Cosmogenesis; In a Small Boat, Drifting on the Ocean

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Brian George, Spiral with eyes and living boat, 2003

This essay grew out of the Reality Sandwich forum for my essay "Habits of the Heart."

"And in this sense, I say, the world was before the Creation, and at an end before it had a beginning; and thus was I dead before I was alive, though my grave be England, my dying place was Paradise, and Eve miscarried of me before she conceived of Cain." --Thomas Browne, from "Religio Medici," 1643

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The Enigma of the Labyrinth; Any Wrong Turn is Correct

Hi Somantics,

In your comment entitled "Culture Cage", you wrote, "Crazy crossed wires frizzing miles and miles of toxic channels carved through your synapses through long fermentation. Language is black magic and the double edged sword. Please only take it out of the sheath to reflect light into the dark not to hack away at gifts placed around you. Mr. McKenna stated ‘culture is not your friend.' He wasn't wrong. Are you wearing clothes or are you the clothes?...Truths are only evident in the pit of the stomach or the center of the chest. Plant vegetables or create your thing and chuck away the television or magazine."

I do believe that we -- as the collective embodiment of the vision on which this country was founded -- have reached an impasse, but it is an impasse only in terms of our own level of understanding. All of my work is premised on the assumption that the universe coheres in a state of multidimensional perfection; it cannot be broken. This, of course, presents us with a paradox, since Time would appear to break all things. Without being "broken" the Primordial Male/Female Body cannot act or reproduce, and creation would remain a hermetically sealed dream.

You speak of a "double edge sword," and in this intuition you are correct: The energy of the trickster is never far from my thoughts, and a love of paradox is at the heart of my creative method. When faced with mutually impossible alternatives, the mind can jump to a different level of connection. Ends and beginnings are not necessarily different. When the "common wisdom" is a euphemism for oligarchic propaganda, and our habitual modes of interpretation do not really explain a thing, then perhaps we would do well to approach each fact or phenomenon as a koan. The Monk Mayo asked this question of the Sixth Patriarch: "What is Zen?" The Patriarch answered, "When your mind is not dwelling on the dualism of good and evil, what is your original face before you were born?" This would suggest that real knowledge cannot be reached by a process of addition; instead, it has to do with the removal of all irrelevant objects in the foreground.

Let us say that some ancient trauma has blocked access to the Macrocosm: our instinct is to run from the event, which, with each step that we take, gets closer. The wound that rips through the soul turns gangrenous. We tie it off, as with a metaphysical cord.

We have blocked all access to the glyphs on the horizon.

Now systemic, the infection prompts us to add new and improved objects in the foreground. We were asked to remove all impure elements from the wilderness. We did. We have become adept at creating our own reality, and yet, still, we wonder if there may be something wrong. From the background: thunder, as clouds of a peculiar sort roll in. They are luminous. The fallout settles on the city like an all too familiar presence.

To feel: may best be defined as the threat of an attack. To get even: would require a new geometric theorem, in addition to a big supply of zeros. The wealth that we have hidden in plain sight will almost certainly return to haunt us. Glass towers are built on the emptiness that is left when indigenous tribes -- with most but not all of their oral literature -- are erased. Yahweh is pleased, as is Calvin -- the stone god of psychopaths.

Yet there is no starting over. Fear has turned us into victims, and a near-death experience could not come soon enough. A sword, in the end, is intended to destroy, and thus to liberate the energy that has been trapped within a form, but it is up to us as to whether this will lead to discrimination. I envision a perfect sword strike, in which each head will be split open from the crown to the pineal gland, and that out of this will rise our perception-now direct-of the sphere whose center is as large as its circumference.

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The transparency of the epileptic boat

Hi Gilberto,

You wrote, "Hyperspace is certainly not a shelter from the storm. Although we (seemingly) escape, we only set the stage for a return to the same situation. Perhaps different settings, time periods, characters, genders, etc. In my humble opinion, the lesson not learned is the lesson gladly returned. Although I do like the option of escaping for a cosmic nap and dealing with certain things later...."

My sense is that we are entering a period of transition in the relationship between dimensions, in which the interaction between the vertical and the horizontal axes will be redefined. No exchange will be fixed, and a shock wave will run upwards, through the "higher" worlds, as well as outwards, through the global body.

It is possible that there will be no non-participants in the revolution against History -- that the past and the future will be seen as our wayward children, as flawed but necessary aspects of a project that we undertook long ago. At the moment, I feel that I am being carried forward in a small boat on an ocean, with no real way to steer. No matter, since even the small boat must go; all transport must begin and end with the body, in its role as a primordial vehicle.

Collectively, we are approaching a near death state, and the knowledge for our own good hidden beyond death is beginning once again to speak. There is no time like the "present" to confront the projection of our fears. At a certain stage in our initiation, it may dawn on us that trauma is not other than a door to ecstasy -- a door that opens at the center of the sky -- or, conversely, that ecstasy may be the key that unlocks the hieroglyph of trauma.

"Non-attachment" is often seen as a meditative accomplishment, but it is naturally present, for a time at least, in the normal near death experience, as it may be also in the current transition between worlds. The freefall of the world economy may force us to make a virtue of necessity; we are picked up by the hair. Each ego must become a movable omphalos.

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In "Soul-Sick Nation; An Astrologer's View of America," Jessica Murray wrote:

"The placement of America's Pluto infuses whatever it touches with a hybrid of control and desire. Since the country went off the gold standard, its symbols have become more and more estranged from their source meaning, but they are no less freighted with talismanic charge. It is easy to see how this would be the case, for Pluto governs the archetype of underground treasure; powerful secrets hidden within the psyche and raw mineral wealth hidden beneath the soil. Gold fever has been replaced in the history of America by oil fever, now ratcheted up to a fatal condition...

"A consummate example of this (distorted Plutonian) drive at work is the not-all-that Secret-Doctrine erected by several administrations'-worth of policymakers. This document outlines, quite specifically, a geopolitical and military action plan whereby an alliance of business and governmental elements would achieve control of the world's resources. Kind of exactly like the I-want-to-rule-the-world-Bwa-ha-ha-ha plotline that super villains are always hatching in comic books. One gets the same feeling from Donald Rumsfeld's pithy phrase ‘Full Spectrum Dominance.' It sounds like he dug it out of an old copy of Superman...

"We expect there to be a self-destructive subtext whenever Pluto is involved; we don't see it as incongruous. Sometimes this undercurrent results in creative self-destruction, whereby a person or a group entity experiences nothing less than rebirth in the area in question. Otherwise, the self-destruction is blind."

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Black gold and Pluto's helmet of invisibility

In 1980, just before or after Reagan's victory, I had a kind of upside-down visionary experience, in which dread and horror were the dominant emotions. I was visiting my family in Worcester, at the house where I grew up, and was dozing off in my bedroom. This was a room in which I had many out-of-body experiences-at first involuntary, and, as time went on, more voluntary, if not completely under my control. I was used to strange things happening. In any case, I was just dozing off in my bedroom, when, all of a sudden, an incredible kind of a rip occurred -- as though the top layer of North America had separated from its under-layer, and I had been sucked through some jagged opening into the darkness underneath.

The experience was intoxicating, in a way, in that it involved a sense of vast expansion, as well as a kind of split-second initiation into a layer of secret knowledge. I saw darkness swirling in intricate and yet chaotic patterns -- like rivers of oil flowing into lakes of oil, a kind of world war of kaleidoscopic clouds, boiling beneath the surface of the Earth. It struck me that Earth's overlords all had knowledge of and access to these forces, which the greater part of humanity was quite content to ignore -- much as we choose not to think about the insides of our bodies, particularly our digestive systems. The dominant reality here was power: acts of naked power and the lust for ever more power and the incantation of key words of power and raw magical assertions of the will.

I felt that, with each act of power and magical assertion of the will, a piece was being ripped out of the Whole-which I saw as being a luminous sphere, or a fabric, or a body -- a Whole whose structure had been originally self-evident, but which was becoming more and more difficult to see or to imagine. What was seized by forces in one part of the Whole was taken from another, until only an underground sea of darkness, heaving with ill-gotten wealth, was left. As I said, the experience was a visionary one, but with none of the sense of liberation that usually comes with such experiences. I was traumatized, and barely able to function for several weeks. At first, I couldn't speak about or conceptualize the experience at all.

As important as it was, I have seldom written about the experience too directly-perhaps because the darkness did not have clear-cut edges, and because the information came at me in an overwhelming rush. It took me more than a year to begin to incorporate some of the insights gained into my work. In the three decades since, I have come to realize that this experience of the secret order of the underworld was not only -- or even primarily -- a metaphorical one. Instead, it was a preview of the political, cultural, and economic forces that would manifest -- like a death flash video -- in the events of the external world.

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In her comment "I Hate America," Joan of Art wrote:

"I still clench my teeth every time some loud-mouthed American screams to me across the street, "It's not Halloween!" because costume is my form of social dissent. These cowboy fuckers see a gorgeous queen of a woman in her full sequined Egyptian attire and then think that an appropriate response is to scream rudely across the street to make her feel like crap. Am I to have compassion for their sheer idiocy and rudeness?

"I think the problem with a sample study of taking four well-meaning Americans and writing a book based on the American Dream is that most Americans are stupid as hell. I apologize for being so vulgar about this -- but freedom in this country has seemed to turn into the right to shut other people down. The internet has been launching demonic energy at me as a result of tagged words in my Election Art Battle, and I am having to fight multi-demented black magicians and demons right now to get them the fuck off of Earth.

"Please don't misread my passion for anger. I am immortally pissed. I am also strangely at peace in the battle of the multidimensional war of which I am now a part. I will not let them take me out. The fates of Sirius and Earth are interwoven. The veil between the dimensions has fully opened-at least from where I'm standing, grabbing demons and sending them back through the Halls of Amenti to the dimension from which they sprang."

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"What a strange manner of being dead"

Hi Joan of Art,

When faced with a pod of rude recombinants from America, it is possible that gratitude is the only correct response. If the world cohered -- already, and without change -- in a state of unbroken fullness then we would not ever be tempted to depart from Hyperspace. No food would be delivered to the gods. They would look like skeletons. With no blood to refresh their beauty, their idealized proportions would be abstract, and few inter-species marriages would endure. Ambassadors would lose track of which language they were speaking. If some percentage of the public were not ignorant, then why would you need to have compassion for them? Already, they would be members of the elect. I can only hope that my other-dimensional teachers do not withhold their compassion until I am perfect. That would certainly be quite a wait! 

In the mean time, the Underworld has need of us. The genius of the Great Year fades. Space appears flat -- not like the 10-dimensional labyrinth that it is -- and the World of Light sinks beyond the edge of the horizon.

"Sleepers also share in the work of the cosmos," said Heraclitus. It has taken me quite a while to begin to guess what he meant. Among other things, I think that he was saying that there is a purpose to unconsciousness. As when we breathe, the light goes in and out -- i.e., it cannot go in without also going out. If the stars did not revolve, and the genius of the Great Year was completely self-enclosed, then immortality and death would not be any different. There would be no variations on the 12 archetypal themes.

When I was a senior in high school, I discovered a poem by Cesar Vallejo that in part reads, "You people are dead, but what a strange manner of being dead. Anyone might say that you were not." "Aha," I thought, "my sentiments exactly!" Since then, my attitude towards human ignorance has changed, more on some days than others, but I still have immediate access to the emotions that I felt. And should I, by some lessening of testosterone, be somehow tempted forget my sense of adolescent outrage, updated access is guaranteed by such groups as the Tea Party, who spare no expense in providing me with fresh targets for my disgust.

For example: Wolf Blitzer, in a CNN debate, asks Ron Paul about a 30 year-old male who has "chosen" not to purchase health insurance. He goes into a coma, and requires six months of intensive care. Should society just let him die? Paul answers, "That's what freedom is all about, taking your own risks. This whole idea that you have to prepare and take care of everybody..." The crowd then erupts in shouts of "Yeah! Yeah! Let him die!" This is not the response of a group of conscious beings. Even now, I could not help but feel: We are watching a live broadcast from one of the cities of the dead. They are no doubt starved for biomorphs, and are making every effort to increase their population.

The answer to any and all of life's dilemmas seems to be: to eliminate the tax burden placed on the top one percent of billionaires.

