Adam Clay, Lazarus Mouse and the Kingdom of Eros

"The last time he had sex with me, he was so forceful that it hurt me. I was really sore. He is not a visibly violent person, but this manner of sex tells me something about his latent hostility!”

This man is ruled by an archetype. An archetype is created when universal patterns or tendencies mold and define a person. Archetypes are mirrors of the human condition. They are illusions that form a barrier between the ego (conscious I) and the Self (unconscious I). Archetypes may be unlearned, and replaced with self-awareness. Examples of common archetypes are the Clown, the Thief, and the Maiden.

“Adam Clay” is a term that correlates to hypersexual masculine expression. When we deconstruct Adam Clay it is revealed that the archetype becomes the most balanced when exerting maximum force toward a goal it believes it can achieve. This force is libido. Sport is convenient and ideal for diverting libidinal energy. The reason we dance so little is that we are too athletic. Athletics are great, but we cannot evolve without applying a new rule to them: People must stop being competitive.  

Because of Adam Clay, men express love through forceful sex just like their partners receiving it). Let’s call the violence of Adam Clay’s sexual force “Ares” and use “Eros” to name the love man expresses in forceful sex.  Ares and Eros are on a pendulum in all spheres of human influence. If a person acts out of Ares, law is broken and death and hardship rule the day. If a person acts from Eros without compensating for Ares, they cannot survive. And so the pendulum swings.

When partners consensually unite in forceful sex, the pendulum is transcended. Eros neutralizes Ares, allowing the couple to bypass the pendulum of Ares & Eros altogether for a time, as they alchemically transform Ares into a massive dose of Eros. Yum.  The greater the expression of Ares, the more erotic sex can be - up to a point. Past that point Ares harms the body and its dignity, creating a black hole of feelinglessness. From this feelinglessness Ares creates the Dominatrix. 

In response to numbness, the dominatrix commands feeling. In response to misogyny, she demands respect. She is a personage of female Yang. The man whom Adam Clay rules has an inner-woman. All men do. She personifies receptivity, feelings and balance – male Yin. While Adam Clay’s stability relies on forcing the world into balance, the stability of his inner-woman lets the world be, which brings it into balance. Man’s inner-woman is elementally neutral toward that which compels Adam Clay. The Dominatrix emerges through this neutrality in response to man’s hypersexuality. 

Adam Clay carries such blind rage his inner-woman won’t have anything to do with him. 

To fend off Adam Clay some men compulsively attempt to personify their inner-women through crossdressing, others through forced feminization and still others through drink or denial. As man ages the power of youth wanes, allowing him more balance. Balance is an attribute of the inner-woman. If a man loses power because of drama (not age), Adam Clay has a tendency to awaken.  Adam Clay can make a man abysmally selfish, sometimes until his life is hardly more than debris to the planet, till he is more archetype than man.

I had the following dream - a lesson about balancing man’s lack of erotic receptivity: There are six men lying supine on tables. None is allowed to move, at all. I am one of six gleeful women wearing lingerie and satin gowns. At the same time, we each mount one of the men for a few seconds. Then we simultaneously dismount and move on to the next, and so on to the next and the next, having sex with all the men. Meanwhile the men are meditatively still. 

Were a man presented with the opportunity to participate in a waking-life event such as this, Adam Clay would make it difficult for him to approach it respectfully. When the man ruled by Adam Clay approaches this event respectfully, for the sake of neutralizing Adam Clay, he would find the mix of meditative stillness and erotic pleasure agitating in the extreme. By focusing on releasing agitation, man releases Adam Clay. 

The dream offers a hyperbolic antidote to Adam Clay’s Ares. Instead of dominant and aggressive, Adam Clay must remain supine and receptive. If the man forces the archetype to remain receptive, through his penis, Adam Clay will dissipate and the man will be transformed, but not instantly. His transformation takes place through willful devotion to changing his relationship to Eros. Eros is central to the broader, global and cosmic existential shift toward greater awareness.

Nowhere in the Bible is it stated word-for-word that the lion will lie down with lamb. The verse most nearly echoing the prediction is Isaiah 11:6: “The wolf also shall dwell with the lamb, and the leopard shall lie down with the kid; and the calf and the young lion and the fatling together; and a little child shall lead them.”  The verse literally describes harmony as it is in the New Kingdom.  

The New Kingdom is the post-apocalyptic world. In the New Kingdom, knowledge conceived in Eden from the Tree of Knowledge has cleansed the Beast from human reality. Hence, hence lion may lie down with lamb. “The Beast” is a name for the biological legacy of evolution. Spiritual evolution overcomes the Beast. Without the Beast to contend with, humanity may focus on existence before survival. Without the Beast obscuring existence, humanity’s relation to the world comes to mirror God’s, and the types of extraordinary relationships between man & beast – e.g., those that St. Francis is remembered for - become normative.  

As the Beast is subdued with spiritual knowledge, animals take on a metaphorical function, like characters in a story. The metaphorical function of animals has been central to myth since its prehistoric advent. From the earliest times, stories about animals were suggestive of the relation between them and humanity that comes into being in the New Kingdom. In addition to myth, dreams are also rich with the metaphorical aspect of animals.

In the early 90s I dreamed the whole cat family, from the lion to the housecat proceeding side-by-side in a line sweeping from the front to the back of a church. While the lion stands for God, the cat family symbolizes Catholicism – Cat-holicism, or Holy Cat-ism, if you will. As the lion is known as King of Beasts, so God is King of the Beast in man. When the Lion lies down with the Lamb, God the Father is reunited with Christ the Son, on Earth. 

