wandering is for every other possibility"

Pippalayana Muni 

The Drunken Boat

Hi Aeolus,

As always, I am a big fan of your prose. Great to see your pieces appearing regularly on RS.

You wrote, “If Castaneda's don Juan is correct, and death is the active force in life, then psychedelic substances are a form of concentrated death. Even ordinary observation indicates that death regenerates life and keeps things moving forward; without it there is no evolution, no advance.”

To say that psychedelic experience is a form of death is not, of course, to say anything bad about either death or psychedelic experience. I would say that the equivalence that you describe is pretty much on the mark, although I don’t think that it is the chemical aspect of psychedelic experience that is really the key factor here. There are other, entirely natural, ways to arrive at this same state of energetic expansion—such as actual, physical-type death. If reports can be believed, even the most normal of people can experience something approaching enlightenment during NDEs.

Death and enlightenment seem intimately connected, and an experience of the one tends to generate as well as to feed off of an experience of the other. For many people who were previously unconcerned about metaphysical issues life-transforming changes can result.

At the same time, however, for those who have actively gone in search of such experiences, it is all too easy to overvalue them, and to assume that, henceforth, one will function as a super-being. No such luck! It is just not that easy to jump out of being human, or to overcome, by some heroic act of vision, one’s culture-bound bad habits and one’s personal quirks. I don’t know that the issue is one of psychedelic substances. I have noticed the same range of bad habits and personal quirks among the followers of great spiritual teachers; yea!—even among the teachers themselves.

--New posts every 2-3 days on my blog Masks of Origin

http://masksoforigin.blogspot.com/

deliver us from me-ville

Hi Brian

 

yep, fair point, even meditation, sex, yoga, any and all practices aimed at attaining higher awareness can negatively impact the nervous system, which is why for me the fundamental question is, Why do I want to attain higher awareness at all? When the ego sets about to achieve its own dissolution, you know there's gotta be another agenda working away in secret.

 

I DO want to attain higher awareness, for sure, but only because I'm not happy having to suffer. Show me anyone here who claims they do entheogens for any other reason, and I'll show you a liar.

 

A yes, death is not a negative; but it is present AT ALL TIMES, as is higher awareness. Anyone ever think about why smoking marijuana shuts down dream life? Do the math, people. 

Theres much much worse

Theres much much worse things for your nervous system then sex and yoga... Indeed your totally fucked.<p>

Lets see what that burnout Eddie thinks about all this. I think he does his mathematics in extradimensional spaces via the recapitulation of the self through exoteric combato sport practices<p>

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fe5ZN4eyztg

Writing fantasy is great though, Its better if you can practice and apply it instead of just referencing other peoples books and thinking your pulling back the veil or something. You really don't say much about anything, even Akers wants to see the science... You just offer packaged fear, I got it! your actually a CIA operative here to derail the train<p>

Warning! breathing is dangerous because when I think too much about inhale and exhale they become divided and I begin to hyperventilate! AHH the shower curtain is trying to attack me! And I feel great shame about my penis! The horror and agony of this great suffering!!! <p>

 

As long as I keep cycling fear thoughts in a feedback of self terrorizing nihilism I can realize that sex, drugs, and living are indeed quite frightening. Its better to write out sensless essays, and project my fears as though they are objective truths for all to know. <p>

 

Sex and yoga thats whats scarry to suburbanite modern types of the north american variety. Televised fear events keep us in check, question authority within a suitable context with which to entrap oneself in the throes of nihilism. That way all questions have no answers, and the answers all make your spine shive, shake if you persist. Then crazy shit starts to happen with greater frequency, maybe you don't belong there, its not for you. Its for others. <p>

We who are not as others<p>

Im always getting the 'copyright USgame systems' card when I pull Tarot, then I take the deck in one hand and shoot it all over the floor. Someone is bound to think the glossy stock bulk manufactured cards will be angry. And shit the cat died! Just kidding I don't own a fucking cat, and if I did I would call it Shr00danger. <p>

 

the fear reaction is yours,

the fear reaction is yours, brudder, not mine

 

Isn't there a rule about calling people agents?