Over the past few years, I have been stunned and fascinated by this phenomenon of what would appear to be self-inflicted blindness. To me, the anti-gravitational flight of UFOs or the building of the Great Pyramid of Giza are far less mysterious than a phenomenon of this type. If we were talking about a DMT induced vision, then we might expect any and all descriptions of an object to diverge, but we are talking about the realm of shared three-dimensional space. I often feel, quite literally, that I am living inside of a dream. Not only do people not seem to see the gigantic object that is right in front of them, hidden -- by Plutonic as well as other archetypal forces -- plain sight, but the Powers That Be have not gone to any lengths to disguise it! As any child can see, in the middle of the room there is a creature that looks just like an elephant.

About 20 years ago, I heard a Russian folk tale has stuck with me, although I don't remember how the tale begins. At some point, however, a magical being offers to grant one wish to a peasant. The peasant can have anything he wants. The only catch is that his neighbor will be given twice as much of it. The peasant thinks and thinks, and then smiles as he says, "I would like you to blind me in one eye!" At the time, I regarded this as an exotic tale. Now, it seems like a description of our day to day psychology. Strange forces are at work.

A dark cloud has been hanging above the country since the detonation of the first atomic bomb. In the 66 years since Trinity, when a mushroom cracked the sky, the dark cloud that it left does not seem to have lightened much, and, if anything, hangs even closer to the ground. Let us posit that this breach birth of "free energy" beamed a signal to the other-dimensional guardians of our race, who, in turn, issued an ultimatum to us: That we keep our eyes wide open -- in order, at some point, to remember what we are. For the most part, this ultimatum has been systematically ignored. Why, then does the world look different, so that its beauty fills me with a sense of tragic joy?

Perhaps it is because, in my crude attempts to give birth to the Stone of the Philosophers, upon which I would ride, I am only just now able to intuit how the tension between opposites is in no way accidental. As Heraclitus said, "They do not apprehend how being in conflict it still agrees with itself; there is an opposing coherence, as in the tensions of the bow and lyre." It is just this tension that we must transmute into fuel.

For example: For a group to violently argue for positions that are 180 degrees opposed to its real interests -- this could reasonably be described as ignorant. Disaster follows. As night follows day, stupor follows from possession by an archetype. The helpless are punished, for they are bad, and their lack of wealth must be interpreted as a sign, just as billions more must be contributed -- or else! -- to the war chest of the psychopath. Outrage would be justified, but wonder is equally valid as a response. Now, when I find myself relapsing into judgment, I prefer to look at those parts of myself that I perceive as being "dead." It is a way to shake things up, a form of metaphysical Aikido, a means to break the chain by which cause leads automatically to effect. Put simply: it is a place to begin.

My hope is -- and perhaps this is a form of cowardice or a rationalization of my need for "personal space"-- that any change in consciousness may obey the law of "action at a distance," and that this change may be of use to those with the equipment to receive it. In chapter two of the Tao Te Ching we read, "Therefore the Master can act without doing anything and teach without saying a word." And also, in chapter 36, "Just as fish remain hidden in deep water, it is best to keep weapons out of sight."

This is not to say that I would be displeased to witness a new trend in armed confrontations on the barricades, in which squadrons of young heroes -- all handsome and/or beautiful, of course -- would dare to face down the massed forces of Genetically Engineered Corn, before setting fire to the headquarters of the WTO. As a precaution, it might also be advisable to drive a stake through the heart of the IMF -- on the off chance that there is someone who could find it. The decentralized autocracy does not provide us with clear focal points; there are few -- if any -- targets that it would be useful to destroy. At a G20 protest, if the anarchist in the black bandana is an undercover cop, and the rock thrown through the window can be used as the pretext for a crackdown, then how would it be possible to determine who has won? Soon, coming to a mall near you: designers will explore new concepts in guerilla marketing to promote their lines of Black Bloc street-fighting couture! I would probably tend to agree with the most radical of diagnoses, or even to propose that they do not go far enough, but any large scale surgery on the Body Politic I must trust to those with more ideological pep. 

Let us imagine that we are intoxicated gods, now derelict, who passersby pause to laugh at on the street. We have lost all access to our supernatural weapons, as well as at least four of our eight limbs. Somehow, we have found ourselves at a 12-step recovery program, half awake. A court seems to have mandated our attendance -- for a period of not less than 5200 but not more than 26,000 years -- at a theatre workshop called "The Zodiac." The goal: to decipher the instructions that we had scribbled in the Ur-Text, and, by means of impenetrable stealth, to perfect the archaic art of bi-location.

I do realize: that my martial discipline of ritualized "acting without acting" must seem suspiciously like a total lack of action. It's not that I don't understand the urgent need for taking clear and forceful action in the cause of social justice, or for reimagining the key elements that breathe life into a commonwealth, but rather that it seems important to think small. To the power of the multinational corporation, the black magic of the Plutocracy, the each year more hypnotic morphogenetic field of the descendants of Tyrannosaurus Rex: I would dare to oppose the power of the Seed.

In a comment above, I had written, "It is possible that there will be no non-participants in the revolution against History." To which you responded, "You think? It seems to me that most Americans are happy to sit back and enjoy the show with a tub of popcorn. I look around and see zombie robots and then people with a light that shines around them. It becomes obvious who is ascending and who is not."

Well, I certainly did not intend to come off sounding like an optimist! Few have ever thought to accuse me of such a thing. Instead, I meant to suggest that we all will be swept up by the unfolding of the time-cycle, for better or for worse, as we have been by the collapse of the world economy -- "there will be no non-participants." This sentence should be read in the context of the one that follows: "At the moment, I feel that I am being carried forward in a small boat on an ocean, with no real way to steer." If we are, in fact, involved in some vast process of cosmogenesis, it is always possible that we do not need to know more than we do. As fetuses, our job is to be what and where we are. 

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In his comment titled, "The Walking Dead", Dave Hanson wrote:

Thanks, Brian. You describe well the end of the world. Margaret the therapist expresses the spirit of the times perfectly. Margaret says, "I just sort of accept the way the world is and then don't think about it a whole lot." She likes the notion of "a mature sense of autonomy." "No external demand should compel us to be answerable to the needs of others," etc. In other words, we can have a "good life" as alienated, terrified slaves to the machine of civilization. The Kogi, on the other hand (as one example of many) are responsible for the health of the world. They came down the mountain to tell us to grow up and begin caring for our planet. Throughout the indigenous world we find that our work, our intention, must be in part to sustain everything else. We must be compelled by that external demand.

You have accurately described a culture of domesticated animals using language and myth to fool themselves into thinking they will not be slaughtered. Words, words, words. Endless words. Unless we can reintegrate ourselves into the living, conscious, multidimensional web, we will annihilate ourselves and our planetary home. We either will, or we won't, and I'm betting on the latter.

When, 12,000 +/- years ago we decided on agriculture and religion, we sealed our fate. The end began. As it accelerates, what does one say? What does one suggest? As this bus careens off the cliff should we open the windows or leave them closed? Is it possible (this idea keeps cropping up in my head) that we should stop reading, writing and talking? Could we, in silence, be more agile travelers, more easily merge with our living brothers and sisters? Perhaps the only dialogue we should have is with our plant helpers and those beings who have been pushed aside and kept silent all these horrific generations. Let's try it!

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The persistence of the 3-dimensional book

Hi Dave,

You have correctly understood that this is less a piece of social criticism and more a diagnosis of our particular point in the time-cycle. Time -- whether or not it actually exists -- does appear to be accelerating. We can feel this physically, as around us we see the objects that the stagehands have rearranged. It is not surprising that these objects block our view. More surprising: that the stagehands that we see are not usually the same ones that have moved the objects. So: in the foreground we have objects, which we -- as "domesticated animals" or livestock herded to the slaughter -- must once more learn to read as signs, as we fill in all of the relevant missing pieces of the Ur-Text. Our eyes see what is in front of us; to see the rest, a different faculty is required.

You wrote, "When, 12,000 +/- years ago we decided on agriculture and religion, we sealed our fate. The end began. As it accelerates, what does one say? What does one suggest? As this bus careens off the cliff should we open the windows or leave them closed?" I would answer: That this is not the first time that the world has been destroyed. We should go off the cliff with the windows open.

As the man said when he jumped off of the 50th floor of a building, "So far, so good!"

There have, indeed, been many words spoken over the past 12,000 years, and even more words over the past 108,000 years, and even more words over the past 432,000,000 years -- more words all the time, the great majority of them useless. There are those few that are not. "Words, words, words. Endless words," you wrote. Let me add: words float like the wreckage of an inter-dimensional ship on the surface of black water. Gone: the greater part of the ship, its passengers, and its cargo.

You wrote, "Unless we can reintegrate ourselves into the living, conscious, multidimensional web, we will annihilate ourselves and our planetary home. We either will, or we won't, and I'm betting on the latter." As paradoxical as this might seem, to say that we must "reintegrate" ourselves is perhaps to repeat the very mistake that we criticize. Somehow, it is up to us to "fix" the large-scale movement of the cycle -- but perhaps our greed and our alienation and our near-suicidal arrogance are also parts of the process. 

Laird Scranton, in "The Cosmological Origins of Myth and Symbol," writes, "Commensurate with the notion that each Word of the civilizing plan was meant to be reflective of a stage of creation, Ogotemmeli says that one consequence of the introduction of the First Word, like the initial act of perception in a massless wave, was that it resulted in a great deal of confusion and disorder among mankind."

Let us imagine: that we are standing on the curve of a curriculum as solid as the gradually changing surface of the Earth, and as fixed as the Earth's orbit around the sun, as fixed as that of the sun around its hyper-dimensional source. Let us imagine that all of the oceans of the Earth are just stage-sets in a tiny theatre -- a theatre that itself is turning through the oceans of galactic space, whose energetic currents lash the globe. So, is there anything in particular that we should do? I would say: that we must find a way to see and then to act from more than a single location.

It is possible that each step in the march of evolution -- which some, with equal justice, might view as the march of devolution -- has to do with the educational stages that unfold in the primordial egg. Laird Scranton writes, "For the Dogon, as in string or torsion theory, these vibrations occur inside a primordial egg. As we have mentioned, the vibrations, which are characterized by the Dogon as the seven rays of a star of increasing length, eventually grow long enough to pierce the egg. This act of piercing, which the Dogon consider to be both the eighth and culminating stage of a first egg and the initiating stage of a new egg, is defined as the conceptual point at which the finished Word is spoken. For both the Dogon and modern astrophysicists, these eggs in a series form the membranes that constitute the woven fabric of matter. Consequently, the process by which matter is formed is compared by the Dogon priests to the act of ‘weaving words.'"

We can certainly view words as just another type of object. If we do then they are just more clutter, which, at some point, we must clear away. Let us also imagine, however, that our words may still conceal some spark of genuine power: that they are tools of memory -- the quaint traces of a supernatural technology -- and that, even in our semi-conscious state, we can use them to transmit, to embody, and to reveal.

Somantics had advised me, "Language is black magic and the double edged sword. Please only take it out of the sheath to reflect light into the dark not to hack away at gifts placed around you." But, to my mind, this is simply a description of the two-fold movement of primordial energy, and of the particle/ wave ambiguity of the serpent-force itself. This is just what Kundalini does: At the beginning of each cycle, it can be sent forth-like a beam from the forehead -- to create; at the end, it frees energy from its projection into form. It is the potency that can generate either knowledge or illusion, that directs us in through the door of the strange labyrinth that is History, and then out again, bearing gifts.

You wrote, "Is it possible (this idea keeps cropping up in my head) that we should stop reading, writing and talking?" My thoughts, also, have often wandered in this direction. During the early 1990s, almost every day for several years, I felt overwhelmed by a flood of other-dimensional information, which proved no more difficult to access than my breathing. On the one hand, it almost felt like an assault, on the other, death appeared to be my friend, and it did not seem necessary that I should slow the process down. Space was transparent from one end to the other. The records of all time periods were now simultaneously present.

In a poem called "Opening of the Records" I had written "War will be declared on the improper use of trees. Books will have no pages. Telepaths will judge the haunted farms. Few of the many will not at first go mad."

During this period, I worked with a sociopath called Richard, who had confessed to me that, after being fired from his job as a software engineer, he had purchased a rifle with which to kill his former coworkers and friends. A few practical considerations had interfered with his plan. He also believed that Hitler had been too soft on the Jews -- an unexpected attitude, considering that he was Jewish. He was a sociopath, yes, with a very limited insight into people, but he did have an amazing eye for the carefully hidden weakness. Once, he had asked me, "If you have so much faith in what you call "Akashic Memory," then why do you have so many thousands of books in your house?" He had me there. As a husband and a father, I have learned to make due with a less absolute approach.