I have dreamed of Mary as a purple panther and Jesus as “the rare spotted tiger.” The purple shows Mary possessing a post-evolutionary color, a color of beauty and royalty, rather than survival and adaptation. “Rare spotted” refers to how Jesus is rarely directly experienced. When he is experienced, it is in forms that are impossible to anticipate. That is, as someone would not anticipate a tiger having spots, neither can they anticipate experiencing Jesus.  Where Catholicism is uncompromised by the Beast it becomes associated with the cat and is a vehicle of the New Kingdom.

As Christ can be symbolized as a cat, monks & nuns surrender themselves to him as mice so that he can torment the Beast out of them; tormenting them as cats do to mice – I know from experience. Purging the Beast is alchemical purgation. After purgation, Christ consumes the monk & nun like a cat eats mice. This is a metaphor for Christ integrating the monk & nun into his mystical body. Once they have been thus integrated, they are everlasting. Of them it can then be said: “I am in the Father as he is in me” (John 10:38). The Lion has lain own with the Lamb. 

The snake is another beast with an elaborate metaphorical side. For modern spiritualists the snake is typically associated with Kundalini, a “serpent power” or concentrated life-force. People practice Kundalini yoga, have Kundalini awakenings, and access Kundalini in Tantric sex without understanding the Kundalini Snake’s relation to Christ Cat.  

Kundalini Snake is within Christ Cat, being as central to Christ’s divine love as the snake is to every creature with a spine and brain. Where Kundalini is deeply instinctual, Christ consciousness is supremely ethical and self-aware. In the old world instinct and Christ did not mix. They are one in the New Kingdom, in the mystical body of Christ. 

Dream recipe: 

I am straddling a guy while he is in the lotus position. We toss a dead mouse back and forth. As we do this, the guy is trying to lift off the ground by accessing Kundalini. I ask him if this is what he is doing, Then the real goal of what we are doing is accomplished: The dead mouse begins walking on the guy’s crotch. This is how man can recover his penis from death. Were this to happen, relationships of Earth would shift, initiating change in cosmic proportion, initiating Everlasting Life. 

The Mouse is Eros. As the smallest warm-blooded creatures, mice convey meekness. Genuine meekness is a channel for immense feeling because it typically must remain out of view.  In trying to access Kundalini, man is misinformed about Kundalini’s relationship to Eros. To manipulate Eros & Kundalini, as he does when he tries at all, is to misuse them. In essence, Eros & Kundalini are powers to sacrifice oneself to, like a mouse giving itself to a cat, like monks and nuns giving themselves to Christ.  To pretend to be the Mouse to attract the Cat or Snake is folly, just as it is folly to manipulate Kundalini for Tantric sex without regard for Christ – and as it is also unheard of in the biological realm for a mouse to attract a cat or snake. 

Dominion in an erotic partnership invokes Ares. The more a partner claims dominion over the other, the less the Mouse lives, the more Eros dies. To serve Eros purely, as Christ does, the Cat receives the Mouse as the Mouse does the Cat, neither with dominion over the other. The essence of erotic partnership is expressed by Mouse/Mouse, Cat/Cat, Cat/Mouse, Mouse/Cat.  

I am holding my partner’s small foot, feeling her feeling. Eros spills across time into eternity.  In the dream my hand is the Cat and my partner’s foot is the Mouse. Though I play the Cat, I receive the Mouse, feeling her feeling.  Feeling another’s feeling subverts Ares. Forcing another to feel encourages Ares. Feeling another’s feeling is elemental to any form of compassion. As such, when partners feel each other’s feeling, there is sexual compassion. Sexual compassion nurtures saintly eroticism, vanquishing Ares, nurturing meekness, causing sex to lose its habituality, making each sexual event virginal. 

People may endeavor to find their meekness and dignity by suffering their alienation from themselves. In doing so, they cultivate new perspectives, and thereby they change.  In dreams, death symbolizes change. Conversely, in waking-life, change is a kind of mini-death. Change initially strips power, leaving people naked and imbalanced. Later, naked and balanced, they are reborn into a higher reality which sustains the sweet, white fire of erotic purity.

The following vision provides a glimpse of sex in the New Kingdom. I had the vision in 2000, a year I spent submerged visions. I was able to date the visions by how marvelous their scenes and how rich their colors. I dated this vision at 2450.

In the vision, two women are making love. Each has a penis and a vagina, but for the lovemaking they aren’t using their vaginas at all, only their penises. By getting in the right position, it would be possible for them to make love with all four sex organs simultaneously.

Woman A’s penis penetrates woman B through B’s penis, fluttering as it pushes B’s penis up inside of B. Then B’s penis pushes out, with both penis heads still touching. Woman B’s penis pushes A’s into A, fluttering and penetrating. Such penile movement becomes possible once Kundalini has married the flesh. Then there is no impotence or erection as we have known them. The penis is reunited with its snake nature. Like Moses’ staff, the penis becomes a snake.

Back and forth the women flutter into each other, crying out in ecstasy and weeping tears of joy. The tears stream, single file, into the eyes of the partner. Woman A is wearing a necklace of thorns that do not cut her.

The scene switches and woman A is standing on a little hill, flanked by two women on separate little hills. They are naked and streams of flowers are arcing through the air. They alternate poses with dance – sort of like voguing.

When they are in a pose, their bodies fill with Eros. They hold the pose for as long as they can bear, and then burst into dance as the Eros runs through them. In a few seconds, their bodies come to rest in another pose. Eros is breathing through them. They cry out in saintly, orgiastic ecstasy.

Images by J. Star and Jude Hill, used under Creative Commons license.