Renato gonna show you what

Renato gonna show you what he learn, training with Eddie, training in da jiu-jitsu. Is not gonna be dis thing or dat thing gonna be da guy who is for train in da jiu-jitsu, you gonna relax there, everything will be okay, is good for you to get the experiences and to have the vacation trip to Brazil where is gonna be lots of sound and colour, just relax on your journey will be less stressful for you my friend. :)

And always eat your fruits and vegetables, keeping the body healthy, keeping it good for da jiu-jitsu is what you wanna do, for da body, for da jiu-jitsu is good for you, is good for Brazil, is going to improve allot the quality of your life. Sooner you are getting on the mats, the sooner you are getting rid of these fears of yours, the better is for your body, the better is for jiu-jitsu, the better is for da soul you gonna do the jiujts. 

Okay thank you my friend ;)

I'm sure

I'm sure there is a rule against the use of invective and unnecessary ridicule, but alas, you have slaughtered the sacred cow, and the natives are now quite restless.

By the way, do any of these psychonauts know how to spell? I guess proper grammar is another casualty of extensive use of psychedelics.

The omnipotence of the apple

Hi cdcaleo,

Well, there is plenty of bad grammar and incoherent writing to go around. I ain't noticed that this is unique to any particular group! The growth of the internet has had a catalytic effect on the sheer volume of prose that is being produced, but its influence on grammar has perhaps been less than positive. As to where to find a grammatical psychonaut: Let me suggest Henri Michaux--one of the greatest and most original of mid-20th Century French writers--as a candidate.

A few Michaux quotes:

“He who has rejected his demons badgers us to death with his angels”    

“It is preferable not to travel with a dead man.”    

"It’s the rare person I meet whom I don’t want to beat up. Others favor the interior monologue, stream-of-consciousness, art and dreams. Not me. I like to beat people up." 

“The Surrealist supernatural is a bit predictable but given the choice between supernatural and anything else, I would have no hesitation. Long live supernatural!” 

And a poem--"Magic, Part 1":

There was a time when I was truly nervous. Now I’m on a new track:

I put an apple on the table. Then I can put myself in the apple. What peace!

It seems so simple. However, I tried this trick for twenty years and I’d never have achieved my aim by starting that way. Why not? Maybe because I’d have felt humiliated, conscious of the apple’s meager proportions and its slow, dim life. Maybe. Bedstead thoughts are rarely pretty from below.

So I started in another way, uniting myself with the Escaut River.

The Escaut at Anvers, where I found it, is large and important and has a strong flow. Great ships may present themselves, but the current simply carries them. This is a river, all right. The real thing.

Yes, I resolved to make myself one with it. I hung around the wharf at all hours. Yet this was to squander myself in all sorts of useless study.

What’s more, against my better judgment, I’d watch women from time to time, and that’s something a river won’t stand for; not even an apple will put up with it; nothing in nature will.

So there I was: the Escaut and a thousand sensations. What to do? Suddenly, having renounced everything, I found myself . . . , I won’t say taking the river’s place, because, to tell the truth, that was never quite it. For one thing, it runs incessantly (which is a real problem), and it slides toward Holland, where it reaches the sea and an altitude of zero.

So, I’m back at the apple. There too I have fumbled and fiddled—a long story. It’s a struggle to escape, and likewise to explain myself.

But I can tell you something in one word: suffering.

Once I entered that apple, I was frozen stiff.

"even Akers" -- disclaimer

By inquring of a poster (above) who claimed MDMA harms neurons -- I was only asking for a lit reference. Re-reading my post, I believe it was clear.  Reading yours (damaru), seems the microscope got bumped, unfortunately.  

 

Re-focus: 

 

My sole purpose was to ask for citation to the "MDMA harms neurons" assertion.  Period.  If anyone can provide, I'm appreciative.  That's all.  I specifically do not endorse any point 'damaru' (above) put on my asking.  

 

I'd prefer my question not be exploited thus, for some argument or point someone wants to make to whoever. Falls on me to over-rule now, in fact call foul on damaru for that.  The bull has no place in my china shop.  I can only conclude the 'even Akers' ref is not 'even Steven.'  Penalty box, 5 min -- hand in cookie jar foul.

 

As author of my own question, I'd explicitly invalidate the sidelong reference to it above.  The main article, which I've not commented on, is of interest and well-written (which is not to agree/disagree with anything it says). But the 'even Akers' ploy, no.  