If the Akashic Memory and its bank tellers have any use for me at all, I doubt that it is as an example of perfection! I can barely remember what I said to my wife yesterday, or to pick up milk at the store.

If we are swept along by a process that is as perfect as if needs to be, then why should we add our words to the total of those spoken? Let us think of space as the preexistent sun -- as a sphere whose center is both local and non-local -- and of the last 12,000 years of civilization as the moon. In a "total eclipse," from our vantage point, the moon appears to be a foreground object that blocks access to illumination. A foreground ball of rock conjuncts a background ball of flame. How odd then that their sizes match up so exactly! My words point to the fact that the sun has not departed from its orbit.

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On the immanence of the "future world"

Hi Gary (Lachman),

In "Ghosts of futures past," you wrote, "Tomorrow is yesterday, only a little more expensive. History is littered with the ruins of the future. We step over them every day."

Much thanks for your cryptic comment. It is a poem really, as slippery as a fish. In trying to get a sense of how your three-apparently simple-sentences fit together, I can empathize with those readers who find the density of my style to be a challenge.

Your comment -- let us call it a "cryptogram" -- poses questions that do not always or only have one answer. My imagination could take a statement like "History is littered with the ruins of the future" in quite a number of ways, and then pursue each of them in any number of directions, all of them productive. Whereas science moves to one falsifiable end, and, at each step, brings details into sharper and sharper focus, the cryptogram makes a method out of the madness of the wave/ particle duality of the serpent-force, and is content to keep the greater part of its meaning under wraps.

Curiously, it is this very difficulty that may put wings on our ankles. "The mind is a muscle," as they said in parochial school, which grows stronger by being pushed to its breaking point, and beyond. It is this very difficulty that may be of help in our efforts to break through and out of the eggshell of the psyche, there to access the web of non-local correspondences.

There is a kind of world weary humor in the statement "Tomorrow is yesterday, only a little more expensive." This might lead me to impart a certain fatalism, or even cynicism, to what follows. But the lines "History is littered with the ruins of the future. We step over them every day" could just as easily be read as a visionary statement, along the lines of "The Kingdom of Heaven is spread out all around you, but you see it not." Did you mean to imply that the future already exists, in and of itself, or did you mean that we were surrounded by the ruins of failed social engineering projects? 

But no, wait a minute; it might be best if you don't answer that! Let me fight the temptation to jump to any premature conclusions. It is a clear day, with only a few dark clouds and tornadoes in the sky. The sun is out. A bolt of lightning will illuminate -- as needed --  the next lines in the Ur-Text. The dead actor will come to appreciate his strange role in the drama.

There are many worlds, and each corresponds to a particular mode of interpretation. Once resonating beyond time, and simultaneous, the worlds are flattened and projected into horizontal space. At an angle to the Earth, downward, through the circuits of the non-local vehicle of the body, we experience life, first, from the outside in and then later from the inside out. Signs do their best to inform us of what ancient city we are visiting.

See: over there is Ashur, with its ziggurats, with its faster-than-light discs, and beyond that is Los Alamos, with its logarithmic fungi, with its self-constructing buttresses of flame, and beyond that is New York, where the torch of a spiked statue is just visible above the sand, and beyond that is Mohenjo Daru, with its seed-bins and its forced austerity, where, a hair's breadth from the flood, they have dared to reinvent the wheel, and beyond that is CERN's eight-mile-wide particle accelerator, and beyond that is the Zero, the non-dimensional city that is also known as Ur, still collapsing on the edge of a black hole. 

It is possible that we will have lost -- at some stop along the way-our eyes. The signs will speak loudly, but we may not hear, and, if we do, then we may still be too afraid to understand. It will be up to us to do something useful with the ruins. Among them, there are those still bursting with inhabitants, some few of which are as clear as glass.

10

The Theatre of the Zodiac

Hi Don (Shake),

You wrote, "Although I have admitted to you that I have difficulty with some writings of yours -- indicating that they were over my head -- this one was on the edge of my capability to understand and enjoy. And after reading all of the comments above, which acknowledged and expanded upon my perceived understanding, broadening my enjoyment -- as if to say ‘Here you go Don, this will help you even more' -- I'm now somehow different -- improved -- from who I was before reading it. The Devil is in the details.'"

As always, it is a pleasure to hear from you. Part of the difficulty with interpretation that you describe has to do with my background as a writer; I had written seven books of poetry before turning my attention to prose. Even when I start out by trying to be as direct as possible, as I did here, each piece I write tends to go through several dozen revisions, and, in the process, my tendency towards paradox tends to reconfigure all ideas.

I do not think in terms of either/ or oppositions. And lately, as I struggle to push beyond the whole concept of duality, I find that most social and political modes of discourse are inadequate to the moment.

Much mainstream economic theory since the 18th Century assumes that we are rational actors, who, in maximizing their individual gains will also do what is best for the body politic: I do not see this at all. The decentralized autocracy is adept at playing games, as well as at manufacturing the illusion of consent. The top one percent hold 42 percent of the wealth, and Joe Average is convinced that he will soon become a billionaire. If top experts build a chain of nuclear reactors on a fault-line, then there is no way that an accident could occur. Risk/ benefit analysis will direct us to one conclusion: That atomic fission is the best way to boil water. In the event of a catastrophic meltdown, there is, in fact, no downside for the well-prepared investor: The cost, of necessity, will be borne by six billion others. In the same mode: Oil is not a finite resource, and we can never have too many cars.

Logic tells us that these things are true. No leaps of imagination are required -- or, within a public realm defined by the five large media conglomerates-allowed. Indeed, such concepts must be classified as facts, since the alternatives are, quite literally, unthinkable. We are just getting started. We are young, and any alternate interpretations could throw a monkey wrench in our plans.

The 812 million cars now in the world are still far fewer than we would need to build a bridge to Pluto. Annually, more than 270 billion gallons of petroleum are burned. We have not yet located the reserves of off-planet oil. It is just a matter of time! Each year, also, great breakthroughs are being made in such earth-bound fields as agriculture. In the days before genetic engineering -- to which we will here refer as the Dark Ages -- seeds used to be left to reproduce by themselves. Now, they can be purchased at the beginning of each season from Monsanto. Let us say that a single seed is smart enough to fill up the entire world: Just how would this be a good thing? Our scientists would have no way to improve it, or to patent its explosive force.

The more we accumulate the less we have -- and, almost certainly, there is nothing left to give. Divide and conquer. A world of superconscious cellphones  and of wage-slaves working 90 hours a week to buy products they cannot afford. Every Freedom Fighter for him/ herself. The Devil is in the details. So yes: Strange forces are at work -- or so the rational actor might conclude.

On the other hand, in many of the recent crop of conspiracy theories, the theorizers assume that powerful -- almost omniscient -- forces have worked in consort to subject the human race from a time before the pyramids were built: Such theories whet my imagination but do not satisfy my hunger. There is no point to escaping from the personal version of the shadow into an even more grandiose method of projection. Like the children of abusive parents, such theorizers tend to mythologize evil, which they do not see as sad. Taking comfort from the knot in their collective solar plexus, as from the locked door of a closet, they underestimate the breadth and depth of what a human being is, and, ever anxious to assign blame, mischaracterize the role of the alternate self in the scripting of events.

Contemptuous of death, we are the actors who have volunteered to be sacrificed to the God of Bi-location. Birth is an initiatory passage into a fuller knowledge of the figure eight. Let us imagine that, after 26,000 years of progress through each step of a curriculum, we are now, at the time that we should have learned our lesson, in a state of economic and political and environmental freefall. But what seems, from one angle, like a form of linear progress or decline, can, with greater accuracy perhaps, be viewed as a convoluted movement through a sphere. Parmenides, in a discourse called "The Real," describes this sphere as a presence of which it could be said, very simply, that: "It is."

In this discourse, Parmenides makes the somewhat outrageous claim that the part is exactly equal to -- and in no way lesser than -- the whole. He says, "Wherefore it is not permitted to what is to be infinite, for it is in need of nothing, while, if it were infinite, it would stand in need of everything." A paradoxical point, to say the least, which, if taken at face value, can prompt a kind of hallucinatory boomerang effect, a radical subversion of one's sense of scale. A bit later in the discourse, he continues, "Since, then, it has a furthest limit, it is complete on every side, like the mass of a sphere, equally poised from the center point in every direction; for it cannot be greater or smaller in one place than another. For there is nothing that could keep it from reaching out equally, nor can anything that is be more here and less there than what is, since it is all inviolable. For the point from which it is equal in every direction tends equally to the limits."

Parmenides, of course, presents us with a relatively static image of this sphere: it has some, but not all, of the attributes of a Hypersphere -- as though human beings were just statues, and not actors, as though the living and the dead were not each other's food.

I would argue that fresh data is the life's blood of the sphere. I would argue too: that if all energy is a form of encoded information, and vice versa, then we can view light either as a particle or a wave. On the one hand: we exist in a particular location, with all of the potential for stupidity that implies. On the other hand: we have an implant ---the pineal gland -- that allows us to change scale, and it is our job to restore the transparency of space. If not now, when? And if we don't, then who will?

Part of the process of coming to terms with the crisis that we face has to do with following where each contradiction leads: We must, at some point, find the means to reenter the clear consciousness that surrounds us.  

Often, I imagine that the Zodiac is a theatre, at the center of which is our small, illuminated stage. The Assembly Beyond Space has memorized every action in the drama. Ideas are the paper stage-props that our future selves will remove. The actors will be too big to even fit inside of the theatre!

--New posts every 2-3 days on my blog Masks of Origin

http://masksoforigin.blogspot.com/

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I get the sense that Brian

I get the sense that Brian here has brushed up against something larger than ourselves, yet simultaneously part of ourselves. Like a heavy stone piece of ancient furniture, a monolith in a darkened room, he has come up against something that we all can sense in one way or another. Words are sometimes a stumbling block for a sensation that we have yet attributed a phrase for. When a feeling strikes you and you feel it so strongly in the marrow of your bones, it rings with assurance like the changing of seasons. I can identify with his reluctance to even write about some of the visions he’s had and that sometimes the dreaminess with which they are written, as sometimes that’s the closest we can come to them. The language with which we have these conversations is akin to speaking Legalese, in that the words must be studied and digested before we’re able to utter them. Yet somewhere when we hear these things, deep down its as if we already knew them and suddenly say, “but of course! I knew this all along.” We are certainly in the days of great change and transition. I can safely say that we are not approaching them, but we are in the act of a long and inevitable shift. Optimistically for the better I hope, but can only see a short-term bout of uprooting and discomfort to say the least. The symptoms of wealth inequality, global pollution, hatred for one another and a general disconnect between fellow man, almost lends to the idea of something running amok in our world, of which we are a part and responsible for. I have to wonder if this rift we’re experiencing in the world is the reeling of two opposing separate forces of light and darkness, or rather something more complex and yet simple. It seems that we’re actually taking part and witnessing a rift within the collective self, that we’ve been through before and that we’re experiencing again through a large-scale alchemical process. Outward is inward, and inward is up…

Nostalgia for the future of geometry on Io

Hi Jameson,

You wrote, “Yet somewhere when we hear these things, deep down its as if we already knew them and suddenly say, “but of course! I knew this all along.”We are certainly in the days of great change and transition. I can safely say that we are not approaching them, but we are in the act of a long and inevitable shift. Optimistically for the better I hope, but can only see a short-term bout of uprooting and discomfort to say the least. The symptoms of wealth inequality, global pollution, hatred for one another and a general disconnect between fellow man, almost lends to the idea of something running amok in our world, of which we are a part and responsible for.”

You have made so many good points that I hardly know where to begin. First, this “Aha! But of course!” response that you mention is, I think, a sign of the discovery of genuine knowledge—as opposed to mere information. Tesla and Einstein, for example, describe this experience as being at the heart of their working methods. Both had a sense of a theory or the solution to some problem as having almost an independent existence in the future; the future called back to the past, and the end found a way to reverse engineer the means.

Over the past couple of years, more and more people have begun to try to figure out just what “non-duality” might mean, and to then make practical use of intuition as a tool of navigation, as they attempt to get from where they are to a place that does not yet physically exist.

It is an odd thing: this business of becoming our own teachers, of using, but, of necessity reinventing, all of the traditions that we have been fortunate enough to receive. Certainly, we must make use of the best available resources, but the convergence of social, political, economic, ecological, and spiritual crises, while not unique to human history, is something that has not happened on such a global level in many thousands of years.

If we look to the root meanings of the word “education,” from “educare”: “to bring forth,” we will be momentarily at an impasse—for who actually knows enough to lead us anywhere, or to call forth something that now exists in only the most rudimentary form? Trusting not in any person or set of beliefs, but rather in the unbroken perfection that exists beyond the human scale, we must somehow leap beyond the veil of our own ignorance, in order that we may once again return, and be able to lead our present versions step by step.

(Illustration: Brian George, Key figure with cyclops head, 2004)

Thank You

Brian, this article has changed my life.  It brings together about 10 different strings of thought that have been hanging around my head over the last couple of days, and affirms for me that I should go ahead with some plans that were previously purely tentative.  I also stand in awe of the massive amount of material you processed for this article, and the skill with which you did so; the wide range of references and analytical insight you provide impress and inspire me.  Your writing provides guidance in ways you don’t realize, and I just wanted to thank you for that.

The art of weaving

Hi Fightfromwithin,

You wrote, “This article brings together about 10 different strings of thought that have been hanging around my head over the last couple of days, and affirms for me that I should go ahead with some plans that were previously purely tentative.”

Sorry to take so long in responding to your wonderful comment. I must admit that I was savoring your response to the essay, and was pausing to examine it, like a gift, before getting back to you. You can’t know how much I would like my writing to be of practical use to people. This may not be at all obvious on the surface; the work is dense and allusive at times, I know, and is sometimes closer to poetry or esoteric philosophy than to what you would expect to find in typical expository prose. The response of many people to my work is, “I can see what you’re trying to do, and can appreciate it to some extent, but why don’t you write in a totally different way?”

During one semester at Mass. College of Art, where I went back to school to get my teaching credentials, I had a philosophy teacher called Jasminka Udivicki, who refused to grade any of my essays. “This is not really expository prose at all! I can enjoy it to some degree as poetry, but the language is inappropriate for philosophical discourse. And your “New Age” tendencies certainly don’t help!” I revised things in order to tighten up my arguments and solidify my references, but this only made things longer, and she was not pleased. Luckily, she couldn’t bring herself to give me a bad grade for the semester, and I ended up with an A minus. This was nonetheless quite frustrating: I had wanted to come up with a stylistic synthesis that would challenge both me and her, at the same time that it clearly addressed all of the philosophical issues under discussion.

In the short run, it seems, I failed—not so much in terms of the essays, which I liked, but I had failed to establish direct being to being contact, and to “be of use.” It was not the first time, and it would not be the last. So, when I say that I very much appreciate your kind words, and the fact that this essay has been of some use to you: please know, that it is coming from the heart.

I don’t want this comment to turn into an essay, so let me say, very simply, that my approach to writing can be traced back to the writers who have influenced me: What I write exists as a dialogue or a tribute to what I like to read. One of the first writers to influence me was Arthur Rimbaud, whose “A Season in Hell” and “Illuminations” I have read perhaps 300 times. A few—out of a great many other—influences are: Rainer Maria Rilke, George Seferis, Georg Luis Borges, and Czselaw Milosz. A number of these writers I couldn’t understand too well when I first read them, but the resistance their work offered is also what drew me deeper into it.

For me, this surface resistance is what galvanized my expanded capacity to understand. To offer a comparison: traditionally, in studying with a teacher in India or China, for example, the teacher may or may not say much of anything, for some lengthy period of time, about what the student wants to know. The teacher embodies a certain type of knowledge, and teaches by his presence. It is up to the student to find a way to appropriate what he wants to know—to get inside the teacher’s head, and to imitate his way of moving. This “way of moving” is what I remember most vividly about all of the teachers who have influenced me. Of necessity, it is the approach that one must take when you are reading something on the page—since the writer is just not there to answer any questions. Somewhat difficult if he is dead!

Now, on to your comment about the 10 strands of thought being brought together: you have zeroed in on one of the metaphors that I use to explain my approach to writing and creative exploration—that of “weaving.” In addition, you have chosen the number 10, which is also central to my cosmology.

I sometimes refer to “the 10-D vehicle of the body.” When I was younger, I studied Kabbalah for a number of years, and perhaps this led to my focus on the number 10. There are certainly other was to envision the dimensions, and many, somewhat contradictory, ways to diagram how they overlap and intersect, but I believe that there is something very primal about the number 10—a number which is, after all, made up of a 1 and a zero. We do not really think of Roman or Indian/ Arabic numerals as the remnants of a cosmology, but I do believe that they are, and both systems affirm the centrality of the 10.

So we have 10 “strands” that are being “woven”: this act of weaving is the reason that “Cosmogenesis; In a Small Boat, Drifting on the Ocean” exists at all. The essay grew out of the forum for a piece that I posted on RS at 2008 global economic collapse. After every forum, I try to scan through all of the material, to pick out key images and patterns and themes—which may be somewhat different from those of the essay that prompted the forum—and then “weave“ these into some semblance of an essay. Sorting and cutting and rearranging reveals “threads” that might not have been immediately apparent. About three months ago, when I was reviewing and editing the material for “Masks of Origin/ Part 3; The Transplantation of Omphalos,” I realized that the earlier version of this piece did not really hold up at all. The comments by participants in the forum were quite good, but my responses had been superficial. Or, viewed in a different light: perhaps my original comments had been like seeds—cotton seeds, let’s say—that had been planted and come up again as a fresh crop of cotton to be harvested, combed through, and then spun again into “threads.”

These threads can be separated into a number of different categories: Some threads are political and social; some have to do with personal biography; some are connected to 20th Century poetry and art; some come out of direct inter-dimensional experience; some come out of observations of creative processes in nature; some originate in alternate theories of Prehistory, and in my own experiences of what existed before Time. The “Occupy Wall Street” movement began when I was about halfway through this revision, which intensified my focus on the threads of social commentary.

This process of weaving relates to a tradition that I mentioned in section 8 of the essay—that of the Dogon. This is a quote from Laird Scranton that I particularly like: “This act of piercing, which the Dogon consider to be both the eighth and culminating stage of a first egg and the initiating stage  For both the Dogon and modern astrophysicists, these eggs in a series form the membranes that constitute the woven fabric of matter. Consequently, the process by which matter is formed is compared by the Dogon priests to the act of ‘weaving words.’"

(Illustration: Brian George, Head, split open, 2004)

 

Being to Being Contact

Brian,

It is uplifting to read all of the ways my post resonated with you. The significance to you of the number 10 and strands to be woven, and the fact that I happened to include them, seems more than just coinidence.  It does seem being-to-being contact has been made, as I have noticed myself changing over the past few days around my relationship to the ideas (the ones I understand) that you've presented in cosmogenesis as they fit into my life context.  I even wrote a visionary monologue this morning, the first one I've ever written, and I wouldn't have done so if I hadn't seen this essay. I have heard of Rimbaud, but have not read his work; I will be reading it soon enough, along with the other authors you've provided here, and some others I want to read but whose work I don't own.  I'm just beginning my inquiry into spiritual and cosmic matters, and I am profoundly grateful for the instructive information you've shared in your response to my post, and in your original essay and other works. The great thing about poetry is that it gives the open mind a lot of opportunities to see things differently.  Thanks again, I look forward to your coming statements.

Translations

Hi Fightfromwithin,

 

Here are some good translations of the writers that I mentioned:

Arthur Rimbaud: “A Season in Hell and Illuminations”—the new translation by Wyatt Mason is impressive. For the “Collected Works,” the versions by Paul Schmidt and Wallace Fowley have things to recommend them. I have never found one translator that completely satisfies me.

George Seferis: “Collected Poems”—translated by Keeley and Sherrard.

Czeslaw Milosz: “Selected Poems”—various translators, some by the author.

Jorge Luis Borges: “Collected Fictions”—translated by Hurley. “Dreamtigers” is also wonderful, and was my introduction to Borges when I was 18. It’s a mix of shorter prose pieces and poems. The translation I have is by Morland and Boyer.

Here is poem 1 from Seferis’s “Logbook.” Curiously, I just noticed that the book begins with an epigraph from Rimbaud. I used to study Seferis to figure out how the ancient and the modern world could be presented as the parts of a single landscape.

Three years

we waited intently for the herald

closely watching

the pines the shore the stars.

One with the plow’s blade or the keel of the ship,

We were searching to rediscover the first seed

so that the ancient drama could begin again.

 

We returned to our homes broken,

limbs incapable, mouths cracked

by the taste of rust and brine.

When we woke we travelled towards the north, strangers

plunged into mists by the spotless wings of swans

that wounded us.

On winter nights the strong wind from the east maddened us,

in the summers we were lost in the agony of the day that

couldn’t die.

 

We brought back

these carved reliefs of a humble art.

 

(Illustration: Brian George, Ship on high seas, 2004)

Also, Henri Michaux

Hi Fightfromwithin,

In listing modernist writers with a visionary bent, I forgot to mention one of the most wildly original writers from mid-century--Henri Michaux. He was also one of the pioneers in the exploration of hallucinogens, and made effective use of these experiences in his work. I mentined him in this context in the forum for Aelous Kephas's "The Serpent's Promise," and posted these few excerpts from his work:

“He who has rejected his demons badgers us to death with his angels”   

“It is preferable not to travel with a dead man.”

"It’s the rare person I meet whom I don’t want to beat up. Others favor the interior monologue, stream-of-consciousness, art and dreams. Not me. I like to beat people up."

“The Surrealist supernatural is a bit predictable but given the choice between supernatural and anything else, I would have no hesitation. Long live supernatural!”

And a poem--"Magic, Part 1":

There was a time when I was truly nervous. Now I’m on a new track:

I put an apple on the table. Then I can put myself in the apple. What peace!

It seems so simple. However, I tried this trick for twenty years and I’d never have achieved my aim by starting that way. Why not? Maybe because I’d have felt humiliated, conscious of the apple’s meager proportions and its slow, dim life. Maybe. Bedstead thoughts are rarely pretty from below.

So I started in another way, uniting myself with the Escaut River.

The Escaut at Anvers, where I found it, is large and important and has a strong flow. Great ships may present themselves, but the current simply carries them. This is a river, all right. The real thing.

Yes, I resolved to make myself one with it. I hung around the wharf at all hours. Yet this was to squander myself in all sorts of useless study.

What’s more, against my better judgment, I’d watch women from time to time, and that’s something a river won’t stand for; not even an apple will put up with it; nothing in nature will.

So there I was: the Escaut and a thousand sensations. What to do? Suddenly, having renounced everything, I found myself . . . , I won’t say taking the river’s place, because, to tell the truth, that was never quite it. For one thing, it runs incessantly (which is a real problem), and it slides toward Holland, where it reaches the sea and an altitude of zero.

So, I’m back at the apple. There too I have fumbled and fiddled—a long story. It’s a struggle to escape, and likewise to explain myself.

But I can tell you something in one word: suffering.

Once I entered that apple, I was frozen stiff.

Thanks

Much appreciated, Brian.  I've got some reading to do!  Here's the first half of the visionary monologue I wrote the other day, stream-of-consciousness style. It doesn't overtly relate to cosmogenesis, though it was prompted by it.

Placed alongside the running father orchestra, the train machine came blasting powerful.  Twice the flavor of the original masterpiece, the time cannon undid every kind of flaccid outcome of the undercooked first time around.  Mashed bananas made the transition from the forest work to the satellite life twenty times more upsetting, but better than he thought it had the chance.  Harvest the oracles, shed harsh light on their insights, paint the part of the brain understanding why, wash the marketplace of the smell of greatness.  Fabulous mores make the way clearer, emerging shrimps corral the weak behind their own triple youthfulness, the past alone cuts the pasted shame from the kicking dreams of jokers and portly masters.  Ciphers following the clues hopping around the world brave harsh frozen starlit beaches positioned gravely outside the staunch liberal outposts.  Coral moist and hollow kneels forever within waters glowing pinched for the balance of where the year has gone.  Portraiture from the land otherwise sapphire crows forcibly for attention from fervent deniers of the trusted faces.  Packing dense groups of happy mortals beneath orange garb neat in movement, hoping to try for vindication powerful disposal, valence necessarily undone.  Sabotage cranes the neck here political, freedom staring dead eyes inside, exact moments wander freely among fragmented calculations pelicans saved for us.  Tasmanian Devils corpulent and quick traipse worthy of warfare alone through falconry grounds, vortexing harbingers of waterfall craters outlandish and nesting trainees volume and space dependent.  Qualitatively unusual outside of glass manuscripts, hologram cantors belch power for night smashing spans of horticulture, boredom hallucinates the answer.  Severity confounds the latent minister, sorts of ghostly good command the timid prince to find his way alone.  Seconds into it, hell raises ferocious cowards grotesque and violent, never out of touch with yesterday’s hip replacements for vector red westerns. 