 

UPDATE-EDIT: Thanks to Rainbowjaguar for reply (above)

some people are addicted to sunsets

fair point about gurus, and well-timed, as I'm finishing a book about my own guru addiction.

 

To say psychedelics aren't addictive is missing the point, however. Anything and everything is addictive if we do it compulsively; and everything the ego does (esp try and attain higher awareness) it does compulsively. Mine anyhow.  

Eddie is your new guru. Get

Eddie is your new guru. Get your shit right.

No.

Entheogens are not condensed death particles.

wow

persuasive argument!

Some Wisdom Missing Here

"...once energy has returned to the undifferentiated state, it would not, by definition, retain any identity. In which case, the only thing that "reincarnates" is God/the Universe. The moments of an unexamined life remain part of the fabric of eternity, which is God's body, and nothing is lost, much less "damned." But the story which they were once a part of dissolves and is gone, as if never having existed-because as a narrative, it went nowhere in particular (or nowhere new)." ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- There seems to be a fundamental flaw in the spiritual logic of the final sentence in this paragraph. I, and most other people I know, believe in the idea of constant change, that is, ever present newness, uncontrollable originality in the ways particles arrange and rearrange themselves. Every event occurs in a different context; every object and subject behaves in unpredictable ways, at least to our modernly disconnected minds. Whether we consciously choose to attempt to influence or pay attention to ourselves or whats happening around us, we are coasted along by an inevitably shifting cosmic situation that generates newness regardless. So, with regard to your point about the lack of identity retention of an undifferentiated ("nowhere new" narrative) vs. a differentiated (new/coherent narrative), I'm not sure whether it is possible for reincarnation to be more likely to happen for one more than the other.

the atoms have it

i guess you are referring to a subatomic level, that the electrons and protons as discreet entities are always up to something novel? That's a good point - and maybe relates to the "fact" that we are ALL enlightened, really, we just don't all know it.

Certainly, novelty must relate at least as much to a person's inner experience/reality as to their outer actions, so I don't want to argue about the relative "worth" of individual lives, because how do I really know what's going on with anyone else? Better to keep to what I do know, and that is that I have days that are mechanical and lifeless in which nothing really "happens" within or without (ie, when I am blind and deaf to the wonder of existence), and days when it is "all happening." I'd be doing myself a disservice if I tried to persuade myself that all my days were equal just because of what my atoms were up to. God is equally present in all things - but are all things equally present in God?

Haven't read every word here.....

.....but, for sure, defenders of psychedelic use on this page are surely not using any medicine to improve their intelligibility / writing skill? Wow, do I really want to go there? Fascinating experiment, this one.

UM.

www.synchromysticismforum.com

Is gonna be best for focus

Is gonna be best for focus on the practice, the words and text form is gonna be understanding experience, is gonna be after the training we are thinking about these things. Is not gonna be lay in the half-guard for 7 minutes wondering why your is a scared to move uh?

WTF!

Always forward. Never straight. I really don't want to get involved in this discussion, other than to wish everyone goodluck in coming to any productive conclusions.

The joys of moderation

"Once, if my memory serves me well, my life was a banquet where every heart revealed itself, where every wine flowed.

"One evening I took Beauty in my arms - and I thought her bitter - and I insulted her.

"I steeled myself against justice.

"I fled. O witches, O misery, O hate, my treasure was left in your care!

I have withered within me all human hope. With the silent leap of a sullen beast, I have downed and strangled every joy.

"I have called for executioners; I want to perish chewing on their gun butts. I have called for plagues, to suffocate in sand and blood. Unhappiness has been my god. I have lain down in the mud, and dried myself off in the crime-infested air. I have played the fool to the point of madness.

"And springtime brought me the frightful laugh of an idiot.

"Now recently, when I found myself ready to croak! I thought to seek the key to the banquet of old, where I might find an appetite again.

That key is Charity. - This idea proves I was dreaming!"--Arthur Rimbaud, Chapter 1 of "A Season in Hell, Tr. Paul Schmidt

Hi Aeolus,

You wrote, “In a little under twenty years of experimentation (not counting the past seven years during which I have avoided entheogens altogether, unless you count the occasional joint), I have probably had around a hundred powerful hallucinogenic experiences (quite a few of which were marijuana-induced). I would estimate, conservatively speaking, that less than two dozen of these were "necessary" (appropriate), and that perhaps still less were truly shamanic and therefore healing or transformative to my being.”