At the factory of prosthetic limbs

Hi Fightfromwithin,

In my mid-teens, I began to stay up late. The night was Mystery, and I wanted to establish a relationship with it. One night, when I was 16, at perhaps 1:00-2:00 AM, I experienced a sudden rush of inspiration, and it occurred to me that I could write. I had been drifting in the direction of books for several years, but my major interests were not different from those of my childhood group of friends, and still had to do with the outdoors—long bike trips, camping, mountain climbing (or bridge, tree, and building climbing when in the city), baseball, basketball, and hanging out on the porch. And then, in one overwhelming flash, I had a glimpse of what I would be doing for the next—so far—50 years. This type of thing is exciting, and I hope that you will continue to explore in the direction of your monologue.

I can sense how your relationship to language is undergoing a shift. You are testing the possibilities of using language to create, as well as to describe. You are asking, “What are the implications of my using language as a navigational tool, as a technology of intuition?" You now begin sentences without knowing where they are going to end, but the rhythmic intelligence of the sentence then takes over, to lock some provisional meaning into place. The next image becomes like a lamp that moves before you in a dream, held by a presence that stays always at the edges of your vision. Nonetheless, there is a strange but somehow reassuring promise in the air: that the poet’s eyes will soon be radically reconfigured.

In section 13 of my book “Maps of the Metaphysical Double; In the Footprints of de Chirico,” I have a passage that also begins with the word “Severity,” which is used in an embodied form. There are some curious overlaps with your own passage. Among other things, see “hip replacements” and “factory of prosthetic limbs.”

In your passage beginning with the word “Severity,” you wrote:

“Severity confounds the latent minister, sorts of ghostly good command the timid prince to find his way alone. Seconds into it, hell raises ferocious cowards grotesque and violent, never out of touch with yesterday’s hip replacements for vector red westerns.”

And here is a passage from toward the end of section 13 in my de Chirico book:

“Severity now stalks the station where once the 8 were exported to Ionia. The blind seer dreams that he doesn’t wake up.

“It is possible, however, that our ignorance is a hoax, a strategy that the double has instituted for our safety. Our enemies would destroy us. Quickly, for our supernatural weapons are in storage. The years have rusted our battle skills. We have lost the subtle art of bi-location. Should our memories return, our egos would be transformed into spheres.

“At the factory of prosthetic limbs there would not be any workers. Row upon row, the fluorescent lights would fail. The silence would be louder than any noise. In mid-turn, every crankshaft would be frozen.”

(Illustration: Giorgio de Chirico, Turin Spring, 1914)

At the factory of prosthetic limbs

Hi Fightfromwithin,

In my mid-teens, I began to stay up late. The night was Mystery, and I wanted to establish a relationship with it. One night, when I was 16, at perhaps 1:00-2:00 Am, I experienced a sudden rush of inspiration, and it occurred to me that I could write. I had been drifting in the direction of books for several years, but my major interests were not different from those of my childhood group of friends, and still had to do with the outdoors—long bike trips, camping, mountain climbing (or bridge, tree, and building climbing when in the city), baseball, basketball, and hanging out on the porch. And then, in one overwhelming flash, I had a glimpse of what I would be doing for the next—so far—50 years. This type of thing is exciting, and I hope that you will continue to explore in the direction of your monologue.

I can sense how your relationship to language is undergoing a shift. You are testing the possibilities of using language to create, as well as to describe. You are asking, “What are the implications of my using language as a navigational tool, as a technology of intuition? You now begin sentences without knowing where they are going to end, but the rhythmic intelligence of the sentence then takes over, to lock some provisional meaning into place. The next image becomes like a lamp that moves before you in a dream, held by a presence that stays always at the edges of your vision. Nonetheless, there is a strange but somehow reassuring promise in the air: that the poet’s eyes will soon be radically reconfigured.

In section 13 of my book “Maps of the Metaphysical Double; In the Footprints of de Chirico,” I have a passage that also begins with the word “Severity,” which is used in an embodied form. There are some curious overlaps with your own passage. Among other things, see “hip replacements” and “factory of prosthetic limbs.”

In your passage beginning with the word “Severity,” you wrote:

“Severity confounds the latent minister, sorts of ghostly good command the timid prince to find his way alone. Seconds into it, hell raises ferocious cowards grotesque and violent, never out of touch with yesterday’s hip replacements for vector red westerns.”

And here is a passage from toward the end of section 13 in my de Chirico book:

“Severity now stalks the station where once the 8 were exported to Ionia. The blind seer dreams that he doesn’t wake up.

“It is possible, however, that our ignorance is a hoax, a strategy that the double has instituted for our safety. Our enemies would destroy us. Quickly, for our supernatural weapons are in storage. The years have rusted our battle skills. We have lost the subtle art of bi-location. Should our memories return, our egos would be transformed into spheres.

“At the factory of prosthetic limbs there would not be any workers. Row upon row, the fluorescent lights would fail. The silence would be louder than any noise. In mid-turn, every crankshaft would be frozen.”

(Illustration: Giorgio de Chirico, Turin Spring, 1914)

Writing

Brian, you wrote: "I can sense how your relationship to language is undergoing a shift. You are testing the possibilities of using language to create, as well as to describe. You are asking, “What are the implications of my using language as a navigational tool, as a technology of intuition? You now begin sentences without knowing where they are going to end, but the rhythmic intelligence of the sentence then takes over, to lock some provisional meaning into place. The next image becomes like a lamp that moves before you in a dream, held by a presence that stays always at the edges of your vision. Nonetheless, there is a strange but somehow reassuring promise in the air: that the poet’s eyes will soon be radically reconfigured." 

Thanks so much for the highly sensitive input.  This paragraph will actually help me to study and refine my creative process as I continue writing, which I can't say of much of the other input I've received.  And once again, synchronicity.  By the way, my monologue had no expressed purpose when I wrote it, but I now know it to be about the decay of the current reality, and the preparations being made for the new state of consciousness that will create it, or help it to metamorphose.

fresh air

Brian wrote: "My sense is that we are entering a period of transition in the relationship between dimensions, in which the interaction between the vertical and the horizontal axes will be redefined. No exchange will be fixed, and a shock wave will run upwards, through the "higher" worlds, as well as outwards, through the global body. It is possible that there will be no non-participants in the revolution against History... I [mean] to suggest that we all will be swept up by the unfolding of the time-cycle, for better or for worse, as we have been by the collapse of the world economy... If we are, in fact, involved in some vast process of cosmogenesis, it is always possible that we do not need to know more than we do. As fetuses, our job is to be what and where we are."

This is a great comfort to me. But I also get the nagging sense of something more, that just beyond the grasp of willful apprehension we are not entirely passive. The fetus cannot apprehend what awaits outside the womb, but has a sense of it from the sounds and motions experience prenatally. And there may be evidence that the fetus triggers labor.

So here we are floating in our own piss of ecological catastrophe, outgrown and upside-down in our systems and institutions, collectively kicking at the walls of our incomprehensible confinement, while patient Mother ever provides and prepares for the shock-wave[s] of labor. She loves us deeply even now, as she urgently wants us expelled from this untenable state and into the cradle of the next dimension.

I, for one, can't wait to breathe the fresh air out there.

They have gone down to the center of the Earth

Hi Zympht and Fightfromwithin,

I seem to have accidently posted my response to the comment on the fetus twice, and it is difficult to take posts down once they go up. Let me put something in it's place that related both to the idea of the initiate as fetus and the idea of the human body/mind as a 10-D vehicle. This is an excerpt from "They have gone down to the center of the Earth," which is Section 3 from "To Akasha/ Part 2." It reads:

The guide said:

“The man-made moon was whiter than a wrecking ball in heat. A black lead zeppelin had set fire to Siberia. Trees turned to matchsticks. Ruins flashed under permafrost. Rest period was up. Primogenitors ate their instructions. From the mouth of the most high the craft erupted with a bang. Get out!

“Take wife. Erect out of mud the backward City of the Sun. Cross-pollinate the brain that the scarab out of dung raised. Your solar plexus is not old enough. No intestinal fortitude! Seek love through war. Out of hide make ego. Bend with a spade to shovel seashells from the sandbox. When you are done boys--put them back.

“The great eye dropped a map across your mother, muse to German shepherds. She was great to the dream boats of the prehistoric navy. Rotten to the corps.

“Don’t touch me baby or the energy will kill you. I will teach you how to play. Dead.

“You who hang head downward from the rafters of a hollow egg--your head is hollow. Through it blows an age of wind. At last my dear one I can show you how the gears that turn the great year interlock. I love you so much—mutant DNA of the Triumvirate. Get out! Break a thighbone! We will guide you from a place beyond the Zodiac.”

Having taken me this far, my guide fell silent for a century. He stared unblinking at an object known only to himself. There was nowhere I could go.

In a flash it came to me—that the underworld is no more than an alternate mode of consciousness. It is subject to its laws, and responds to a shift in focus. Lost cities turned to gold as my consciousness accelerated. The gods were holy terrors. Ferocious beauties competed for my love. I attended a refresher course in the art of primordial breathing. Raising a hand palm outwards, the guide said:

  “To Amalekh: made plain is the book—signs in your own language. If you do not read the signs will talk. Warning: your memory will be blotted utterly from under Shamaim.”

Fear tested my ecstatic transport. At the center of time/space, and lifted by opposing vortices, I flew.

The vehicle had not yet self-destructed. As quickly as he had come, my guide again disappeared. I could not recognize my own face in the mirror. He had never left. He lifted my dead hand with his adamantine talons. A squeeze issued the commandment: "Come."

(Illustration: Max Ernst, Loplop)

 

The telepathic playthings of the fetus

Hi Zympht,

You wrote, “The fetus cannot apprehend what awaits outside the womb, but has a sense of it from the sounds and motions experience prenatally. And there may be evidence that the fetus triggers labor.” Yes, I think that this gets to the heart of one of the key issues, which is as follows: How much do we really know, and where does this knowledge come from? It was not my intention in this piece to provide any easy answers.

For many years, I have experience a kind of split or multi-leveled type of consciousness, in which one part of my being was located on the Earth, looking outwards, and another—equally real and immediate part—was located at what I can only describe as “the edge of space.” The more familiar part was the tiny actor “Brian,” who was a husband and father, worried about mortgage payments, and worked too many hours at a job that he didn’t like, and the other, less familiar but perhaps more important part, observed more or less impartially, but would provide assistance or corrections at strategic moments, and would, in his/ her own peculiar way, answer many of the questions that I asked.

I hint at this dynamic throughout the essay, but the last paragraph provides a more direct description. It reads, “Often, I imagine that the Zodiac is a theatre, at the center of which is our small, illuminated stage. The Assembly Beyond Space has memorized every action in the drama. Ideas are the paper stage-props that our future selves will remove. The actors will be too big to even fit inside of the theatre!” Curiously—and paradoxically—the experience of this two-part consciousness is, for me at least, the key to overcoming a literal interpretation of duality. The goal for us as fetuses, perhaps, is to be simultaneously at home both inside and outside of the womb.

All of the things that you reference—the “piss of ecological catastrophe,” “upside-down systems and institutions” etc.,--are certainly quite real, and should not be air-brushed away or treated euphemistically, but I also believe that they can be read as signs which point us towards some larger version of reality.

(Illustration: Victor Brauner, Acolo)

wellspring

Brian wrote: "For many years, I have experience a kind of split or multi-leveled type of consciousness, in which one part of my being was located on the Earth, looking outwards, and another—equally real and immediate part—was located at what I can only describe as “the edge of space.” The more familiar part was the tiny actor “Brian,” who was a husband and father, worried about mortgage payments, and worked too many hours at a job that he didn’t like, and the other, less familiar but perhaps more important part, observed more or less impartially, but would provide assistance or corrections at strategic moments, and would, in his/ her own peculiar way, answer many of the questions that I asked... The Assembly Beyond Space has memorized every action in the drama. ... the experience of this two-part consciousness is, for me at least, the key to overcoming a literal interpretation of duality. The goal for us as fetuses, perhaps, is to be simultaneously at home both inside and outside of the womb... I also believe that [the discomforts of the metaphorical fetus in the womb] can be read as signs which point us towards some larger version of reality."

Beautiful! The will to capture the essense of the indescribable is the wellspring of great art. 

I believe many people are awakening to the truth of the multi-leveled consciousness you describe. It's nowhere near as rare as it was in the not-too-distant past thanks on the one hand to teachings, techniques and medicines passed down to us through the ages. On the other hand, why were more people not aware of the Assembly Beyond Space before now? I think just as the mother's labor only begins, perhaps, when the fetus is ready, so we had to be ready to become aware of ourselves as audience to our little stage and set. To transition fully to the new metaphor: I can no longer fully suspend my disbelief; the theater lights have come up. I find myself in an audience that shares a single body but observes through a multitude of eyes.

Then darkness. The next act begins. I am back on stage just slightly less than fully immersed in my acting. There I am, star of the show, eating my oatmeal, going to work, making love, feeling isolated, laughing at jokes, clipping my fingernails, reading to my kids, typing a response to a blizzard of words in the worldwide mind. 

"The Assembly Beyond Space"--Free meme!

Hi Zympht,

 

You wrote, “To transition fully to the new metaphor: I can no longer fully suspend my disbelief; the theater lights have come up. I find myself in an audience that shares a single body but observes through a multitude of eyes.

“Then darkness. The next act begins. I am back on stage just slightly less than fully immersed in my acting. There I am, star of the show, eating my oatmeal, going to work, making love, feeling isolated, laughing at jokes, clipping my fingernails, reading to my kids, typing a response to a blizzard of words in the worldwide mind.”

Yes, it seems that you not only recognized exactly what I was talking about, but that you have also had similar experiences. I am not at all used to this. Up until recently, no matter how I tried to explain certain things, only tiny bits and pieces would get through; my words were often clear enough—or, at least, as clear as I could make them—but the larger context in which they existed did not yet allow them to be heard. For quite a number of years, I did not bother to give readings or to put any material out.

More recently, at Evolver Boston events and at other venues, I have been shocked to hear people laughing in all the right places, with shouts of sudden recognition and little orgasmic cries here and there. Perhaps I will live long enough after all to find a general audience! I thought that this might take about a 150 years. Speaking of audiences: I am glad that the phrase “The Assembly Beyond Space” has a familiar ring and some degree of resonance for you. So far as I know, this phrase comes out of my experience in the early 1990s, and has not been used before. It would be neat if it started popping up here and there.

Yesterday, I posted a poem written in 1990 on my blog. It is section 8 from “To Akasha/ Part 2; The Gate that Opens out of Nowhere onto Nowhere.” This piece is more ecstatic than coherent, but it captures the somewhat hallucinatory sense of expansion and inside-out reversal of perspective that I was experiencing during this period. It reads as follows:

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It is morning in America when the UFOs destroy Alaska. Exxon to Valdez brings gold. Gorbachov has jigged out singing love songs onto Noah’s ark. His nakedness becomes him.

A birthday suit puts on Bukhara. Aladdin’s lamp has brought instructions for Czar Nicholas the 3rd. "Attention! The mother of all battles is to give birth to the sun. Arms cannot find human owners." The Brahmins dance from funeral pyres in Boston.

Midnight dawns on Katmandu. Tamberlane ascends to Pluto in a cage. Used graves turn in Tauregs. The fire walk of the Rum Rico Buddhas has ended in disaster.

What new sun boils from the western wave? To Alpha Centaur has a blue Columbus sailed on semen. The great snake of the ocean flames. Its plumes have made a robe of Texaco. It has swallowed several continents.


Light violates from Sirius the Virgin Gorilla Mary. A marriage is performed at Cana. The age of iron has been swallowed by the 3rd. It has ended before it started.

The Ark de Triomphe has made peace with war. The keys to hell have opened iron.

For the Atlantic Ocean has a drain been built. Light’s mountains have appeared. 10 thousand spotlights have been set on crags to illuminate atomic structure. They shine upon the shell of Belgrade. Benares’ bank vaults have reclaimed their Brahmins.


On a virgin’s back the great beast rides. He rises, fuming, from a pinhead ocean. What mother’s milk has caused the holocaust? From a fractured shell he looks towards Gaia. Armageddon has now ended. A 5th sun has been made.

 

(Illustration: Brian George, Coiled snake, 1992)

 

Nice very nice

Extensive, i do so love the fusion of the visionary and the practical, i realize how we visionaries struggle to make sense of our visions and to bring them into form in an inconceivable timeline, yet deny them we cannot. Nice writing, as well reminds me of licking honey off a chainsaw it reminds me lot of my own, but then the stored fury of an unheard visionary is something savage to behold. i come from a non dual view so even the demons and the powers are self that just need to be integrated into the perfection of a dance we can only see by observing the point instant reflections as they arise as part of the greater whole. If you liked this article check out my site www.buddhabrats.com and especially http://www.buddhabrats.com/adamantine-awareness/ http://www.buddhabrats.com/buddha-brats-book/free-chapters/the-left-hand... adamas

Horizon hung from Zero

Hi Adamastiamat,

I got about four paragraphs down in your “Buddha Brats” post “The Diamond Mind; Slicing through Delusion” and I realized that I was going to have to spend much more time with your work. From the first quote, you had my attention. You quoted Robert Beer, who wrote, “The Vajra essentially symbolizes the impenetrable, immovable, immutable, indivisible, and indestructible state of enlightenment or Buddhahood as Vajra mind.”

Long before I had any reasonable expectation that I would understand or experience the force that it embodied, I have been fascinated by the image of the Vajra. Beginning around 1990, when I became more seriously focused on Kundalini Yoga, I began to have direct experiences of primordial energy erupting out of emptiness, and realized that this was very much of a tutelary symbol for me—or perhaps a kind of heraldic crest. More recently, I have been amazed to read to see some of the photographs taken by Michael Talbot in his research in to the “Electric Universe,” in which activated plasma produces the whole variety of Vajra and lightning bolt shapes that you see in the Tibetan, Babylonian, Greek, and Roman traditions.

As I said, the experience of energy arising out the void became quite direct and personal for me. For a number of years, one of my primary forms of meditation—actually, I don’t know where the method came from—was to stare, with my eyes wide open, at the energy vibrating in the air. The space around me would begin to flicker and ignite, nets would form, sparks and lightning bolts would shoot back and forth. If pursued to its limit, this would result in my being bathed in convulsive waves of energy. These experiences had a big impact on both my writing and my visual work.

I will look forward to spending more time on your site.

 

(Illustration: Brian George, Skull and lotus, 1991)

great

Glad you like, it is just up your street, fancy a reciprocal link

 

Adamas 

The perils of technological dinosaurism

Hi Adamas,

I would be happy to do a reciprocal link, but I can't quite figure out how to do it. When I click on "follow" on Buddhabrats, it brings me to Twitter, whereas I am on Google Blogger. Probably an idiotic question, but how do I set up the link?  I'm afraid that I am something of a technological dinosaur. Perhaps you could email me with instructons? }:-)

Thunderbolts of the gods

Hi Adama,

I seem to have created a double post again, and the system won't let me take it off. So let me put something of potential interest up. Have you seen the photographs of Talbot's plasma experiments in which the plasma forms all of the versions of the vajra and the other lightning bolts of the gods?

Cosmogenesis; In a Small Boat, Drifting on the Ocean

Licking honey off a chainsaw! What an awesome image……..never heard that one before. Hi Brian, you alluded to infinite potentialities / realities……..I’m wondering what you think about the possibility that we can ‘dip’ into and out of these realities simply by our thought patterns and intention. At some point do we ‘lock’ into a particular reality stream based on majority focus or is it possible to ‘jump ship’ as our beliefs and understanding of the universe changes? I guess I’m wondering if there is a clock ticking on all of this……

The alchemy of the word

Hi Sphinx,

"Licking honey off a chainsaw"--yes, one of my favorite passtimes. Unfortunately, since I lost my tongue, I can't really talk about it anymore. }:-) I'll get back to the rest of your comment a bit later.

The creators, amnesiac, hid

Hi Sphinx,

“I’m wondering what you think about the possibility that we can ‘dip’ into and out of these realities simply by our thought patterns and intention. At some point do we ‘lock’ into a particular reality stream based on majority focus or is it possible to ‘jump ship’ as our beliefs and understanding of the universe changes?”

It’s a hard thing to determine just how fixed our boundaries are, and how much of this is determined by our culture and how much by personal habits of perception that can be changed. There is an interesting story—I don’t know if it is true—that when Spanish ships first dropped anchor off the coast of Tierra del Fuego, the inhabitants of the area, having never seen a ship before, did not actually register that anything was there when they looked out over the ocean.

There is certainly something highly arbitrary, as well as “fixed” or “sealed,” about the wavelength of reality that we allow ourselves to perceive. A part of this has to do with personal habits, which can be changed, a part is cultural, and this may involve many unconscious biases that our descendants will find outrageous and absurd, and still another part may have to do with the large-scale movements of the time-cycle.

In 3000 years, the technology of the laptop may seem as incomprehensible to the people of that culture as the electromagnetic technology of Stonehenge and the Pyramid of Giza does to us. Since time is simultaneous as well as linear, it makes sense that these habits of perception are in no way absolute—and that even the “laws of nature” may not be other than habits in disguise--but I tend to think that a change of thought patterns alone is not quite enough to free us. It is, however, a good place to start.

Then again, Nargarjuna’s rational methodology of emptiness—that we and the reality that supports us are “Not this; not that,” if pursued to its limit, could very well clear out and open up a vast amount of space.

Here is a short poem from my book “The Preexistent Race Descends” that may be relevant:

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“We have shut up each creation of the mouth,” they said, “and on each stamped a seal—that you not return too soon to energy.”

So they thought before the great destruction came.

The creators, amnesiac, hid. Too intelligent their work by far!

(Illustration: Roberto Matta and Victor  Brauner collaboration) 

composted inspiration

Brian, Every paragraph you write is composted inspiration, seeding consciousness. How true that we are contemptuous of Death. "Even the sleepers are part of the Cosmos:" an excellent reminder in these days when duality in the cultural conversation is tearing us apart. While we must open our eyes to the societal distortions that divide the 99% from the 1%, we must keep in the back of our minds that the greater truth is we are all the 100%. The dark dream vision you describe expresses the link between personal and collective that was once part of a shaman's job description. As a child of the 50s, I dreamed visions of mushroom clouds; later of nuclear reactors. Every one of us has both personal planets and outer planets in her chart: a discrete individuality and the capacity to engage with the vastness of our era. For you the channel that links the two dimensions is wide open. Blessed be, Jessica M.

Autumnal fallout

Hi Jessica,

You wrote, “As a child of the 50s, I dreamed visions of mushroom clouds; later of nuclear reactors.” I vividly remember grammar school nuclear holocaust drills in the early 1960s: Get under your desk, and put your hands on your head. (!?!) Yes, that should work. Unintentional comedy—although I can appreciate the intention. I think that this was probably a legacy from the Second World War, during which the government launched massive rubber and scrap metal drives, which, as it turned out, were designed more to improve public morale than because the government didn’t have access to rubber and scrap metal. The principle seemed to be: it is always better to do something rather than nothing.

My memories from the year of the Cuban Missile Crisis are quite strange, and, I would say, almost wonderful. The emotions that it stirs are bittersweet and complex; an ache starts in my solar plexus and spreads upwards to my heart. The crisis happened in October, about a month after the start of the school year. In Worcester, Massachusetts, where I lived, the leaves were just beginning to change color—red and gold. Still, I can hear them crunching underfoot as I walked to school at 7:30 AM, and, still, I can see them floating from the trees.

This was probably the first time that I became aware of the possibility of my own death, as well as of the possible destruction of the rest of the human race and the planet. But the sensation was that of the Japanese Cherry Blossom Festival: a sense of the beauty and the transience of all things washed over me—or, perhaps I should say: blew over me. The beauty of the flame-like foliage on the trees was a harbinger of the descent of actual flame; the gentle falling of the leaves was perhaps a prelude to the imminent vaporization of our bodies, and to the gentle descent of our ashes through the air.

Sleepers hard at work

Hi Jessica,

You wrote, “’Even the sleepers are part of the Cosmos:’ an excellent reminder in these days when duality in the cultural conversation is tearing us apart. While we must open our eyes to the societal distortions that divide the 99% from the 1%, we must keep in the back of our minds that the greater truth is we are all the 100%.” Once Aeolus Kephas—whose excellent essay “The Serpent’s Promise; The Oldest Exchange of All” is currently attracting quite a bit of commentary on RS—asked if I might be interested in becoming a part of an “inner circle” of participants on “Stormy Weather,” a blog that he ran for several years. As great as my respect for Aeolus is, and as much as I enjoyed discussions in the “outer forum” for this blog, it goes 180 degrees against my nature to define myself in terms of any “inner circle.”