Let me say, first, that I have no axe to grind when it comes to the use of entheogens—for or against. That is to say, I have no dog in the fight. My attitude towards the benefits vs. hazards of entheogen vs. non-entheogen fueled transformation could be boiled down to: six of one, a half-dozen of the other.

My own experience with entheogens—LSD peyote, mescaline—was quite different, and far less adventurous, than yours. Between the ages of 16 and 19, I used them perhaps a dozen times, under carefully prepared and controlled conditions. For me, it was not primarily a question of attempting to escape from anything—certainly not from the factories and provincial biases of my idyllic working class neighborhood in Worcester!—but rather of a return to a natural or inborn state of awareness.

As far back as I could remember, on some level, I felt creatively blocked, even as I was playing baseball with my friends, building tree houses, riding bikes, or climbing on railroad bridges. This sense of being the contracted form of something that was originally much larger was not, in any way, the dominant focus of my actions, but it was always there. For example, here is an excerpt from “A Brief Biography,” in which I recount one of my earliest memories. I wrote:

“One morning when Brian was four he was sitting on his back porch, imagining himself to be hovering above the Amazon. While making snakes, canoes and villagers out of clay he became frustrated. It occurred to him that he had succumbed to a creative block. How small he was! How contracted his intelligence! He remembered creating real snakes and villagers.”

Make of it what you will. From the first experiment with “Orange Sunshine”—which struck me as being somehow too artificial in its energy—my use was a purely functional one. I had many friends who thought nothing of taking LSD at parties, but this sort of thing didn’t interest me at all. You have described entheogens as a form of “concentrated death,” and this corresponds to my attitude at that time: My goal was to blow my body/mind apart and then put it back together. The blowing things to hell part went exactly according to plan. The putting of the body/mind back together took two or three years of systematic effort.

About ten of the experiences were positive, and two were negative. So, this would make the ecstatic to terrifying ratio something like 20% to 80%. 100% of the experiences, nonetheless, could be regarded as productive: Some pointed out what I needed to do, others, what I needed to avoid.

All of this should probably now be classified as “ancient history.” The entire process was over by 1974, and I have never felt a powerful urge to repeat this particular stage of exploration. Curiously, all of my major “psychedelic experiences” came afterwards, and by other means. Quite a few of them did have the sense that you describe of being a form of “concentrated death,” or, put more simply, they resembled NDEs—in certain but not all respects.

Lest this turn into an essay, it is probably best to stop this part of the comment here.

In closing, let me say: I have been following your writing, with great delight and appreciation, for several years now, and I have noticed a tendency of which you are probably also aware: It seems to be an inextricable part of your creative process to veer from one extreme to the other. This process is quite often highly productive for you, and it gives rise to much of the weight and texture and detail of your work—in short, to knowledge that you otherwise might not have been able to access.

The downside of this process is that, once having changed your mind, and having abandoned a position in which you had earlier invested all of your being, you then tend to feel somewhat guilty, and to assume that could or should have arrived at the same destination by some other means. In an essay such as “The Serpent’s Promise”—as beautifully written as it is—you quite often seem to be arguing against your own past behavior.

There is, perhaps, a slight urge to proselytize as well. Instead of saying, “This is my story, and this is what I have learned,” there is sometimes a tendency to generalize. Fellow “psychonauts,” or perhaps the rest of the human race, are assumed to have been enacting the same story, step by step, that you have. For this reason, when you change your mind about a subject, then they all are expected to follow suit. Clearly, they have made the same “mistakes,” and therefore, soon or late, the same lessons must be learned. I would argue, however, that each person follows his or her own narrative arc, and that such “mistakes” are not really mistakes at all.

--New posts every 2-3 days on my blog Masks of Origin

http://masksoforigin.blogspot.com/

voice of reason

Brian

it's nice to get some constructive and intelligent criticism for a change, and I think I agree with all of it - with one qualifier, which is that all writing experiments are two-way, the proof of which being that people's reaction-response varies even while the written piece remains the same. Everything I write is a snapshot of my consciousness at that time. The above piece is a mix of "energetic facts" with personal interpretation and autobiography, and in a way, I'm the last person to be able to distinguish between the two. That's really the reader's job, not mine.