This might strike the casual observer of my writing as odd, since my style and some of my ideas and attitudes might appear to be esoteric, but this is more or less an accident of perception: My interests don’t match up with those of the majority of people; this is not though any desire to be special or obscure. I grew up, surrounded by factories and freight-yards, in a working class neighborhood in Worcester, and, whatever intellectual, creative, and spiritual directions I may have explored since then, I am still a child of that time and place. Somewhat shockingly, after coming of age as a countercultural revolutionary, I now find that my attitudes are not that different from my grandfather’s: I am still very much of a Roosevelt Democrat at heart.

Pineal Gland

Brian, You wrote: "On the one hand: we exist in a particular location, with all of the potential for stupidity that implies. On the other hand: we have an implant ---the pineal gland -- that allows us to change scale, and it is our job to restore the transparency of space." Are there any practices whereby one can learn to gain conscious control of the pineal gland, and do you know of any books about same?

The Hotel Splendide

“Madame X put a piano in the Alps. Mass and First Communion were given at the hundred thousand altars of the cathedral. Caravans left. The Hotel Splendide was built atop a chaos of ice in the polar night”—Rimbaud

“Far-famed Soma, stretch out our life-span so that we may live. The glorious drops that I have drunk set me free in wide space. You have bound me together in my limbs as thongs bind a chariot. Let the drops protect me from the foot that stumbles and keep lameness away from me. Inflame me like a fire kindled by friction; make us see far; make us richer, better. For when I am intoxicated with you, Soma, I think myself rich. Draw near and make us thrive; we would enjoy you, pressed with a fervent heart, like riches from a father. King Soma, stretch out our life-spans as the sun stretches out spring days.”—From the Rig Veda, “We Have Drunk Soma,” tr. Wendy Donniger-O’Flaherty

Hi Fightfromwithin,

You wrote, "Are there any practices whereby one can learn to gain conscious control of the pineal gland, and do you know of any books about same?"

One book that was valuable to me in this direction was Mantak Chia’s “Taoist Secrets of Love; Cultivating Male Sexual Energy.” Anything else by Chia is also good. Opening and expanding the “microcosmic orbit” seems central to being able to activate and fuel the pineal gland, which, under certain conditions, will then produce a controlled amount of a DMT type substance—which I believe is the original version of “Soma” that is referred to in the Rig Veda. 

There is much debate, of course, over exactly what Soma was. On one level, Soma was certainly an entheogenic substance, or perhaps a mixture of substances. On the level that I am speaking about, it is a perception-altering substance produced when the body is in a high energy state—most often when this state is held for some period of time; the pineal gland, which is usually dormant, is reactivated, and releases a substance that floods the system and also—don’t ask me how!—seems to drip through the roof of the mouth. Something of this sort may be going on in the typical NDE, and access to the gateway of the pineal gland was probably more common, if not exactly widespread, in a number of other cultures—such as that of the Kung Bushmen—and in the ancient world. My intuition is that Soma also exists on an entirely non-physical level--as the “nectar of the gods.” On this level, it can be viewed as a primordial substance with no connection to a particular world, and is perhaps the catalyst responsible for the “Ananda”—or bliss—component of the triad of “Sat. Chit. Ananda.” 

My own creative and yogic methods for accessing the pineal gland are probably too idiosyncratic to be of use to anyone else. I am not much of a believer in methods, and each person has his/ her individual path. I can share a little bit of my experience, however, for whatever it might be worth. 

My path was a circuitous one. From the ages of about 16-20, I had a number of spontaneously arising Kundalini experiences, which may or may not have been prompted by my experiments with hallucinogens. These experiences were somewhat violent, if ecstatic. They scared the hell out of me. I had no teachers that I could turn to, no dependable written information as to the nature of the energy, and no real sense of what was going on. I thought that I might be going insane. This caused me to end my brief period of experimentation with hallucinogens. I felt that I had to slow things down.

For the next 10-15 years, I had fairly frequent out-of-body experiences, which sometimes took me to other realms, as well as much less frequent, highly volcanic, experiences of being picked up and transported. Oddly, however, I would say that my general level of energy during this period was not particularly high. My body/ mind often felt inert. In the mid-1980s, I had a Taoist meditation teacher called Dennis Wilmont, who would say things like, “First, pull up energy though your feet.” Although I knew better even then, I could not help but think of this as a visualization exercise. Progress was slow. In retrospect, perhaps this was the very “slowness” that I had earlier requested!

In the spring of 1990, I could feel something just beginning to shift, although my first tendency was to interpret this as a possible medical issue. I felt an enormous pressure building up in my head. It was not a pleasant sensation--perhaps an aneurism about to burst? A visit to the doctor and subsequent tests did not reassure me. Finally, at the beginning of the summer of that year, I came across a flyer on a lamp post announcing that Asha (now Anandi) Ma would be appearing at a church in Harvard Square. I went. Upon entering the space, I felt as though I were pushing my way through a powerful electromagnetic field, which also had a kind of radioactive aspect to it. I was with my girlfriend, who didn’t notice it at all. Just more of the same old Vedic talking points! Quite suddenly, I felt that I had come home. And that here was a person who knew what she was doing. 

About six weeks later, in August, I traveled to the Berkshires to receive Shaktipat—a kind of energy transfer that is like jump-starting a dead battery with a live one. So many of the practices that I had studied through the 1980s now came vividly alive, and I felt that my body/ mind had become a set of giant lungs.

So: as the energy burned through and cleared out various parts of and systems in the body, I felt as though I finally had the fuel to put my slowly acquired knowledge to good use—that I could pull up energy through the feet, that I could move it up the central channel of the spine, hold it, with one-pointed intensity, in the area of the third eye or the pineal gland, draw it down through the roof of the mouth, and then focus it on any area of the body where it seemed that work had to be done. It was my sense, at this time, that I had rediscovered the means by which the whole of the manifest universe had been created. At last, I felt as though I could knock on the door of the pineal gland, to say, “Is it ok to come in?” “Well, since you asked politely,” would often be the response. 

Since then, bit by bit, after a number of years during which the dominant element seemed to be fire, and primary mode of vision that of violent breakthrough and illumination, my method now is somewhat cooler and less disruptive. I am hesitant to call it “lunar” rather than “solar,” because I don’t know that this explains much of anything, but the sense is that of being able to move freely up and down and in and out through space, and of simultaneously being able to see things that are happening on different scales.

(Illustration: Brian George, Keyhole, with fish swimming through, 2003)

New posts every 2-3 days on my blog Masks of Origins

http://masksoforigin.blogspot.com/

 

Wow

That's an incredible story, I have never heard of someone's energy evolving like that.  The last paragraph in particular strikes me: "Since then, bit by bit, after a number of years during which the dominant element seemed to be fire, and primary mode of vision that of violent breakthrough and illumination, my method now is somewhat cooler and less disruptive. I am hesitant to call it “lunar” rather than “solar,” because I don’t know that this explains much of anything, but the sense is that of being able to move freely up and down and in and out through space, and of simultaneously being able to see things that are happening on different scales."  I seek a somewhat stable energy flow, as for me inspiration/ecstasy comes in forceful flows and dreadful ebbs, and it is somewhat difficult to productively channel it because it isn't predictable.  I'll definitely read up on the pineal, and see what other practices appeal to me.

nothing special

Hi fightfromwithin, I'll give you a piece of my story in hopes that it will help. It's not as crackling and vivid as Brian's, which is amazing by the way, Brian, but perhaps the value is precisely the lack of luster. You don't need sudden and dramatic phenomena to come to a deeper sense of truth. Nor, I believe, do you need to gain control of your pineal gland. So here you go. The big secret is that there is no big secret. What you seek is already with you every moment, even in those moments when you doubt it. The process of realizing this is more a willful stepping back from all your ideas and concepts rather than a mindful acquiring some new piece of information that will suddenly change everything. This is not something that can be taught or explained. But there are many good sources of pointers that can help you give up the game of seeking and step into JUST BEING. The book that sealed the deal for me was I Am That by Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj. This book is special in its simple language and complete lack of any ritual or traditional surrogate. Nisargadatta, a simple working class 20th century Indian, unwinds with incredible, brutal sharpness all of the confounded and befuddled questions of his visitors, pointing out to them over and over that the one thing that has been with them always and unchanging is the simple fact of being. He is an icon in the nondual branch of spirituality.

For me, rejoining the Assembly Beyond Space (works for me!), has with practice become like relaxing a muscle in my brain. Maybe that's controlling my pineal gland, I don't know and it doesn't matter to me. It's not something I can think or feel my way into. It is more an act of willful abandonment or of interruption, but without the active, negative quality those words entail. I find it helpful to start with wide-angle vision, that is becoming conscious of the entire visual field rather than the narrow one you have, for example, right now reading this on your electronic device. This moves the visual mind towards saturation, keeping it busy for the moment that I need to then simply notice what is conscious of the visual field. If I have an internal dialog going, a story of me, then I include that in the noticing. It's not the mind that is noticing, but something prior to it that also includes it. There is consciousness, there is a sense of being. That's all. But it's also everything. Also, don't look or grasp for some kind of permanent change. You will move into and out of observer-consciousness. Don't worry about how long or become adicted to how good it feels or how simple and clear everything is. All is as it should be, even when you are lodged firmly in your ego-mind just trying to get by in the 3D world. It takes practice and patience. You'll soon be able to "do" this at will and anywhere. Any thoughts of "I can't do this" or "I don't know how" can be allowed to release and should not be dwelled upon, as you actually cannot not do this. You actually are this all the time, but are just otherwise preoccupied.

If you're interested at all in this line of practice, here is a nondual blogger that will kick your dualistic ass: http://seeing-knowing.com.

Enjoy!

Solid Words

Thanks Zympht, that's some good advice, and an interesting and useful blog.  Here's a link to a hip hop song this reminds me of:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zp4_r8_MMho

The everyday reality of exploration

“—And suddenly a moment, a thought, a combination that reveals itself to us with the speed of lightning shakes us, throws us down before ourselves as if before the statue of an unknown god. As the earthquake shakes the column on its plinth, we shudder to the depths of our entrails. Then we cast a surprised eye on things. It is the moment. The Proteus who sleeps in us has opened his eyes. And we say what must be said. These jolts are for us what snares and tortures were to the sea-green prophet.”—Giorgio de Chirico, 1912

Hi Zympht and Fightromwithin,

After reading and then participating in the forum for Aeolus Kephas’s “The Serpent’s Promise; The Oldest Exchange of All,” in which Aeolus documents his disillusionment with hallucinogens, I began to think about my own non-position on this subject, and to formulate the story-line of my non-entheogen-centered approach to exploration. At RS, I had always been a bit self-conscious about doing this—kind of like rhapsodizing about the virtues of the Great Goddess at a convention of Southern Baptists, or singing the praises of Poland Springs water at a neighborhood Irish sports bar. The phrase “death wish” comes to mind! It’s not as if I were in any way opposed to their use, or had any morally superior viewpoints to put forth. Let me explain my attitude this way: at one point I found LSD, mescaline and peyote useful, but, for the past 36 years or so, I have been focused on other methods.

Then too, there is the issue of not wanting to “bite the hand (of the audience) that feeds me”—figuratively speaking, of course.  For whatever, reason, many of the most enthusiastic supporters of my work are actively involved in plant-based experimentation, which leads them to pick up on certain implications or be willing to follow, link by link, certain chains of association that to the average person might seem absurd. It is important to be able to sense when what might appear to be a flight of abstract poetry should, in fact, be taken at face value.

My method is a simple one: to begin from where I am—with all of the limitations of personality and perspective that this implies. I would never wear a robe, for example, aside from the beat up gray bathrobe that my wife gave me for Christmas 10 years ago; I would never list all of the self-awarded cosmic titles and certificates of importance such as seem to be common in the ads for teachers, healers, and various other practitioners at the back of New Age magazines. I am not, “Brian George: Celtic Metaphysical Warrior Poet, Leash-Holder of the Dog Star, Sirius, and 10-D Master Plumber from the Assembly Beyond Space." Though I might sometimes launch “raids on the unspeakable” by means of a persona, such as that of a 432,000 year-old trickster, this is nothing more than a creative device. I have never used a screen name. I am simply “Brian George,” for whatever that is worth. My method is idiosyncratic, but not special, and I tend to avoid all unnecessary drama. Nonetheless, in attempting to write about my own—at last, reasonably well-grounded—approach, I’m afraid that I have made my makeshift strategies sound altogether more dramatic than they are.

My goal in certain posts on this forum was just to piece together the key stages and realizations and points of transition that helped me to define my working method. Let me assure you that this method is not “fun!” Rather, it is based on an acceptance of my own stupidity, which has somehow—god knows how—over the past 35 years, become an ally rather than an opponent. The focus on the pineal gland was somewhat accidental: While it does possess the space and scale altering capacity that I describe, it is really just one more point to focus on as you are moving energy through the microcosmic orbit. Earth energy, through the feet and base of the spine, up. Sky energy, through the head and roof of the mouth, down—with the tongue positioned to complete the circuit. The grounding of macrocosmic energy is not different than the breathing that we do at every moment of every day.

My own non-method could be defined as follows: A sudden flash of intuition or a breakthrough which must then be interpreted and projected into linear form by means of days, weeks, months, or years of hard work. Inevitably, this leads to periods of boredom and disgust—not bad things—which teach you to take a kind of objective interest in your limits, and, with some luck, to become a parent to yourself. The creative wall that you bang your head against does not necessarily become softer through long repetition—since the limit is not just personal but also metaphysical. To actively do nothing is often the best bet. Then, at odd moments, you might find that you have just gone somewhere else—that you are no longer on the same side of the wall. Every block should be interpreted as a potential source of energy, and every obstacle as a potential doorway to the beyond.

Good habits are important. When sitting down to write, or to follow the inflow and outflow of the breath into an alternate state of perception, trust that nothing much might happen for the first two to three hours, but that, at some moment not at all of your own choosing, the energy might begin to accelerate and cohere, thus providing one with a more or less adequate amount of fuel; the 10-D vehicle of the human body will then be ready for its flight. Once underway, your sense of time—or time itself—will begin to alter; this will allow you to ride the energy for 12-16 hours per day. Hold an image of your desired end point in your mind, but do not be overly fixated upon it. Be curious about detours, do your best to read even untranslated signs. The good traveler wastes nothing, and makes use of even the most unpleasant of interruptions. Repeat as needed. Mixed in, there should always be some reasonable amount of joy.

(Illustration: Giorgio de Chirico, The Nostalgia of the Poet, 1913)

understanding premises and terms

Your economic argument is against crony capitalism or fascism. The USA does not have pure capitalism. Socialism is just as immoral as crony capitalism/fascism because it empowers government, which has the legal monopoly on force, to violate the property (in this case wages) of one to be redistributed to another, ie stealing in the name of the law aka legal plunder. Society needs to be both free and moral. Green capitalism. http://www.natcap.org/

The perfection of the Byzantine water-clock

Hi Onetrilliondiamonds,

I took a look at your website—“Natural Capital; Creating the Next Industrial Revolution”—and I can tell that you have done a serious amount of thinking on these issues. Although I suspect that we have very different ways of looking at things, I have no interest in reflexively disagreeing with you.

My goal in writing this particular essay was not to advocate for any clear-cut economic or political position; it had more to do with the creation of a kind of metaphysical landscape—or perhaps stage set—within which I would lead the reader in examining certain shifts of scale. That being said, I do believe that the system that we have in place at the moment can be effectively described as “socialism for the rich; capitalism for the poor,” in which the operative principle has become “heads I win; tails you lose.” I strongly suspect that Teddy Roosevelt, Eisenhower, and even Nixon would be stunned and horrified by how quickly we have turned into a kind of Third World plutocracy.

To me, this is not really a question of right/ left opposition. In a recent essay, I quoted a line from the Tao Te Ching, “What has reached its zenith will soon end.” Since the late 1970s, I had felt that way about the Soviet Union, and thus it seemed pointless to attempt to defeat them. I feel the same way about the current US version of crony capitalism. Any healthy system depends upon a dynamic balance of forces—between, let’s say, self and community, industry and nature, pragmatism and vision, core principles and innovation—but what has been locked in place at the moment is as rigid and top-heavy as the 9th Century Byzantine aristocracy.

I am working on a new piece called “Trust but Verify,” which is a response to Jonathan Zap’s recent RS post “Foxes and Reptiles; Psychopathy and the Financial Meltdown.” These two paragraphs are somewhat hyperbolic, but I think not entirely off the mark:

"The current global laissez-faire economy is like a body without an immune system.

"Death is imminent; doing nothing is not safe. No laws protect us, and a vast shadow eats the animatronic organs of Democracy—which should leave, in the near future, just a shell. It has been 66 years since happy US soldiers jitterbugged with nurses in the street, or grabbed random strangers to kiss. We had beaten the Axis powers. The Free World loved us. We were a beacon to the dispossessed. Now Corporate Fascism rules. Lawyers are the new Luftwaffe. Judges are the SS. Hedge funds are the new Reich Bureau of Occult Affairs. MSNBC, FOX, and CNN compete for the mantle of Reich Ministry of Public Enlightenment and Propaganda. They report all the news that’s fit to be projected, that is to say: Before its Time, and provide us will all viewpoints from A to B.

"In love, from childhood, with the American Dream, we are hesitant to acknowledge that the year is not 1948. A few dollars are left: they will be sent to an off-shore bank in the Caiman Islands. We are not what we were, but at least let it be said that we have kept up our appearances. No one knows when the Barbarians walked casually in through the gates. Now, they are more inside than we are. They are closer to the Mad Fetus in the control room than we ever were—except, perhaps, at ceremonies for dead heroes in their transfer tubes. There are rings inside of rings, with fail-safe mechanisms at key bioenergetic points. The gods that descend from the Black Sun must be fed. Select Stockholm Syndrome victims may be called upon to remove remnants of the burnt offering from the table, at which point the law specifies that it be ritually re-sanitized. The Barbarians wasted no time in dismantling the gates, in order to put up their own gates—which keep us from getting out. The life of the Republic is hanging by a thread. The Supreme Court will soon meet to decide a case about scissors. Perfectly dressed, a force that is not quite human has been scheduled to attack.

"There are those who say that our response is several decades behind the curve."

rise & shine

Hello Brian, In reference to your comment that there is a purpose to unconsciousness. I certainly agree. If we were not unconscious, if we did not agree to be amnesic, we would not be able to process all of our experiences in 3D. Unconsciousness keeps us safe; keeps us from blowing fuses……then when we are ready to begin the slow process of arising from our slumber the physical groundwork is laid so that we can handle the charge, the voltage to come. However, those who experiment with entities from other realms or with hallucinogens (or even both) run the risk of turning on the generator before it is ready to run at full power….but then again, maybe that was part of the plan too……

Mysterious baths and the art of lucid dreaming

Hi Sphinx,

You wrote, "Unconsciousness keeps us safe; keeps us from blowing fuses……then when we are ready to begin the slow process of arising from our slumber the physical groundwork is laid so that we can handle the charge, the voltage to come.”

Curiously, just as you were posting that I posted an excerpt from a poem in my response to Fightfromwithin which reads, “It is possible, however, that our ignorance is a hoax, a strategy that the double has instituted for our safety. Our enemies would destroy us. Quickly, for our supernatural weapons are in storage. The years have rusted our battle skills. We have lost the subtle art of bi-location. Should our memories return, our egos would be transformed into spheres.”

At the moment, I am trying to sharpen and deepen my ability to read even the most commonplace of events and realities as “signs.” Such things as breathing in and out, for example, or waking and sleeping, can be read as particular instances of much larger cosmic principles. So too, in terms of the idea of “cosmogenesis,” we can look at the nine months of a human pregnancy and attempt to intuit how this period of incubation corresponds to the nine gods that make up the Egyptian “Enead” or the nine worlds to be found in Norse mythology. Or we can look at the newly fertilized ovum in terms of the key principle that it embodies: that something tiny and simple and apparently powerless can grow until it reaches the maximum boundary of the womb, and then beyond.

So: if we think in terms of overlapping worlds, with layer upon layer of correspondences between them, we can perhaps compare our normal “waking” state with the omniscient clarity that is characteristic of the “Atman,” or primal self. The nightly “dream” state might correspond to symbol-rich fertility of semi-conscious personal incarnation, which is more limited, in some respects, than the waking state, but which opens up an alternate range of possibilities for action. The state corresponding to “deep sleep” perhaps corresponds to the more purely mechanical of our social and biological functions.

Quite often, we can experience these states as disconnected, or even opposed, but there is no reason that they cannot work together. For example, there are days when I might work for 10-12 hours to push through some form of creative blockage in my writing, or to resolve some apparent contradiction, or to make some leap of association that just doesn’t want to happen. The harder I work, the more difficult the problem becomes, and the more impossible the impasse seems to get around. My strategy is usually just to go to sleep. In the morning, three times out of four, the problem has been quite beautifully resolved.

To become more fully conscious is perhaps like becoming aware of the fact that one is dreaming: one’s actions may, in the end, not really be any different, but one’s greater lucidity transposes the whole context of the action. I heard a saying recently that struck a chord: that the secret to true happiness is to want exactly what one has. I believe that this also applies to the relationship between the personal self and its preexistent double: that, rather than attempting to “create our own reality” as a projection of the fantasies of the will, we should rather embrace and celebrate the story that, before birth, we had volunteered to act out. Read in this way, each commonplace event can be interpreted as a sign—not: 12,000 years of hard labor in the underworld, but rather: the mad slow-motion dance of our collaboration with a genius.

(Illustration: Giorgio de Chirico, Mysterious Baths) 

Occupy Labyrinth

Jonathan Zap of zaporacle.com Hey Brian, Just thought of a good title if you wanted to publish an anthology of your writings this year: Occupy Labyrinth But it looks like there's a place, on RS, at least for the labyrinthine and surreal rebellion from patriarchy, as well as for those who are concise, organized and prone toward utopian social engineering. I indulge the surreal rebellion every so often myself. See: http://www.zaporacle.com/friends-dont-let-friends-incarnate-in-the-babyl...

Decentalized lucidity

I will have you know, Jonathan, that my statements are very concise: there are just a whole lot of them, going off in many directions!

Got to get dinner started--more of a response tomorrow.

Be happy, but do not expect to return alive

Hi Jonathan,

1) At 5:45 AM today, a mechanized strike squad in full alarm-gear evicted Brian George from the Labyrinth, where he had been enjoying a pleasant dream.

2) Thanks for the book title suggestion! At the moment, though, the names of the three books of essays that I’ve been working on are pretty much of a done deal. These are as follows:

1) Masks of Origin/ Part 1; Regression in the Service of Omnipotence

2) Masks of Origin/ Part 2; Voyage to a Nonexistent Home

3) Masks of Origin/ Part 3; The Transplantation of Omphalos

There are mythological and cosmological themes that tie the three books together, but the focus of the first is more biographical, that of the second more artistic, spiritual, and world-mythological, and that of the last more social and political.

3) While I am not usually given to flights of guarded optimism, I do feel heartened and delighted by the spread of the “Occupy” movements. If I were going to imagine a movement into existence, this would probably be it. After the theft of the 2000 Presidential election, the engineering and marketing of an utterly fake war, the relentless exporting of jobs out of the country, and the transformation of the US into a Third World “banana republic” without the bananas, I began to think that the 99% might be permanently asleep. Some kind of weird Invasion of the Body Snatchers version of the Stockholm Syndrome seemed to have taken over.

Now, I am allowing myself some small amount of guarded optimism. I knew that violent revolt—whatever its romantic appeal—had no chance of succeeding, and could also be too easily steered and corrupted by undercover agents. Police and the military are well trained and equipped with very sophisticated crowd control technologies. The slightest bad behavior on the part of the Occupiers could be used to discredit the entire movement.

For whatever reason, Gandhi’s concept of “Satyagraha” is often translated as “passive resistance,” but a closer translation would be “the active force of truth.” To some extent, it is an approach that works best when all more conventional outlets for action have been closed; being fiercely present then becomes the most—or only—practical course of action. I came across a fascinating quote from Gandhi yesterday, which reads, "Where there is only a choice between cowardice and violence," wrote Gandhi, “I would advise violence.” This illustrates the centrality of courage to this approach. More than anything else, perhaps, it is courage in the face of overwhelming odds that empowers a small group to win over its opponents, and, at various points along the way, to turn enemies into friends. Such courage will be needed in the months ahead.

4) An excerpt from section 8—“The Departure”—from “Maps of the Metaphysical Double; In the Footprints of de Chirico”:

The preexistent race was haunted by nostalgia. A bird spoke: “Follow the thread backward through the labyrinth. Be happy, but do not expect to return alive.”

In the city of tall buildings not one leaf moved. The long shadow of a bird led the travelers to a gate. They would be sad to leave everything and everyone they knew. They turned to board the paper sailboat bobbing in the harbor.