I may not know everyone's story, but I do know a little about human nature, and because such a thing exists (and our conditioning on top of it), none of us are all that different. I never argued that there might not be exceptions to what I am describing, only that they ARE exceptions. Yours may well be one, although I don't really see the difference between trying to remove a block/get back to natural state and trying to escape from something. I see the difference in terminology, obviously, but not in meaning. Paul Bowles used majoun to write some of his novels, or parts of them, and as a reader I am glad he did. So his use was also functional for him; but does that necessarily mean it was free from a desire to escape reality. Why did he feel the need to write books to begin with - and why did you feel a need to be "creative"? Human nature...

Your point about veering to extremes is dead on, but you miss out the real potency of that as a writer, and that is, not in bouncing back and forth, but in allowing both extremes to co-exist. When  I wrote about Strieber (a piece which may apear here soon), the Whitley devotees saw it as an attack, and the Whitley-denouncers saw it as a defense. Admittedly, this present piece is a bit less ambiguous, but when I read it back, I found (with some relief) that just about every criticism posted here (yours notwithstanding) was already addressed/anticipated by the piece itself - including to some degree, the fact that it's a personal POV. The fact that people are only retaining the parts they emotionally react to says more about them than about the peice itself, I think. And if I had really wanted to bang a drum and proselytize, I would have left out the personal information altogether, since that only gives people ammunition to shoot me down.

As for feeling guilty, if so, it's only to the extent that I have, in the past, advocated hallucinogens, however indirectly, and even "initiated" people into "separate realities" while prematurely playing shaman. So it's more accurate to say that I feel a responsibility to set the record straight. One of the reasons I don't necessarily regret my own excess is that it gives me some "authority" (direct experience) by which to steer others away from similar excesses. I offer my example as a canary in the coal mine. Unfortunately for me, that then opens me up to personal attack, since some people would rather argue that I am just a big f*** up than put stock in what I say. They are probably the same kind of folk who think that Grant Morrison's Disinfo address was really cool. Oops, I said I wouldn't name names!

One other thing: we ARE all enacting the same story, Bri, as I think you well know. But I certainly don't expect anyone to follow me, or my suit. God forbid.

that's not the moon, that's my finger!

another thing occurred to me after I posted the above: somehow we have wound up discussing the author rather than the article. How & why'd that happen?

That's my finger

AK - Maybe it's because you're an egotistical asshole.

 

 

D'oh!

Now why didnt I think of that?

I too have been following

I too have been following your writing under it's various transmogrifications and i feel that it has reached a new stage in its distillation, perhaps because it is more honest, and it transmits the process, the bout to skim off the grandiloquence and messianic stream that is so common --hard to avoid-- when talking about subjects like enlightment, consciousness, shamanism, etc. My intention is to talk about the work and not wallow in the author, but i want to make this point i think i see. I especially liked the piece you published before here, the one on writing and empathy. In which it posits the luminous idea that a writer must fight off his ego, must embark on a psychoanalytic process to cleanse also the culturally programmed persona (that inserts itself in his biocomputer) if he really wants to communicate his voice to the reader and have a communion, empathy. What i take of this is that writers must live a shamanic-psychological process in order to write their own code, as it were. I guess you are doing this by writing about your own experiences with psychedelics, sort of burning some Logos karma. I think it is praiseworthy in that sense, as you said, it's a bit heavy being the guy who gave kids DMT (even if it is unintentionally and memetically). Having said that I do think that psychedelics are a most interesting way, even for the Western mind, far from the shamanic set and setting, to experience death, and try to kill ego (even if it is a risky bet, and ego might inflate). We might forget, but most of us have taken psychedelics, and owe a lot of our cultural deconditioning, a lot of our psychic energy to search other possible worlds to psychedelic experiences. Psychedelics have been our allies, even though they do take something from us. Of course there are other ways to experience consciousness awareness and to find this sort of rebellion from consensus reality programming, but the fact is that few are more powerful and in our path, that psychedelics. Hey its great if you are cut out for serene spiritual discipline, for working and observing your own mind like a zen mason, and you don't need to jumpcut and hijack the system. But for many of us it's been psychedelics that have spiritfully spoken to make us take that discipline, to get out of drugs, to have consciousness of our own body and mind, and realise we are already enlightened. Obviously there have been many priests of entheogens, and it is needed some balancing, but for me the truth is that a well prepared and timed psychedelic experience is generally good for most everyone. Perhaps if our world wasn't so programmed by mainstream narcissus narcosis we wouldn't need to call in such powerful arsenal of plant spirits. But if the writing in the oracle is "know thyself", then psychedelics are part of what brings forth our souls, perchance fleeting, but that vision --of eternity fading-- is sometimes what fuels a life of striving to make our body and the planet the Holy Stone (although making may be just realizing that it already is, as the platonic saying "to know is to recall"). Above all i want to thank you for reawakening in me the intention to cleanse my ego and programming so that i can hopefully write my own code, my own soul's starweaved hieroglyphs, as a process that synchs with my evolution. “By passion the world is bound; by passion too it is released”. Hevajra Tantra

"My the strength of three be in your journey"

Hi Alephall,

You wrote, "Above all I want to thank you for reawakening in me the intention to cleanse my ego and programming so that I can hopefully write my own code, my own soul's starweaved hieroglyphs, as a process that synchs with my evolution."

Neat sentence! It seems much more sensible, as you say, to "cleanse" the Ego, rather than to launch an all-out war to annihilate it. We can speculate about consigning it to the ranks of "the disappeared," but the Ego is far stronger and more resourceful than it looks. It serves a useful purpose, and it will usually win out in the end.

Your sentence reminded me of an Irish toast: "May your Soul get to heaven a half hour before the Devil knows you're dead!"

Maps Made by Psychonauts Go in Circles

I've long been aware that writing/distilling experience allows integration to happen, but lately I've started to appreciate how sharing and receiving feedback helps also, whether good, bad, or ugly. The "trolls" are especially useful for that, since they nobly embody the lower, most disowned aspects of the writer's psyche, the rumblings of the id, as it were. The "cleverer" we get, the stupider the attacks must become in order to help us integrate that shadow. Those pesky trolls may have nothing of any apparent value to say, but a signal found in extreme noise is the finest signal.

If psychedelics work by increasing signal to noise ratio - then when they're overused, they may reduce our capacity to tune into the subtler signals. I don't know - it's the opposite of McKenna's idea, which was that psilocybin improved the senses and therefore increased our survival capacity/lead to mutation. It was an idea I liked when I first heard it, and it sounded "right." Now I'm not so sure. I don't think my capacities, sensory or otherwise, have been improved in any way by entheogens; if anything I'd say the contrary, . The value of enthoegen use for me has simply been finding out that other states of being exist and roughly what they are like. That's why I know that I overdid it, because how many times do you need to experiences a foreign state of being to know it exists? When it comes to getting back to those states without aids, entheogens have not helped, largely I think because I never saw the route that I took, as consciousness, to get there. The journey there was too fast, and the "comedown" didn't give me much of a clue either.

That's the trouble with teleportation: it doesn't give you a chance to get to know the in-between terrain.

“The sun is the breadth of a man’s foot”

“The Logos, which is as I describe, proves incomprehensible, both before it is heard and even after it is heard. For although all things happen according to the Logos, many act as if they have no experience of it, even when they do experience such words as I explain, as when I separate out each thing according to its nature and state how it is; but as to the rest, they fail to notice what they do after they wake up, just as they forget what they do when they sleep.”--Heraclitus

Hi Aeolus,

You wrote, “I don't really see the difference between trying to remove a block/get back to natural state and trying to escape from something. I see the difference in terminology, obviously, but not in meaning.”

I guess that it would be possible to argue that we yearn for freedom to “escape” from slavery, So too, we eat food to escape from hunger, and seek knowledge to escape from ignorance. Life itself could be seen as a convoluted escape from the more certain fact of death. I am not sure, however, that it makes much sense to use the word in this fashion.

To me, the key factors in the equation are honesty and humility and courage. Are we doing our best to confront whatever challenges might appear head on?

Yes, psychedelics can be used as a form of rocket fuel for the permanently adolescent ego. Then again, archaic traditions would suggest that our day to day state of awareness is actually a kind of highly addictive narcotic. Breadth and depth of consciousness may be the preexistent norm—a state that we return to, if only temporarily, at the moment of our deaths.

It would seem best to sidestep the trap of Either/ Or. We should no doubt celebrate—rather than attempt to escape from—what Yeats referred to as “The foul rag and bone shop of the heart,” but this does not mean that we should take our every limitation at face value.

Excerpt from my essay “There is No Beauty without some Strangeness of Proportion”:

We are accustomed to classifying some things as “intellectual” and others as “experiential,” some things as “abstract” and others as “tangible,” but I do not accept this way of dividing up the world. We are all collaborating to provide each other with the missing pieces of a puzzle that cannot be visualized from any single angle, and the universe—like a mischievous child—delights in shocking us with still other parts that we have “accidentally on purpose” overlooked.

But why have we overlooked them?— For it is not as though those almost unimaginable details and correspondences were ever, in fact, hidden from our view. Space separates the pieces of the puzzle, yes, and yet time draws us back as to an “organizing image,” and to the circle upon which we will reenact the crime that first made us stupid.

In the “Odyssey,” after Odysseus and his men have killed and feasted on the cattle of the sun, Homer says that, in punishment, Helios “took from their eyes the day of their return.” This phrase has always fascinated me. It really is quite odd! The “day of their return” has not gone anywhere at all. It is still there, but they simply cannot see it anymore.

make honey while the sun shines

Yep, the only reason I don't advocate trying to escape from "reality" is that I don't think it works - if it did, I'd be all for it it. Evidently, complacent submission to the program doesn't get us anywhere either. It's the middle path, which entails keeping the eyes and the mind wide open and hopefully, eventually, the heart will follow.

 

 

Left wing, Right wing, Broken wing

:)

" I drank all the way

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just when you thought it couldn't get any more personal. . . .

 If people are so sure there's no truth in what I write, then I wonder why they are getting so bent out of shape about it? Don't they know false ideas naturally fade away if they are ignored, and that resistance makes stronger? I suppose I expected this piece to upset people, and I could have anticipated that when people get upset, they tend to turn nasty. Even so, I'm surprised by how much impact my "BS" has had, and how spiteful some of these comments have been. 

Here i go integrating the trolls....

subjugate your demons if you

subjugate your demons if you want to integrate the trolls... Now enough is enough, I have had it with these muthafuckin snakes on this muthafuckin plane...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLaX8UvVUQw

the piper , the fiddler and other collectors

from the article: "As we seek to experience our primal/cosmic natures via the entheogens which the Earth (and modern science) provides, the imagined solution may only be compounding the problem. It would be Gaia's secret revenge, because if the (ab)use of entheogens were decimating our own individual "biospheres" and preventing us from having full access to our faculties, this would exactly mirror the ways in which our disconnection from the environment has affected the Earth's biosphere."

Unfortunately , it seems that more and more people are using entheogens to "experience our primal/cosmic natures" so to experience a solution to our problems. It does feel like there is a flaw in this -- in the modern person's attempt to "touch or taste god" in such a way , especially without sufficient training in a shamanic culture. It seems that many if not most want to experience it under the unconscious conditioned feelings of nature worship (idol worship) -- of worshiping something that is perceived outside of the self, usually with an underlying feeling of guilt for not being able to match the grace and glory of the perceived "thing" of beauty. This is where and when we get to pay and pay really f*cking hard -- when we use entheogens under such perceptions drenched in conditionality and pre-conditionality, for ex. , I'll love you but I want something back from you -- like the experience of my primal/cosmic and my awesome true nature and the wealth that I hear comes along with it. This is perhaps why we get to repeatedly experience the dark side of love -- which perhaps relates to what you call "gaia's revenge" , Jason.

Gaia will not receive our projections kindly but on the other hand I don't think that She will make us suffer either. We just get to deal with our own withered self upon her refusal to receive projections and we also get to deal with our own sense of isolation when we put conditions on love and on the quest for knowledge. Many of us tend to deal with our withered self by continuing to chase after Gaia's booty, through continued enthenogen use, long after we know that there is no pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. So why do us modern folk keep using entheogens after we get the message? I think it has to do with hate -- hating her -- because we know that we have to pay the fiddler with the mind and we don't want to lose it. So then we say , We'll I'll lose it (the mind) in my next enthenogen trip and that will be my payment. Not good enough. Just accruing more debt.

Shiva and the splitting of the atom

Hi Aeolus,

You wrote, “When psychoactive molecules ‘invade’ the molecules of our bodies, they crack them open and release the information stored inside, giving us momentary awareness of the whole network: ‘nuclear’ vision.”

Since the early ‘90s, I have also been fascinated by this idea of consciousness as a kind of atom to be split, although my perspective on the issue is different than yours and does not involve psychotropic drugs—aside from whatever DMT-type substances are produced by the pineal gland. This idea, if such it can be called, first presented itself to me in a series of somewhat overwhelming experiences, each of which I interpreted as a “koan.” Through the years, I have developed a number of ideas about these experiences in which consciousness was presented as an atom to be split, but the experiences themselves still make me shiver and begin to vibrate, and I have tried never to confuse an experience with the frame that I have put around it.

In regards to “the splitting of the atom of consciousness,” I believe that something more primordial than an invasion by psychoactive substances is going on—perhaps a return to the beginning of the world. In Vedic metaphysics, if I recall, there is a three-fold dynamic unity that sustains the whole of creation. At the most fundamental and/or ancient level, you have Absolute Voidness. Out of this arises the energy that is inherent in the Void, but at this stage becomes somewhat separate from it. In the third and final stage, this energy is projected into manifest forms. “Enlightenment—whether step by step or sudden—can be seen as a reversal of this process. It is for this reason that Shiva is associated with both enlightenment and world destruction. He is often shown dancing on a dead baby, with a ring of flames around him, as, palm outwards, he shows to us the “Fear Not” mudra. The key thing is, perhaps, that the flames are symmetrically contained within a ring—which could also be imagined as a sphere.

On my blog “Masks of Origin,” I just posted a poem from 1992 called “Pope Innocent,” which contains a number of references to this “splitting of the atom” idea. Here is the end:

On a lip of stone a lady stands. She is wrapped in a white sheet. Her hair flares out through the constellations. She stares out from a cliff, a lip of stone, 10 miles above a boiling ocean. She counts off on her fingers the names of every victim of omnipotence.

Pope Innocent has climbed the back stair of the Zodiac. He has dragged towards light his sack of beauties. He has thrown a match behind him.

Akasha, you have come forth crunching on the blackened skulls of troubadours. You have stepped forth naked from the bonfires of Provence. You have poured out heavy water from the great mouth of your urn. You have moderated the chain-reaction. You have fed the pyres once organized by St. Bernard of Clairvaux.

To kiss you is to split the atom. Your asteroidal eyes reconstitute the genome of the stupid god.

Whom you love, you do not hesitate to destroy. No amnesiac spouse may petition you without his death tax being paid. The Age of Gold will return to Earth. Nagas will eat their tails. Languedoc will again be spoken by Perfecti in the Lybian desert.

(Illustration: Ernst Fuchs)

--New posts every 2-3 daus on my blog Masks of Origin

http://masksoforigin.blogspot.com/

a powerful tool

I grew up in meditating family and meditation to be powerful tool to tap into the the subtle energies and as I grew up I discovered enthnogens. I find them to be a powerful tool as well. The thing that enthnogens taught me was to let go. I feel it helps you understand the wavering validity of the material plane. I think you have to accept the parameters of this plane but know that there are deviations and once you learn to tap into this you can start move more in sync with the cosmos. I think these substances need to be seriously studied so that they their potential can be fully realized. I also feel that a users intention going into the enthnogen experience is very crucial to the journey. peace and love

swanspeak

sounds like the words to a Swans song

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3EiL-eyclMI 

OH hell yea!

Tool is awesome!  Seriously, some of the most potent moments in my life have been due to a mixture of Tool and entheogens :)  Anyway, I like Mr. Kepha's writtings and I am kind of pissed off at a couple of people on here being assholes to him.  I would just suggest Mr. Kephas you ignore these people.  It is embarassing to watch these people attack you, and it hurts even more because this is on RS, I thoughy we were above personal attacks and insults?  I just dont understand